The Same Deep Water As You (28/54)
Sep. 16th, 2011 07:56 am
The Same Deep Water As You
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Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya / Akanishi Jin
Rating: Explicit
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Alternate Universe fiction. None of this is true.
Warnings: If there are any warnings for this story, you will find them here.
Summary: Kame's got his reasons for seeing prostitutes. Jin's got his reasons for being one. Life is pretty screwed up.
Notes: Story notes, acknowledgements and frantically reiterated disclaimers are here.
Notes2: Posting this from a bus stop on the Mountain of Monks without internet. Escaped the monks.
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Kame takes the wine cooler out of the shelf and puts it down, looks at the clock. Ten minutes or so. At this point, it's stupid to freak himself out.
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Date: 2011-09-16 12:19 am (UTC)I'm glad they both opened up a bit more about themselves too - especially Jin since he doesn't usually like to say what he's interested in or what he likes.
As usual, can't wait for next week
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:02 pm (UTC)especially Jin since he doesn't usually like to say what he's interested in or what he likes.
Yes. And yes. :-) Well-observed.
Thanks for the feedback, we were quite curious how this one would be received. *g*
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Date: 2011-09-16 05:35 am (UTC)I love this chapter so much~~~~ ♥ Jin so lovely~~~~~ and Kame really gentle~~~ LOVE THIS ♥
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:02 pm (UTC)Thank you for commenting!
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Date: 2011-09-16 06:17 am (UTC)Their whole awkward dinner is both painful and adorable at the same time. I feel for Kame a lot in it, he's genuinely trying but is haunted by memories of past times with both Souji and Jin.
And Kame is officially Kame now! I know he was Kame in Jin's head already but putting it out in the open was absolutely lovely.
'This time his fingers follow Jin's bones around the front, down along Jin's neck where they get sharper— and suddenly there's a change in Jin, so subtle he only notices because they're standing so still.
He has to look up to see Jin's face. "Is something wrong?"' --Knew that would come up sooner or later XD.
'Jin is breaking into a grin. "Kame-sama."
"Kame," Kame says firmly. "I mean, if that would be okay with you."
"That's fine with me," Jin says, and nods. "Kame."
"Yeah," Kame says, relieved that it sounds so much better. "Thank you."'
It started out so awkward, but then it got better. So, so much better. There were so many wonderful parts in this chapter; there's no way I could quote them all. Kame didn't ruin anything. And Jin seems to have definitely gotten over his fear of Kame. Even from Kame's POV it is plainly obvious that Jin enjoyed himself. He wasn't afraid to tell Kame about his collarbones, or tell him what he wanted, including wanting to put his head on his shoulder.
'"Is it okay if I touch you too?"'
'Jin is back in his boxers, and the smooth skin of his chest is disappearing as he buttons his shirt. It's silly of Kame to want to reach out and touch it again.
And anyway, his time is up.'-- There it is.
I so badly want to know what Jin was thinking in this chapter. We are now so used to reading Jin as terrified and perpetually wary; it would be nice to hear pleasurable thoughts from Jin for once, just how it was so lovely to hear them from Kame for this chapter.
'Tonight was different.'
'It's such a nice evening, and he doesn't want to go to sleep just yet.'
Imagining Kame all happy for once is such a wonderful thought. I'll probably have wonderful dreams tonight.
I know I said the last chapter was my favourite so far, but I think I may have liked this one even better. I don't think I stopped smiling once throughout this whole chapter. (and it was long too yay!)
So many more things I could say about this but I am literally falling asleep in my chair. This was lovely you two :] Can't wait to see what happens next.
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:16 pm (UTC)Yes, they really approached each other differently this time. We're glad you liked Kame's little OCD actions and the preparation details. *g* 'Painful and adorable' is a summary that makes us very happy.
And yes, about Kame trying not to see Souji anymore. It's also easier now that he finally KNOWS what the hell was up with him, but he is also very much ganbarimasing.
Yeah, the collarbones... there's really no way around them!! Not that Jin would just tell anyone about his 'weak spot' *g*
Glad you liked their name conversation. We were kind of looking forward to that because we like this 'more equal' approach much better, but, well. They were not all that equal.
Kame didn't ruin anything. And Jin seems to have definitely gotten over his fear of Kame.
Yes. There's definitely a very big shift in how Jin relates to Kame.
We really like hearing about the stuff you liked, we really appreciate that, even if we reply more shortly from the road! Thank you very much for this lovely comment!
We're glad you have a new favourite chapter too. *g* This one was an important one for us (and them) and we were kind of eager to post it after all the angst we inflicted on people.
Thank you so much! ♥
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Date: 2011-09-16 06:22 am (UTC)First, thank you for posting even while away. :)
I loved this chapter. It's a bit in Kame's head, but it's as relaxing as this verse has gotten with all the issues everyone has.
And the sex, oh, it felt like a first time. It kind of was, because it was the first time Kame was himself, and paying close attention instead of being caught up in weird power games and head trips.
*faints*
asdjfljasdlakjjlahala BRAIN DEAD
When Jin asks for Kame to be closer, HNNNNNNGGGGG, but also awwwwwwww. Yeah, real coherency here. :D
LOL omg, hope this comes true in RL too. That moment right there, when Jin commented on his nose and then blinked, I could SEE the real Jin doing this, kind of blundering yet well meaning with his compliments.
This is what makes this so riveting.. it's... it's sex but there's so much subtext and so many layers of their situation and who they are that never disappear, even in the middle of something as mindblowing as this.
*weeps tears of joy*
Kame's looking forward to work and it feels like him and Jin have at least fixed 90% of what was wrong with them. Kame was so vulnerable, balanced on a knife edge the entire chapter and Jin tried so hard to be calm and open for him, to support him and draw him out with teasing and small, sweet demands. They're really beautiful together like this, as dysfunctional as they still are. And clearly Kame is happy and all is well and sex fixes ALL AILMENTS.
Thank you for such a lovely chapter, and sorry about my cracktastic comment. >_>;
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:22 pm (UTC)We felt very accomplished about posting this one, not so much because we're away but because an entire mountain full of monks in dingy temples seemed to be bent on making it impossible! Ha, take that, monks - we posted our porn anyway! (There will be a post on that later. With more pictures.)
It was definitely a first time - in quite a lot of ways. We sort of called it that in our notes, actually.
Hey, we'll take your HNNNNNNGGGGG and awwwwwwww anytime. :-) We actually know it's hard to give feedback on a sex scene, but when the sex scene is so important to the plot, it's even greater to hear how stuff worked for people. Thank you.
Ha ha, the nose. Maybe that's why he got the youkai. Yeah, Jin isn't totally sure of himself there, but it's actually a very good thing he says what he says. :-)
We're glad you're mentioning that they're still dysfunctional - there's a lot going on under the surface, really. Much as we like to believe in the Healing Power of Cock, it's not *quite* as simple here.
But you're totally right, they're beautiful together.
Thank you for the comment, which was beautiful too, and we take cracktastic any time!
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Date: 2011-09-16 08:28 am (UTC)Even tho there were things Kame kept wording about, I'm glad he got over it.
Great chapter!!!
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:17 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-16 11:36 am (UTC)excuse me while i run to a meeting - with all these hotness fresh in my mind XDDD. be back to comment!
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Date: 2011-09-18 07:14 am (UTC)um, cookies?
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:17 pm (UTC)Just out of curiosity, who hits you more, Jin or Kame?
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Date: 2011-09-19 05:45 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-21 07:12 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-16 12:41 pm (UTC)It made me feel warm inside. And well... curious about their new "relationship".
God I wish for another chapter. :)
Btw - I like that new banner. It´s so simple, nice and it totally suits this chap.
Hope u have a great time. :)
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:24 pm (UTC)This may be because we used them all up. >_>
Warm inside is good, we're pleased now. :-) And glad you like the banner too! when this photo shoot of Kame's came up, we just couldn't resist, it was like 'OMG HE IS SO GOOD TO US'.
Thanks for the comment, and hope you like how things develop!
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Date: 2011-09-16 03:47 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-17 03:25 pm (UTC)The nose reference is just too funny and cute. And I just like how unafraid Jin is of Kame now...And Jin asking Kame to kiss more and play with his hair?? Awww its so fun to read the chapters now...
Kame is always a bundles of nerves. Which we all know... when reading him today, I was so nervous for him at the beginning I was so glad that he feels like he has done it right this time and can finally catch some good sleep. He needs it I think. Your Kame is so skinny and sleepless, he seems so fragile all the time with slight OCD problems.(well atleast I think he is slightly OCD) Kame is seeing Jin in a new light, as Jin and not a resemblance of Souji which is good.
For the past two chapters, Kame seems to be developing this huge crush on Jin as Jin and not Souji. Or maybe for more than 2 chapters? Like somehow he seems to be more vocal and descriptive of how Jin looks like and feels. So Kame wouldn't mind Jin's bruises?? lol See even after Kame became normal he's still sadistic. He's really the S type. Lucky he didn't say it out loud to Jin. "has a pretty mouth for people to fuck, people like— some asshole—" So Kame is getting alittle jealous??? I like how Kame has someone now he could talk about his films to, his real feelings... It seems like Kame could potentially confide more to Jin...Though I can't really conclude that now..
My prediction is Kame is going to fall in love with Jin very very soon... ♥ I shouldn't really be making such predictions..They just got through a tough period... Either way, I hope my prediction is right...^^ That boy has a huge crush on Jin now! He's clearly attracted to Jin!
Thanks for sharing this as always and have a fun trip!!!~~~
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:42 pm (UTC)*HUGE AUTHOR GRINS* Thank you. That is just lovely.
You're totally right about Jin being the one in control, even if Kame is the one 'doing stuff'. The power relationship has really changed quite a lot.
We're glad you noticed how much Jin is opening up here -- that's quite important!
The nose reference is just too funny and cute.
Heee. Thank you. We were looking forward to that for a LONG TIME.
And I just like how unafraid Jin is of Kame now...And Jin asking Kame to kiss more and play with his hair?? Awww its so fun to read the chapters now...
Heeeee. We take it you do not want a return to dubious consent and mindfuckery? ;-) We agree, though, we liked this change too when we were writing.
I was so nervous for him at the beginning I was so glad that he feels like he has done it right this time and can finally catch some good sleep.
Yep, he will. Sorry for making you worry, but as authors we are of course evilly pleased that you felt along with him!
"has a pretty mouth for people to fuck, people like— some asshole—" So Kame is getting alittle jealous???
No, he's kind of ashamed that he WAS that kind of asshole to Jin, when he treated him as basically a collection of convenient holes. >.<
It seems like Kame could potentially confide more to Jin...Though I can't really conclude that now..
Wait and see? ;-) a few chapters to go still!
Thank you very much for this GREAT comment, and also for your predictions, which are very fun for us to read!
Hope to see you next week, and we hope we can get the chapter posted on time, and not from a bus stop!!
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Date: 2011-09-17 06:36 pm (UTC)"He can't say he wouldn't mind the bruises; that would sound horrible and not like he means it."
Okay, that line is pure genius. Yeah. Moving on!
Jin, well I'm dying to know what's going through his mind all through this chapter. It seems to me like he's really making an effort, here, and I just can't figure out-- I mean, not that Kame isn't, just. It's Jin! He never seemed to -actively- put much effort into anything before, you see? And here, well, it's rather huge, what he's doing, don't you think? And for Kame, of all people! Trying to talk to him. About what he likes. Some people can't even do that with their actual partners! (Scary thought, that one!) And it's a really big deal, I think. Complicated, and private, potentially dangerous even. Most likely requires a lot of trust, and Jin, well he's never been particularly trusting before, has he? Not really. And with good reason.
So, sure, Kame is trying hard to be nice and all, and I can see the effort there too, but it's Jin that really surpassed my expectations, -and Kame's, it seems! I really feel he's going out on a limb and hoping for the best, here... But then again, maybe that's just me! I also keep getting the impression that Jin is somehow finding the whole situation, -with Kame kind of fumbling for words and stumbling over himself to please him and whatnot-, endlessly amusing, but that's also probably, uh, just me. Again. Yeah. (^^)
And. Kame again. That's just, seriously-- I remember commenting about how Kame kept trying so hard to please everyone, all the time, and it must have been so tiring, that. Emotionally taxing, too. So back then I thought maybe Jin was kind of his respite, -oh hey, that doesn't sound wrong or unhealthy or anything, D: no really- because he seemed to be the one person Kame never aimed to please, could be himself around, maybe. But that's not the case anymore. And that can't be healthy either! Except I'm kind of hoping now it's just about making Jin happy, and not everyone... I guess I'll find out, eventually! (^-^*)
And then there's the sex... It's so beautiful, sweet and slow and thoughtful. And at first, when they're kind of just, making out, it's weird and awkward, but cute-weird, definitely. And it's full of details, small gestures, that weren't there before, maybe shouldn't be there at all, come to think of it, and it made me wonder. Maybe, they're beginning to forget what it's all about, the whole arrangement. Or maybe they're already hoping it were something else. And of course they are, Kame even said so -thought so, whatever. And I wonder how that could work out, too, between them. With their history, with their lives and differences. A lot needs to change before it does, I guess. (^^)
"Yes, I think that's okay. Have you considered tongue?"
I kind of love this new side of Jin we're finally getting to see. How he's such a cheeky bastard when he's actually at ease. He's become quite the demanding little bugger, too, now that he's not scared silly, you know? He seems happy, I guess. Young. It's about time he seemed young, you know. And he's terribly cute... They're both adorable lately, really (*^^*) And they seem closer, now. Closer than Jin has been with other clients, other people in general, even. It's weird, that. But again, good-weird.
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:46 pm (UTC)The boyfriend was a bad question. >_> But they have so much baggage, it's inevitable that one would hit on some sore spots. We're glad you liked our Kame-sama, and the way Jin is getting a bit cheekier. He's been kind of repressed for so long, not just with Kame but with other clients too, it's like the only place he's been able to be himself has been in the bar with Tomo, but now he's trying it out with Kame, too.
Demanding... hmmmm. :-) Trusting... hmmmmm....yes. And you're totally right, what he's doing is a huge thing. You'll get a little bit about what he's thinking later, though not much because the action moves on. Let's just say he kind of knows what he's doing. :-) And no, Jin is not the trusting type, not since he ended up on the streets.
And it's full of details, small gestures, that weren't there before, maybe shouldn't be there at all, come to think of it...
That's a wonderful observation. It made us quite quite bouncy, because... well, BECAUSE. There's things going on and we have to bite our tongues not to overexplain, but it's great to know it's working. Jin is definitely not like that with other clients, and Kame was probably not quite like that with Tatsuya or Takuya...
As for what they're thinking, hm, Kame is mostly just worrying about making it nice for Jin, and Jin is, um. Thinking a lot, actually, but not taking anything for granted.
And I wonder how that could work out, too, between them. With their history, with their lives and differences. A lot needs to change before it does, I guess. (^^)
Yes, it would have to, and for now it's not really on the mental horizon for either of them.
Thank you for this lovely comment, it made all the crazy monk-evasion worthwhile!
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Date: 2011-09-18 03:29 pm (UTC)I'm so intrigued about it. Seriously, you can't imagine just how much it irks me. I keep reading things into their interactions, and then not, and mostly I'm just horribly confused about it all and want to know more, because they're both so secretive and what's up with that? But I guess it makes sense that, you know, Jin has a friend somewhere. He's a sweet lad after all, wouldn't want him going mental or anything...
Let's just say he kind of knows what he's doing.
Oh no! Mastermind Jin is on the prowl! Fascinating, now what could he possibly be planning? ( ̄ー ̄) That's going to be one interesting chapter, I can tell already... It pains me, not to be able to read every little thing that goes through both their minds all the time. But then again, I think it's better this way, it keeps it intriguing and interesting. And, yeah. Sometimes it's best not to know everything, don't you think? D: All those possibilities...
Making it nice for Jin, huh. Kame sure loves that word! (^^) So does Jin, apparently. It kept on making me giggle like an idiot, every time I read it. I feel like it's become an inside joke of sorts by now, how creepy is that? (O_o)
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Date: 2011-09-21 07:15 am (UTC)Mastermind Jin... that's a new one! But it's actually kind of true here, in a very private way. :p
Kame is kind of preoccupied with 'nice' right now... it seems to encompass everything he wasn't and everything he wants to be. Anything else would probably be too specific for him here.
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Date: 2011-09-17 07:40 pm (UTC)It was nice (yeah.. lol) to see Kame trying so hard to satisfy Jin in and outside of bed, as always he aims to please. He even initiates their first kiss. He's attentive and responsive and asking Jin for what he likes.
But the real transformation happened to Jin. No longer scared of Kame he's no longer afraid to talk even if he isn't always saying what's on his mind, but with enough confidence to allow himself to say what he likes and how he likes it.
The sex itself was more then hot, it was intimate and considerate. It seems that they were bonding on more levels then one.
"I'd like you to let me put my head on your shoulder," Jin says.
"And then I want you to play with my hair."
This simple request, which came out of no where, caught both me and Kame by suprise, may very well be powerful and meaningful enough to stir something inside him, same like the peanut bar maybe.
I really, really need to have Jin's POV on things.
It seems that we get Kame's thoughts more than his. And each time we get Jin's someone is in the way XD like Yamapi or Yuya or Yamada Smith.. You know? don't get me wrong they are graet, but I need Jin thinking, thinking, thinking XD
Great chapter! Have a safe and fun trip in japan :D
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Date: 2011-09-18 02:45 pm (UTC)We're glad you liked the changes in Kame, and you also noticed the transformation (quite a good word for it!) of Jin here! He's grown more confident by leaps and bounds and it's really important he can say some of the things he's saying here.
The sex itself was more then hot, it was intimate and considerate. It seems that they were bonding on more levels then one.
Thank you, that's a very nice way of putting it and it makes us very happy.
This simple request, which came out of no where, caught both me and Kame by suprise, may very well be powerful and meaningful enough to stir something inside him
Yes, Jin definitely took Kame by surprise there, and it left an impression. It's a kind of important moment for them.
We hope you'll like the next chapter, which has more Jin POV, though it won't be as long as this one, and might indeed have someone or something in the way. ;-) We promise there will be Akame interaction from Jin's POV soon, though!
Thank you very much for this lovely comment and your good wishes, Japan so far has been a blast!
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Date: 2011-09-20 04:57 pm (UTC)I hope not! With all Kame meanness I really can't stand seeing him hurt..Oh well, maybe I'm completely off here.
Looking forward to read Jin's POV! and I won't mind anyone getting in the way as long as I'll have some clues on what's going in that pretty head of his. :) And yay for Akame interaction from his POV! It will be interesting to say the least :)
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Date: 2011-09-21 07:16 am (UTC)We're also looking forward to Akame interaction from his POV, but it'll be a chapter or two yet... sorry! Our Kame is too busy with his new movie.
i love your fic!
Date: 2011-09-18 10:39 am (UTC)keep up the wonderful work!
Re: i love your fic!
Date: 2011-09-18 02:47 pm (UTC)Re: i love your fic!
Date: 2011-09-18 03:15 pm (UTC)Re: i love your fic!
Date: 2011-09-21 07:17 am (UTC)Thank you for your encouraging words, they're much appreciated. :-)
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Date: 2011-09-18 12:35 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-18 02:47 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2011-09-19 04:21 am (UTC)I love your fic to pieces! The story is awesomly interesting and I love your writing style, specially when it gets all stream-of-conciousness-like. It makes the characters kind of pop-out from the paper when you read (does that make any sense?? XD)
Anyway, keep up the great job ;) I can't wait until next week! 8D
Hope it's Jin's POV. After this chapter I'm so curious to know what he thinks about Kame now X3
Ps. Have fun in Japan!
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Date: 2011-09-21 07:20 am (UTC)Yes, you'll get Jin's POV tomorrow. :-) We'll even be posting on time because we are hotel-bound by the typhoon that just hit Tokyo. Looking out over gray and stormy Shinjuku from 17 floors up, preparing whorefic posts. This is our life... ;-)
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Date: 2011-09-19 03:07 pm (UTC)i literally have been checking all week for this chapter.....cuz i just knew that they would end up on another date...and i was/am so ready for them to have a somewhat "normal" time together...as far as normal as escorts go. lol. but yesssss i just wanted to show my appreciation one more time on this update!
i had read this after i got off work yesterday morning...but i didnt get a chance to comment yet..so here i am back-commenting. lol
i thoroughly enjoyed their awkward "rest"....from the menu that kame picked...to the very careful words said to jin throughout...it was all perfect!
kame was feeling so insecure from the get-go...cuz although he wants jin so much...he feels like he doesnt deserve this chance with jin....and jin im so glad that he was able to guide kame with what he liked/preferred and wasnt scared to indulge kame during sex.
this chapter left me satisfied for now. cuz now im looking forward to the comfort they could share...when they wont have to rush...able to cuddle longer...and then like kame said...breakfast together =)
thank you for the udpate once again...and sorry for the ramblings...i really was that eager for this update~
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Date: 2011-09-21 07:34 am (UTC)Glad you enjoyed their 'first' date here, esp after you kept checking for it! This is a little bit of compensation for all the angst that came before, we hope. You're describing Kame very well here. He's trying very hard to do things right this time and yet feeling a little lost, poor bunny -- good for him Jin is willing to help him out, huh? And we note you're expecting more fluffy developments for the future! ;-)
Your appreciation is very much appreciated! And their next date isn't too long off, so we hope you'll enjoy the next chapters too!
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Date: 2011-09-22 06:03 pm (UTC)I'm really happy they have been able to be together in the right way!
I'm relieved, really. For all the time of their sex, I was so tense.. hoping Kame would not ruin everything again.
I would say that Jin has a lot of merit, here. I mean, in a lot of moments, it was him who did something to relax the atmosphere, or to reassure Kame. So good work Jin!
And thank you so much for this chapter ^^
I was taking my time to think about what to write, but then I found the new chapter (so soon! Thank you!) and so I decided to comment on this before moving on the other :)
Thank you again!
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Date: 2011-09-27 09:28 am (UTC)This is a very cool observation about Jin. A LOT was up to him here, from what they end up doing to, well, where they stand in their relationship. Glad you approve of his actions here! ;-)
We really appreciate your comment, and hope you stay tuned for future chapters!