The Same Deep Water As You (37/54)

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The Same Deep Water As You
by solo____ & jo_lasalle
Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya / Akanishi Jin
Rating: Explicit
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Alternate Universe fiction. None of this is true.
Warnings: If there are any warnings for this story, you will find them here.
Summary: Kame's got his reasons for seeing prostitutes. Jin's got his reasons for being one. Life is pretty screwed up.
Notes: Story notes, acknowledgements and frantically reiterated disclaimers are here.

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So many people here in the dark with him, watching him right there, knowing nothing about this. Knowing nothing about him.
 

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[pinacoladasips.livejournal.com]

This chapter makes me angry. Which is probably a good thing, anger is a good thing because WHY THE HELL CAN'T THEY LOVE EACH OTHER LIKE NORMAL PEOPLE AND FUCK THIS, BECAUSE JIN, YOU HAD TO GO AND MAKE YOUR LIVING AS A WHORE, AND HEY, THE WORLD HATES GAY ACTORS ANYWAY. ESPECIALLY THE ONES WITH WIVES. Why is life so fucking unfair, OK. *sobbing*

Tanaka, though, is an instant mood up-lifter. Who else would've noticed they had a thing for each other. Except maybe Yuya. Or the other escorts. Hmm. Maybe they're suspicious it's for the money. Also I'm terrified at how Jin now depends solely on Kame for his big earnings. I mean, if Kame were to put a stop to it...that's kinda scary.

Basically. What makes me sad is how hard JinKame are trying to ignore how they feel about each other, because whoring provides such a good cover. So they don't have to deal with any unreasonable emotions, and upsetting the balance of the world is unnecessary.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

There, there. *guilty* But, yeah, not all our fault. Life is unfair sometimes...

Yay Koki! We're glad you like him. Kame doesn't have a big support system, so Koki sort of takes up a unique role here, and we're glad you had fun with his reaction to the Akame interaction. :-)

Maybe they're suspicious it's for the money.

We think the other escorts all think it is the money, because, well, that's why they're doing what they're doing. ;-) No shame in that, that would be Jin doin it right!

So they don't have to deal with any unreasonable emotions, and upsetting the balance of the world is unnecessary.

True. But, well. It's not just the fear of emotions, it's also what to do with them and where to go from there, if they did manage to admit them...

*sigh*

We ♥ this comment, though. Thank you so much!

[http://users.livejournal.com/___clash/]

Lovely (T.T)

I liked reading about Kame coming to terms with some of the stuff he's done while at his premiere. It seems fitting that he'd be reminded of all this there - or at least that the changes would be obvious to him while watching his performance as an outsider - and I love how his perspective has shifted; I remember reading his thoughts back then, even after he realised what was really going on and... It's really quite different from how he's seeing things now.

It still pains me how guilty he feels over the whole ordeal, but it's a different kind of guilt - less abstract, I guess. He does know a lot more about Jin now. And there's a part of me that maintains he should be feeling guilty anyway.

"It's not a film; it's a jumbled record of him losing his mind." And that really sums it up perfectly, doesn't it? Love that sentence.

He seems a lot more relaxed around his wife as well - clearly due to the Healing Power of The Jin, just fyi. Still worrying about how he should act around her in public, but now he doesn't seem to pretend nearly as much. I wonder if it's started feeling wrong to him, or if he simply doesn't care as much because he's - overall - calmer now?

"He isn't there, just the role is, he's nowhere around." *___* Gorgeous.

I'm so glad Kame finally got around to dealing with The Morioka Situation. And it made me sad, the outcome of that conversation, but considering how long he's been putting this off I guess it's the best he could have hoped for. It's such a shame, I believe Morioka would have been a good friend for him, but Kame was too confused slash terrified to see that until recently.

And the part with Jin at the club, with Jin trying so hard not to feel down after Kame's call. Your Jin is still such a cute cuddly bunny <3 But that aside, I'm so glad he seems to be aware of his feelings and, well, his situation - no more nasty surprises for Jin. It's good that at least one of them is thinking straight. Um, not a pun I swear. Confused mushy emo!Jin is also rather adorable, but probably much less useful.

"Jin's easy. He sucks cock and gets fucked." I kind of love that. It could be so crass, but you placed it right in the middle of this huge euphemism of a conversation the whores have, and it just feels like a reality check of sorts. Tearing down all illusions. Ow.

And Jin's hilarious attempts (wait, there was only the one attempt, right?) to take part in the Tibet talk leading to Kame, leading to Jin realising Kame's actually happy around him, oh god, the cuteness, it's suffocating *____* #youretrollingme

And Tanaka! I really like your characterization of him :) The way he pretends to be all casual and unaware, but actually notices things and cares about people. And I was so glad that he reacted to Jin here, that was a pretty good save overall, huh? I wonder if he's been paying attention and know there's more between those two than meets the eye... or if he's just a really nice guy.

"He's got no problem being located in Kame's pond." Bet he doesn't. I really need to start reading this at home. No more silly giggling at work :|

And this: "Tanaka gives him a look so probing that he'd cringe if he had any dread left to spare." This definitely made an impression. So nicely worded. O.o

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Glad you liked the Kame revue of Not Very Good Things. That was interesting to think about (and write) for us too, having Kame come face to face with a vivid reminder of their... early days, not just the random flashes of guilt he gets. He's come a long way, and he knows it, only sometimes... yeah. He did those other things too.

He does need more hugs. Sometimes a good thwapping but also hugs. (Maybe Ootomo should think about updating the businessplan for people who need hugs. >.<)

You have some great observations about Kame and Midori. In a way this is closer to how he was with her before the story started, before he got all super-tense and *cough* crazy; he is calmer, as you say, and there are things with Midori he doesn't have to pretend, which has always helped. (Also helps not being crazy.)

And it made me sad, the outcome of that conversation, but considering how long he's been putting this off I guess it's the best he could have hoped for.

Yeah, pretty much. Those two broke our hearts a little. Because as you say, they could have been good friends. And Kame could do with more friends.

What do you mean, Jin is a cuddle bunny? He is a SUAVE ESCORT who makes all the men fall for him with his WILY... wiles... and at home he rubs his hands gleefully and counts his money.

(OK, he does count his money.)

But what you're saying about Jin is totally on the... uh... money. #nopun (Except of course the cuddle bunny. Which Jin will have you know is SLANDER.)

We are sorry for making you giggle at work. Only... not really.

YAY Koki! We like Koki too. :-) And we're glad you got the bit about the last chapter and the stuff after the Open Mic.

Thank you for letting us know so much about what you liked, this comment was great to read. W00t w00t!

[silecet.livejournal.com]

Hi there !
I've been reading this story for a while but I'm kind of a ghost on livejournal...
I just wanted to say... I LOVE YOU. Seriously.
At first I didn't want to read because the topic was so strange, but then I got into it, and now I'm waiting for the new chapter every week.
You're doing a great job and I can't wait to read more.
You gave me a reason to keep reading akame fanfics, so thank you. Really.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Hello, ghostly presence, nice to meet you! (We won't tell Jin you're a ghost, though, he'll freak out, and he's suffered enough here, we think. ;-)

We found it interesting that you found the topic strange -- in our experience in fandom, prostitution!fic tends to be all over the place. But we're really happy you gave it a shot anyway, and thank you so much for delurking and telling us you like the story this much. It made us very pleased! We hope you continue to like it.

[natsukashi-yume.livejournal.com]

It's not a film; it's a jumbled record of him losing his mind. It must be so painful, so invasive for him to see a record of his unraveling on screen. Luckily only he knows, but it's still really hard to see.

I was thinking about this yesterday, how actors/celebrities always have to be "ON"... they can't have a day off when they're allowed to be grumpy and ungroomed in case someone's skulking about waiting to catch them out for some extra money.

Jin was himself when singing, was nobody's… until he remembered. And here is the parallel... Jin is always "ON" at his job but he was off at the bar and so relaxed and himself and there's that blurring of lines again. It's nice to know that Kame's aware he was careless, and later to know that Jin is also aware that he's getting too invested in Kame.

The whole scene with Morioka... ouch, ouch.

Nakamaru is probably not here to fuck. Or have sex. Or whatever you can have dressed like that and with a tie that must cut off your circulation. Engage in intercourse. BRB LOLING FOREVA

He's got no problem being located in Kame's pond. AGAIN, BRB, DRAWING FUZZY HEARTS AND SPARKLES AROUND THIS

Awww, Koki is such a sweetheart near the end. He's so on point, as far as characterization goes, easy-going but fiercely loyal. ♥

I delayed a whole week in leaving comments for last chapter, but just, gosh, I can't wait to see where this is going.. what the implosion is going to be and how it will start. #angstwhat

[natsukashi-yume.livejournal.com]

Also wanted to add, it was interesting seeing how the development of Jin and Kame's relationship has this tangible monetary side effect. I'm starting to wonder when Kame's going to run out of money or when someone's going to get curious enough to investigate more about where ALL THIS MONEY is going.

Money plays a huge role in their relationship and it's almost weird how it doesn't actually come up between them at all. The ways they skirt around it helps them to maintain the fantasy of it all. I bet things would change drastically if they had to haggle over prices or Jin had to collect the money from Kame himself after every night.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

I bet things would change drastically if they had to haggle over prices or Jin had to collect the money from Kame himself after every night.

Oh, yes. Very much so. But here, the club is careful to faciliate things 'not feeling sleazy' where it can, and where the Japanese thing (no tips, no bartering, ALL THE DISHES OUTSIDE IN THE WINDOW) really comes in useful.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

I was thinking about this yesterday, how actors/celebrities always have to be "ON"... they can't have a day off when they're allowed to be grumpy and ungroomed in case someone's skulking about waiting to catch them out for some extra money.

Yes, that's true. Take one spontaneous trip to the supermarket and the whole world knows about your cellulitis...

And Kame's been burned even more than others with regard to journalists and people taking things to the press.

Cool point about Jin also being 'ON' and the blurring of lines. And yeah, Kame was kind of not thinking about that when he went to the bar. (But neither was Jin, who was in a better position to say no, and... well.) But at least he caught it.

Sorry for the ouch. >.< One of them maybe deserves it more than the other, but, argh, they're kind of sad, the two of them.

LOL we like the idea of a pond with sparkles around. Very JE! <3 Thank you for letting us know all this, we're really glad you liked it!

#whatangst #fluffybunny #innocent #(@_@)

[sakurascorpion.livejournal.com]

Wow, amazing chapter! I really like the part at the end about Tanaka and Jin,, awesome scene. I love the way you guys write - it is all happening in my head along with the story progression. I wait every week to be able to read more of your story. Thank you for posting it on time :D Can't wait for next week <3 :)

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Oh, we're glad you like the scene with Koki - we are very fond of him when he appears, and this scene really tickled us too while we were writing it.

As for it happening in your head, that's great praise, thank you! We like to think that we can make things so vivid.

Hope you enjoy the next one too!

[souleater-angel.livejournal.com]

We got a whole six paragraphs before Kame thought about Jin. I'm kind of impressed. Really.

The bad memories came back to me right with Kame at his premiere. I feel so bad for Kame feeling that way, and at the same time admire him for feeling that way. People with the character to actually know and admit they were wrong and feel genuinely sorry about it are just far too rare these days.

'It's not a film; it's a jumbled record of him losing his mind.'-- That's a very good line.

And Kame cancelled! Honestly I was probably almost as disappointed as Jin. I feel like it was me who got cancelled on. Stupid work. *pouts*

'It's a little unnerving. Kame pays him so much he's nudging at the bottom of the luxury league, and that's not even why he's sad their date fell through.'

'He took out a book on baseball from the library the other day, thinking he could surprise Kame by not being so totally clueless at their next meeting.
...But he hasn't looked at it again; isn't sure after all if it's any different from buying pretty shirts or getting his eyebrows done.'-- Poor Jin and his "fuzzy mess of feelings." I was beginning to wonder when one of them would begin to notice where their feelings are going (and proceed to freak out.) They really don't know what they're really feeling right now I guess. It just seems that they would eventually start to wonder about the real reasons as to why they are always so excited to see each other, and so disappointed when they can't. Is the thought of actually liking someone "that way" really that unthinkable to them? START NOTICING GUYS.

Is this what relationships are like? I wait in anticipation all week for a nice date and then everything gets cancelled just like that and I get NO AKAME INTERACTION. *huffs* I guess I'll let it go this time.

XD

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Kame is good at focusing on work. Yes. Totally.

Thank you for letting us know the film thing worked. And yes, Kame is totally admitting he was wrong, he wouldn't even dream of pretending otherwise. He just really wishes he'd caught himself sooner; it's worrying to know you can be so crazy and not even know it.

Sorry about cancelling on you. *g* Will try to do better.

Yeah, it's a fuzzy mess for both of them, in slightly different ways. We do actually think Jin knows what's going on with him, only he doesn't know what's going on with Kame, and he also knows that in his position he's stupid to feel like he does. So he kind of tries to keep a lid on it. (Ha, ha, Jin, yes, keep trying!)

We hope we can... uh, satisfy you this week. ;-)

[ayalonet.livejournal.com]

So, not meeting each other this time, but the fact that they're constantly thinking about each other and yet not admitting to themselves that this is so much MORE, is so endiring.
It's them against the world after all! (..not that I hope it will ever get to that though).

Kame is still remorseful about his past doings to Jin. He needs to let it go, or perhaps they need to talk about it and clear that cloud.
But the Jin side effect has Kicked in and he is more comfortable in his own skin to face poor Morioka, among other things.

Again we get to see the good relationship he has with his parents, how supportive they are of him. Maybe he is underestimating them. Maybe if they had known the truth they would've accepted him.

Midori, I have so much sympathy for her (after questioning her for a while..), especially after watching the wonderful closeness between Todoya and her salary-man husband. She really deserves a loving and not just affectionate man beside her..

Kame wonders whether he should be touching Midori more, too..These days he likes to keep it private.. She feels soft and warm and still nothing like Jin. :\ That sums it up.

It's a little unnerving. Kame pays him so much he's nudging at the bottom of the luxury league, and that's not even why he's sad their date fell through. He needs to be more careful.
Indeed. But about what? The fact that he depends on him financially or about his growing feelings for his client. :)

The fact that Nakamaru is not engage in intercourse had me sigh in relief XD. I like my nakanishi pure platonic, but perhaps more talkative and happily communicative.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder so I can't wait until the next time they'll meet ^_^

Have a great weekend!

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Yes, sorry about lack of meet-up, but they can't manage all the time. Kame has a very busy schedule...

But the Jin side effect has Kicked in and he is more comfortable in his own skin to face poor Morioka, among other things.

Yes. That really helps. It's just hard for Kame to really let his past behaviour go; and maybe that's not so wrong, given that he really behaved quite abominably. On the other hand, he is working hard on making amends and catching himself when he has potential jerk moments again, so... It just takes time.

Maybe he is underestimating them. Maybe if they had known the truth they would've accepted him.

Isn't that an interesting question. :-|

Midori totally deserves better than Kame. You know, we like him, but marrying her was really a dick move in a lot of ways, and we are kind of glad it comes across that she'd deserve better. *sigh*

But about what? The fact that he depends on him financially or about his growing feelings for his client. :)

About the money, of course. Jin is ALL about the money. Jin doesn't care about anyone.

;-)

I like my nakanishi pure platonic, but perhaps more talkative and happily communicative.

Jin will be working on... all of those parts. *eg*

We hope you had a great weekend too! We're just delayed in answering because of Je_hols. Thanks so much for this great comment!

[ladyc2]

It's not a film; it's a jumbled record of him losing his mind.

Great line, and poor Kame having to re-live it all with his wife, parents and a crowd of strangers sitting around him. Even if they most likely couldn't tell anything was wrong with his performance. So uncomfortable.


He should show this to Jin. He's not sure what for, except so Jin knows that he wasn't just an asshole, he was a fucked-up incompetent one who didn't have a clue what he was doing anymore. Though Jin probably got that message, got it plenty.

And now I'm wondering how Jin would view the film - I doubt he'd pick up on the stuff Kame saw, but maybe he'd be a little aware that the filming was going on while they were having their issues and that would colour the performance for him.

It could have been Kame or anybody, and Kame is glad it was him and they got out of that night intact.

Kame doesn't seem to realise that it really couldn't have been anybody but him - Jin never would have let any of his other clients near the place. They might be slowly starting to realise their own feelings (moreso Jin than Kame) but they haven't seemed to notice the other's at all yet.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

We're happy you like that line - we were a little bit proud of it too. >_>

Jin would probably watch the film and ask all sorts of questions about acting and Kame's colleagues, and admire what Kame does with various scenes, and never once think about the timeframe... unless Kame pointed it out to him. If Kame did, we guess he might at some point say something like 'Hm, but you seem pretty sane here', but for somebody who, unlike Kame, doesn't have all the connections and details, it's probably hard to say more.

Kame doesn't seem to realise that it really couldn't have been anybody but him - Jin never would have let any of his other clients near the place.

Not consciously, no. It's amazing the things they each fail to realize about the other at this point. Poor bunnies.

They might be slowly starting to realise their own feelings (moreso Jin than Kame) but they haven't seemed to notice the other's at all yet.

That's a pretty good summary, yes. :-)

[brindhakrishnan.livejournal.com]

Having to pick up the pieces of a rough time after the filming is over, especially with Morioka is quite sad. Kame wasn’t really himself back then. I like how to most people watching a film, they see a story while with Kame he sees flashbacks of how he felt during the filming. I feel its quite real for an actor to think likewise. And comparing the touches of Midori and Jin? Danger Kame !! What are you thinking...careful

And Jin being on the top of the list because of Kame. Sweet! But Kame pays awfully a lot of money for Jin and doesn’t really make full use of what he’s paying for. Wasting all that money. But doesn’t that show that Kame’s feelings are already more than just a client!

Jin worried about his private conversation skills? I am glad he realized he’s making Kame very comfortable. Too comfortable infact for Kame to be making spooky noises. lol

It was also so nice to read the interaction between Jin and Koki. It’s a nice feeling that Koki remembers his conversations with Jin during the pub even though Koki should have been aware of his surroundings.

Thanks for sharing this!!~~ See you next week! :P

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

It must be difficult for any actor to watch a film they were in and simply see it for what it is. Though maybe it helps that the editing team will cut stuff in a way they would never have expected. But still, individual scenes would bring back memories of the fliming itself, and if you had insane stuff going on like Kame... >_<

Kame doesn't really know what his willingness to 'waste' all that money on Jin means, except that what he does makes sense to him in the moment, and hey, he's got lots of money, that doesn't worry him. If he had less money, maybe he'd realize more quickly what's going on here. :-)

We're happy you like the interaction with Koki - we always hoped we could do his character justice.

Thank you for commenting! :)

[ttalktomesoftly.livejournal.com]

I can't believe I just read this now.
This fic it's so. fucking. addictive.
I'm waiting for the next chap :)

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

We can't believe you just read this now, either, but we're very happy you did. ;) And we're happy you find it addictive. AND we're happy you told us about it, so... thank you! :)

[ttalktomesoftly.livejournal.com]

Hahaha. I don't like to wait for things so that's why I prefer finished fics, but well, the summary was too good and I started reading and now I want more D: