The Same Deep Water As You (50/56)
Feb. 16th, 2012 09:14 am
The Same Deep Water As You
by
Pairing: Kamenashi Kazuya / Akanishi Jin
Rating: Explicit
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction. Alternate Universe fiction. None of this is true.
Warnings: If there are any warnings for this story, you will find them here.
Summary: Kame's got his reasons for seeing prostitutes. Jin's got his reasons for being one. Life is pretty screwed up.
Notes: Story notes, acknowledgements and frantically reiterated disclaimers are here.
Notes 2: And another lovely banner by
Notes 3: Yes, the chapter count has gone up again. Best not to ask. To those who complain about our pacing, sorry sorry sorry. This is the last time; 56 chapters plus epilogue is all you'll get.
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"After the circus last time, I thought you had your priorities straight."
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Date: 2012-02-16 09:29 am (UTC)adfdghfkg no time to comment RN, but THIS BANNER. I love it! It makes so much sense that Kame would be in Polaroids... adhfhfjk you must tell that person this banner is wonderful! ssdjf?!
Will be back later >.>
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Date: 2012-02-16 10:36 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-16 04:53 pm (UTC)It´s all your fault girls.. u made one of the best akame fic around! ;)
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:06 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-16 09:49 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-16 10:38 am (UTC)20 chapters... u trollin us? :p
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Date: 2012-02-18 09:32 am (UTC)Can't please everyone?
There are also those of us who want MOAR detail ALL THE DETAILS EVERY LITTLE DETAIL ASDFHGJKD!!!(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-18 10:08 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-16 11:00 am (UTC)"After the circus last time, I thought you had your priorities straight."-this actually made me LOL.
You're right. The entertainment world is one big circus..or rollercoaster ride...one day you're a big star, then a struggling solo artist in the U.S. and got secretly married....oops!..I mean...sigh...irrelevant! But..I just had to let it out. Gomenasai!
What I really mean is, the society you've described in the fic seemed to be homophobic. A scandal like what happened to Kame could be very destructive to his career. It's like nobody cares how good an actor you are, it all goes down the drain with just one scandal of him being gay.
Midori...well, I feel sorry for her. Bluntly speaking, she was used by Kame to divert the attention from Souji. Although, Kame did like her, he never really loved her, right? Or else, he wouldn't be cheating on her..and with men! It was a blow to her self-esteem. Hope she'll get her happy ending..but with someone else. Because Kame is for Jin. :)
And Jin..he's glad but jealous of Kame's parents' support for their son being gay. Complete opposite of his own parents who threw him out. And the hint of meeting the parents later. Wow! This is really serious, huh?
Yuuya knows! OMG, he knows! Was it that obvious? Yuuya is a bit creepy. Clever mind under the guise of innocence. Jin can learn from him. :))
This is one exhausting day. And to think this is just the beginning of the circus!:)
Looking forward to the next, to quote akamaru07, 20 chapters.;))))
I can't imagine what Tomo's reaction would be if Jin tells him about boyfriend!Kame.
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:07 pm (UTC)From what we've read and observed, we get the impression that the Japanese entertainment scene is pretty homophobic. It's okay if you're gay and not out, nobody asks, but if you're out, it looks like you can kiss serious parts goodbye. We'd like to think we're wrong in this impression but so far, everything we pick up here and there seems to confirm it.
Oh yes, Kame used Midori. He liked her, and he hoped he could love her... or maybe he even loved her a bit but as a friend; she just doesn't do anything for him sexually because he's not wired to appreciate women. For a while he hoped he could rewire himself with her help, that's all.
Hey, when Akame really get going, they get totally serious. :)
And Jin can SO learn from Yuuya! In fact, Jin realized he could learn from Yuuya very early on in this epic. Yuuya is one smart, streetwise little cookie. (But not creepy. He cares about Jin. And he lends him t-shirts. And he has a cute hamster!)
Thank you for this lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2012-02-16 04:19 pm (UTC)I love Hamaguchi in this chapter <3 Well, I love her all the time, but especially in this chapter! Look at that tagline, look! She's hilarious! But Kame... Poor Kame, he's all over the place. And to think Jin thought he wasn't nervous when he saw him on TV...
The little flashbacks to the talk with Midori were so painful to read -- which kind of took me by surprise because I'm not even all that invested in her?! But they were. All those questions, and Kame falling apart because he never meant to hurt her but he did anyway... and then:
"I don't think you get to be concerned about me," she pointed out, and then she stood there like the best thing he could do was to get out of her house, and her life, and so finally he did.
;____; #myheart #why And then there's Kame thinking about all his "rules"... Yeah, Kame. They were pretty dumb to begin with. But that's how the mind works, I guess. We find excuses for ourselves.
"Nobody can see him because he's in the trunk."
I really hated the press in this chapter. Kame having to do these things while he's far from okay. And this doesn't help. Ugh. Parasites. OTOH I love how you had everyone at the agency kind of... try to help in any way he could. That was nice. Not as bad as it could have been. I was really dreading Kame becoming a pariah within his own agency, I'm so glad that's not the case :'(
"But what he ends up with is a messy pile of papers and words that are fuzzy and incomprehensible."
;_____; I love these sentences of yours. How you manage to convey Kame's mental state through them. It's all sorts of amazing. AND. Morioka asked Kame how he was! Morioka! That made me so happy ;___; My second OTP. He's such a sweetheart <3
And then Kame thinking he might have lost Jin on top of everything else, oh dear. WHY Kame, WHY? There he goes, breaking my heart #again Guys. Guys, I'm so happy you wrote the second part of this in Jin's slightly more upbeat POV ;___; I was seriously bawling my eyes out by the time I got there. Seriously. And then you have Jin's uninspired blow jobs. Making me smile. <33333
And that whole scene with the clothes is super sweet ;___; I wanted to squish them all. So cute, your whores! And your Jin! Trying not to look like one for Kame... OMG WHY ARE THEY SO ADORABLE ;___; #allthewarmfeelings In fact, that whole paragraph where Jin decided to go back to the club is pure genius *____*
OMFG. WHAT. Kame told his parents he's been paying for sex? JESUSFUCK. WHAT, KAME?! How do you even. Parents. I can't imagine that going all that smoothly O.o
"They're together. It bubbles up suddenly and fiercely, and if he cared at all about not looking like a sap, he'd hide his face."
Awww Jin!! As if there's still anyone out there who hasn't noticed you're this GIANT BALL OF FLUFF ;___; I love your Jin so much <333 And the ending to this chapter... it's so sweet ;___; Will we get to read that breakfast scene? Will we see Jin telling Tomo he's now dating Kame? WILL WE SEE THE INTRODUCING JIN TO THE PARENTS SCENE?! GOD I HOPE WE DO *_____* There's like. So much hope. Right now. Even with all the gloom. IDEK. I love this chapter. Even though I couldn't stop crying. #itsbeenemotional
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Date: 2012-02-16 11:20 pm (UTC)this. so much.
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Date: 2012-02-17 04:31 am (UTC)XD
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:10 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-18 10:13 pm (UTC)No pressure, huh? ;)
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:08 pm (UTC)We're happy that the Midori flashbacks hurt. They were meant to, because it's a shitty situation, and she deserved better, but Kame also deserved never to have been put in a position where he felt he had to marry to save his career, and now they're at the end of the road, and they started out liking each other. A lot. :(
Press. Yes. GRRRRRR. Paparats. GRRRRR.
Hey, you noticed Morioka in there. :) We just couldn't let go of him.
Kame wanted his parents to know everything. He's managed to completely freak himself out with how he gets when he tries to keep secrets, so he's going to... avoid that, where possible. Admittedly just in practical terms, he'd also have had to invent a whole lot of stuff to explain how he cheated on Midori with a bunch of guys -- any plausible thing would probably have sounded nearly as bad. But, yeah. It's quite, quite eeek he has to tell them that and nothing short of what he deserves.
You will see some of the things you are asking about but not others. #mysteriousauthors But yo, you're pretty demanding, after all this Hamaguchi! ;__;
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Date: 2012-02-18 11:17 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-16 04:57 pm (UTC)I can't really blame his wife... er, ex-wife, whatever... for her reaction, though.
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:09 pm (UTC)But yes, good that Kame had Jin. That wasn't one of his better days.
Thank you for commenting! :)
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Date: 2012-02-16 05:57 pm (UTC)ahhhh notyetnotyet can't read this yet.... The quote makes me think it's Souji....Is it Souji? I'm probably totally wrong okay ahhh have to go to work be back later......
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Date: 2012-02-17 04:22 am (UTC)Okay so I was wrong XD. Too excited I guess. Hamaguchi would definitely say something like that. XD.
The whole thing with Midori with horribly painful. And I'm not going to say any more about it cuz it was just that painful. It's probably an unrealistic wish to hope that they can one day be friends after this. I'm going to hope anyway.
"Yeah. And I didn't lend it to you so you could let him kick you around. You get that?"
"He's not—" Jin stops. This isn't the time. "Okay," he says. No making Yuuya regret the t-shirt. "I promise."
Oh wow. Yuuya's noticed. Was Jin that obvious?
Poor poor poor Kame-chan... What a horrible day he's been through. I felt so terribly sorry for him when he was so upset and actually wondering if Jin had changed his mind...
But luckily Jin knows just how to handle him "You being stupid again?" He changed his clothes and went to Kame and held him and made him dinner and was just there for him, which Kame needed so very badly.
"The only thing I didn't say was about you. Your job. That we met… I thought that might be easier, later. You know?"
Jin nods automatically before it really sinks in. Later. The parents.
The parents. I'D WONDERED ABOUT THAT. "Hey Mom, this is my boyfriend, Jin. He's one of the most...uh... pretty wh--escorts in all of Johnny's." Just out of uncontainable curiosity, are we going to see Jin meet Kame's parents at all? If not in this fic then maybe a one-shot later? That would be so awkward it'd be just downright hilarious. And I'm sure they'd love Jin.
And Kame's hypothetically still sticking to his musician career for Jin! XDDD
And they're going to talk to Ootomo.... That... will be interesting. I totally CAN NOT WAIT to see how the other escorts take the news. I'm laughing already just picturing it.
And I do think it would be a little soon to take the step of moving in together. And I would understand Jin's need to live in a place he can support himself.
They're together. It bubbles up suddenly and fiercely, and if he cared at all about not looking like a sap, he'd hide his face.
Aww it's so, so wonderful to see Jin happy like this. And Kame too, even amidst this horrible day. I can't wait for Kame to tell Koki and I can't wait for Jin to tell Pi and I can't wait for them to just be happy together forever. That said I still don't want this fic to end EVER.
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:10 pm (UTC)Jin has become very good at handling Kame. Hard to believe that half a year previously he didn't know what to do with him at all!
As for Yuuya -- we figure Jin is... very very transparent when it comes to some things. *g* And Yuuya has an eye for things and a regrettable amount of life experience. He's been watching Jin even keeping Kame as a steady client with a bit of concern, really. *sigh*
Jin would actually love to move in with Kame! But, well, there's the previous experience of depending on somebody to keep himself above water, and 'keeping a roof over your head' is not a department where Jin's prone to take any risks whatsoever, sadly enough. It's not that he doesn't trust Kame, more an instinctive need to know that if he had to be okay by himself, he would be.
Yeah, things are happy for them now even though they're awful. Funny how that works. :)
♥♥♥
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Date: 2012-02-19 02:57 am (UTC)Well... until/if you two decide officially on that, I'm going to keep on thinking that Midori and Kame could be friends again one day. Cuz that's just... so sad. :/
Well Tomo noticed too didn't he? So it's not just Yuuya. I guess Jin really is that obvious, to everyone but Kame, who thinks too much and is stupid a lot. XD
LOL Who wouldn't want to move in with Kame! They'll get there eventually I know. But if they decided to do it the first day they were together/day Kame breaks up with his wife/day of paparats horror that would've been a bit much... :D I can understand Jin's inner need for that security though. Work on that music career and there you go!
Yeah, things are happy for them now even though they're awful. Funny how that works. :)
I love the way you put things. :D
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Date: 2012-02-16 07:36 pm (UTC)I love all characters Jin, Kame, Midori, Koki...
Akame are together!! Akame are together!! XD *rolling in the carpet*
Thanks ;)
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:11 pm (UTC)Don't get carpet-burn! :)
Thank you for commenting!
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Date: 2012-02-16 09:20 pm (UTC)oh, but i remember, ___clash prompted me to please not punish Jo after all (honestly, solo what were u thinking?! *points finger*) for the plum candy fondling, 'cos she's 'cute'. what can i say? d'you want some valentine heart cupcakes? it was pretty awesome thinking. as is this chappie entirely. so that's cupcakes all round. thanking u both nicely. [srsly sorry for crap comment - i need a new head - fast]
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:11 pm (UTC)But Jo... likes to be punished!
Okay, cupcakes are better than punishment. (YES JO AGREES. Jo loves cupcakes, yum.) Thank you kindly! :)
We hope you feel better soon!
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Date: 2012-02-18 10:39 pm (UTC)still wobbly 2nite. tomorrow should be better. thx for well wishes. and glad cupcakes = success.
so that one can be laid to rest.. ^ ^
meanwhile loving my icon [kame-leon (in an interesting position *cough*). someone, somewhere say u like it? we need HUMOUR in this world, dammit!]. and just prior to migraine crash i spawned my first (wee) pron. ay de mi! but at least i figured the lj link better. *really not a bright bunny these days*
again, am so sorry i couldn't do your chappie justice:( keep up the good work!:P - till thurs!
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Date: 2012-02-16 11:02 pm (UTC)"I was thinking about you," Kame says. "So much." And there's more he's not saying, but it's there in his touch, and it's okay.
awwwwwwwwwwwwww! <3 <3
I dunno why but I always imagined Kame's manager to be like that fat blonde woman with glasses from desperate housewives that played Eva Longorias character's model agent x'DDD Then I suddenly realised that she's called Hamaguchi and she's probably rather a scary japanese woman like the school dean in Miura Haruma's drama Samurai High School LOL sorry this is so random but that's me x'D I have weird imagination and assosiactions....haha.
omg you have no idea what a crazy day I had and I'm all over the place lol and yeah now you think I'm nutso.But truth to be told I can relate to your kame character a lot in some moments :") I barely dare to admit because he's not that sane here but I mean the subtle things more... like when he gets uncertain about things.Anyway, it's cool how Hamaguchi still works her ass off for him! #thumbsup
And Jin is such an awesome boyfriend!! I'm glad he went to see him after all. It would've been bad for Kame to stay alone the night just out of guilt.
"Wake me up," Jin says. "I want to have breakfast with you."
<3 <3 <3 I'm all for the fluffy feelings here :D
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Date: 2012-02-19 06:07 pm (UTC)We would never think you're nutso. :-) You like our fic. To us that's the ultimate sign of sanity! ;p And we're happy that our Kame is somebody you can relate to, whether it's when he's sane or not. (Um. Just don't, you know. Be nasty to poor intimidated whores. Cuddle them instead.)
Fluff!!! Fluff is good! Thank you for your comment!
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Date: 2012-02-17 02:42 am (UTC)My money for who's causing the scandal is now on Matsura (probably pissed off that Kame helped Morioka get the cooking drama role but not her). Do we ever find out for sure who's behind it????
The Jin stuff was good too - giving Kame the reassurance he needs, and making sure not to look like a whore - wasn't expecting Yuuya to be lending the shirt knowing where Jin is going though. I guess he can read Jin pretty well although I wonder what he really thinks is going on, he obviously still doesn't trust/like Kame.
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Date: 2012-02-19 06:07 pm (UTC)Yes, you'll find out who was behind the scandal. But right now, our lips are sealed. :-)
Yuuya has been watching the whole Kame/Jin development with growing unease anyway. By now, we figure he figures he can't stop Jin anyway, so he might as well be a good friend to him and hope for the best. And try to give Jin the occasional reminder of how stupid he's being here.
Thank you for this!!
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Date: 2012-02-17 03:52 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-19 06:12 pm (UTC)Midori... hindsight, hindsight. :/ Kame regrets it himself.
And despite all that chaos that is happening out there I am glad Akame get to spend some time with each other!
Hee, yes! We enjoyed writing that, at long last. Thank you for letting us know what you liked and writing us such a lovely comment!
The chapter count... we basically wrote two new half-chapters; we realised we had to split the chapters differently, and suddenly there was space (and in one case, a need) for scenes we didn't have before. The whole process is a bit TL;DR but yeah, we spent two weekends writing like mad. For people who like to plan things months in advance, it was ~exciting~ ;__;
Hope to see you next week too!!
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Date: 2012-02-18 01:04 pm (UTC)I act like Hamaguchi when I swich in "bitchy mode" which is kind of often..
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Date: 2012-02-19 06:15 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2012-02-20 03:25 pm (UTC)Am loving every bit of it, and I'll be very very sad when it's over, but ahhhhh can I just say I am oh-so-happy that Jin and Kame are together?? ♥
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Date: 2012-02-20 07:12 pm (UTC)Yeah. On the one hand, man, we've been posting forever. On the other... we admit it's going to feel weird when it's all done.
But yay happy! You're meant to be happy! See, we didn't make you wade through angst and non-con bondage for nothing! XD
Thanks for the comment! ♥
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Date: 2012-03-14 06:29 pm (UTC)It’s awesome how Kame deals with Hamaguchi now. Although I feel sorry because she is so mad at him. Which is understandable but it could have been worse, I think. At least she doesn’t seem like she wants to kick him out and give up on him. and Kame can finally be honest with her even though she’s not too pleased. But who in her position would be? It all comes back to her agency in the end after all. So it’s good to see Kame’s determination here.
Still, I feel so sorry for Midori. She totally didn’t deserve this actually. Hell, if it wasn’t for Akame, I’d slap Kame for cheating on her! And even though Kame was an asshole for cheating on her behind her back , I admire how fair he always treated her. How he always took care of her and tried to make everything perfect and nice. Not everyone would behave this way. It’s too bad she won’t really see this now. Or wouldn’t want to see this. But I hope there’ll be a time when she realizes that Kame wanted her to feel good and be happy and did like her in some way. Midori deserves to be happy in the future D:
Btw. it’s nice how you change between Kame/Hamaguchi conversation and Kame/Midori conversation. That adds a nice flow to the chapter and somehow underlines Kame’s feelings a bit better.
Funny to imagine Jin in Yuuyas shirt! But nice of him to help Jin out. Hope there’ll be a time when he actually overcomes everything and starts liking Kame D:
Good thing Jin went to Kame’s after work! Guess they both needed this for the end of the day! Hell, them being together like this would be so cute if it wasn’t such a hard and kinda fucked up situation they’re in. *goes away pouting*
I wonder if things around them will get even worse… don’t hope it but.. you never know, right? Sometimes almighty authors come up with stuff you would have never imagined to happen… *inserts dramatic music*
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Date: 2012-03-27 04:32 pm (UTC)Yeah, Hamaguchi has really good reason to be mad at him, he is making her life very difficult. (Some people make their agent's life difficult by getting married. Other people make their agent's life difficult by getting divorced.) But Kame's determined and he's learned to stand up for what he wants and take the consequences.
He was... nice to Midori within his limitations. Which were considerable. We're not sure it's possible to say that one can be 'fair' while cheating on his wife. *g* But yes, maybe with distance she'll come to realize that he did like her, and did his best to make this less awful.
Thank you for liking our structure, with the two conversations. That was one of the new things which happened when we revised and we were quite pleased with how it turned out, too. :)
them being together like this would be so cute if it wasn’t such a hard and kinda fucked up situation they’re in.
We sometimes like to say that we tend to specialize in angstyporn, pornyfluff and fluffyangst. This would be the fluffyangst. ;p