9 1/2 Weeks - 12 - (Week 4: Wednesday)
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Week 4: Wednesday
Oh, shut up.
The noise is insistent, annoying, shut up Jin's nice and warm—
He jumps wide awake. Middle of the night, the kids— he fumbles around, finds his jeans, finds the pocket, shit the other pocket.
It's light outside. Okay. "'lo?"
"Are you at home today?"
Kamenashi. Not kids in the hospital, or Meisa in a car accident. "What?"
"Are you at home today?"
Jin squeezes his eyes shut, then blinks. He rolls on his back. "What? Why?"
There's a pause. Jin's brain cells are assembling.
"I am in your area later today," Kamenashi says, in a very clipped voice. "I want to know if you are, in general, at home this afternoon."
"Uh, yeah," Jin says. "I didn't get any shifts, I'm home..."
"Shifts? What— Never mind. I'll call after my business is done. Later." And he's gone.
Jin checks the time on his phone. Nine thirty. Okay, can't really complain about that. Normal people, blah blah blah.
Jin being what he is, he could roll back over and no one's going to be the wiser.
Then he lies there and stares at the ceiling, and thinks that later today, Kame is coming over.
Well. Well, well.
*~*~*
Half an hour later he's sitting at his table, showered and dressed, with his tab on and a steaming cup of coffee. His brain couldn't be convinced of more sleep.
No, his brain wanted to know what song to prepare, and when his brain tried to suggest one, his brain insisted that it was a waste of time anyway, since Kamenashi isn't coming for Jin's song.
His brain should make up its mind.
Coffee might help with that. And also, he feels more with it when he's on his feet and dressed. More like somebody who makes decisions. Decisions like, what if his brain is right?
He notices he's licking his lips again. Sighs impatiently at himself.
Not the end of the world. Short, too. But he's sure he should object to a repeat. Kamenashi caught him by surprise, then, but now he's got plenty of time to decide just how many ways he's not that low.
The tablet's finally sorted itself out. Updating the synth software last night took forever. He starts it up, lets the couple of phrases he saved play back to him. No words yet, just a little tune. But he likes it. It's been a long time since the music came for him.
He hums those two lines again and gets his guitar, gets settled. Spends ten minutes bugged by a sequence he kind of likes but wonders if he's heard before in other people's songs. Then nearly drops the guitar when there's a knock on the door.
Fuck. Afternoon, that jerk said afternoon. Jin whips his head around and feels ridiculous, like a kid caught leaving a mess.
There's another knock, a more hesitant one. Jin goes and flings the door open, won't do to have the neighbors—
Oh, neighbor, singular. From upstairs.
Of course, Kame is in a meeting, Kame said he'd call.
Her polite smile is wavering by the time Jin's finally got his face under control. He bows deep. "Sorry for the wait, I was..." He can't quite say composing yet. "Good morning."
"Hello, Akanishi-san, it's so good to catch you."
Yeah, like Jin's not around most days. He bows a little again.
"I hope I'm not interrupting your morning too much?" she asks, for extra politeness that concerns him more than anything.
"No, no, not at all." Okay, what does she want? An egg?
"You'll have to forgive me, I'd been hoping to catch you and Yubawara-san just mentioned this might be a good time to see you to ask if you have possibly, maybe remembered about our neighborhood association?"
Her smile gets even wider, maybe to make up for the frozen rictus that Jin feels has settled on his own face. Fucking Yubawara. Most of last week's money went to rent, no wonder he spread the news, it must have broken his sad boring brain that Jin managed more than a one-off windfall.
"I, uh." He bows. It buys him time. "I see." It's not that much. But it was the first thing he stopped paying, and he doesn't know what she wants, arrears or just for him to start paying again from now. "It is true that I just managed to find weekend employment."
"My sincere congratulations," she says heartily. "It's so difficult in these times."
"Thank you," Jin says, because that's what one says when people come round one's door to ask for money and one has to explain about one's employment status and they pretend to care. "So I would be happy to start paying my dues again. Thank you so much for your forbearance in the last year." And he bows again.
He gets his wallet, fast is good; hopes she doesn't peer in with his futon still lying there. He shakes out some coins and hopes he still knows the correct amount. He's got his best smile on for her, and another apology, and, "I am sorry, I will not be so forgetful next month." His own little carrot, if she's not pushy enough to point out the arrears.
She's not. Her carefully made-up face smiles appropriately, and she takes his money and his weaseling ways, probably thinking she'd never expected to get anything out of Jin anyway. He sends her off with another bow and she seems happy to assume he'll be a better neighborhood citizen in the future, even if she didn't get all the cash she came for.
He hates this fucking balancing act. More ways this shit creeps up on him and chatters in the corners of his brain, disturbing his calm morning of coffee, composing and cock contemplation.
He stashes his wallet in the drawer. It's still got two of Kame's notes in it, small ones. He wasn't even embarrassed, paying his rent with it. Maybe he should be, the way he should tell Kame to fuck off. But then who's to care where he puts his mouth these days.
Kame cared, he liked it. And that part was easy, served straight-up, Kame wanted him and took him and it's been a long time since he's been wanted.
He stares out of the window, at bright and fuzzy sky. Wonders if Kame is used to it now, just taking what he wants. Or if that only works on guys like Jin. Guys at the end of a short, slippery rope.
Then he imagines all those slippery rope guys, dangling there and calling Kame a fucktard for his trouble, and he laughs.
*~*~*
Kame's meeting is over by four. "I'll be there in twenty," he says, and he's there in twenty-five.
Jin has his shirt on and the futon tucked away, and ants crawling under his skin. "Hi," he says. "Good meeting?"
Kame considers that, his eyes dark and on nothing. "As good as could be expected," he judges, in a tone Jin knows, a tone that says someone or something wasn't quite up to scratch.
"Anyone interesting?"
Now Kame looks at him, but only briefly, before taking another inventory of Jin's four walls and the roof over his head. "Interesting to me," he says. "Not interesting to you." He holds out the expected shopping bag. It's a different suit again, Jin thinks, but somehow they all blur into one, along with the face that's blank as a page.
"Wow, you've really put me in my place there," Jin says. His hands are the worst, with the ants. But he takes the beer and stashes it away. Six again.
"So," Kame says. Not wasting time. "What did you pick?"
But Jin's thought a thing or two about wasting time, too. "Nothing. I thought we'd skip to the point?" And he drops himself in the chair, because the chair is important, and spreads out his hands, and for a moment he wants to laugh because what is he doing, trying to sell Kame a fish?
Kame has gone still.
And Jin knows his body language, has known it for ever, and he can tell Kame's on the point of turning right around and walking out and what the fuck, did he need the singing for foreplay, can't he do it without?
"Don't mess with me," Kame says, slowly. "You'd lose."
What, what the fuck, Jin thinks. It gives him a shiver anyway. "You've got a problem?" he says.
Kame looks him over again. Jin is the fish. It's not a good feeling.
"No," Kame decides at last. "You have a point." And he steps up fast and his hands are in Jin's hair, urgent strokes. "I like your voice. I have always liked your voice. But this..."
He's cupped Jin's face between his hands now. They're gentle, tipping his chin up until he's got to meet Kame's eyes, but if Jin tried to move, he thinks they could crush him.
"...this is better."
Kame lets go. Undoes his belt, undoes his fly.
Brings it out. Half hard, not like last time, but growing, and what's a blur from last time takes forever. Ants all over when this time it's Jin who has to move, bend his neck, until he has a cock in his mouth.
No force this time and no speed. Space, and he's... supposed to do stuff with it. Lean forward, take it deeper, suck...
The skin's smooth, and dry. He pulls back, pulls off to lick his lips. Tries again; sucks because that was the plan, and it thickens in his mouth and he hears Kame exhale.
Jin can't see him. You can't look up when you're sucking a guy and thinking about your tongue, thinking what next, thinking about lips and no teeth, he's got too many thoughts and for the first time thinks what the hell is he doing, what does he look like.
He goes down again, far, coarse hair right in front of him and pressure at the back of his throat. Hot. Is Kamenashi watching him? He hears a wet sucking sound from his own mouth, and it's cold on his neck and then Kame's hands are back in his hair. "Yes," he says.
Jin breathes out harshly, hoarse. And Kame steps in, just enough, and the next slide is all Kame's hips, deep and hard, and the end of complicated.
Kame whispers something, makes a fist in Jin's hair and it's stable, steady, and Jin can close his eyes when the air is hot around his face. Don't bite, don't gag, let him take, that's all he's got to do.
Won't last long, though he forgets it between fast and too much and Kame everywhere, and he's got to remember not to struggle. Just hold still and not mind, and it's rough jerks at the end and sweat in his nose, and then come in his mouth.
Same as then, warm and too thick, too much, but he takes it all anyway, tastes it more when he takes a stuttering breath. Kame is still holding on.
Finally he sighs, and the grip in Jin's hair loosens. He covers his cock as he pulls it out, a casual brush over Jin's bottom lip with the tip of his thumb, 'see you next week' or something.
"Yes," Kame says. "Good."
Takes Jin a moment to place that. Trust Kame to pick arguments up right where they left them, after coming his brains out.
He needs more air, but he tries not to look it. He can still taste the whole thing, all around his mouth. He wants a drink, and what's he waiting for and watching Kame, he should just get up.
Kame has tucked in the tuckable and straightened the straightable, and apart from the color of his face, you wouldn't know what he's been up to. What, his stare seems to say, which is a joke, maybe.
Eventually Jin pushes himself out the chair. His muscles feel stiff like he's been sitting there forever, like he grew old giving blow jobs to Kamenashi. "The usual, too?" he asks, heading for the fridge.
"Please," Kame says, and, "thank you," when Jin hands him the bottle.
Jin decides he doesn't give a fuck, wipes his face with his sleeve, and has a long, long swallow of beer.
He doesn't sit down in that chair again. They stand, a little awkwardly, Kame against his usual shelf and Jin against the kitchen sink.
"Sorry if I woke you up earlier," Kame says. "I didn't know it was still morning. I'll be more careful."
Jin shrugs. "I don't keep such regular hours. No problem."
"You said something about shifts?"
Jin drinks more, doesn't care. "Security job, weekends. Night shift. I let trucks in and out of the supermarket depot, very exciting. Keeper of the Gates." He twirls his bottle and catches the tail end of Kame's fading frown.
"God, Jin."
"Shut up. Don't you dare." He doesn't care. Doesn't give a shit. "What are you doing in my neighborhood? What sort of meeting are you having here?"
"Believe it or not," Kame says, and at least he drop-kicked the pity act as fast as he put it on. "Some companies actually have offices not too far from here. Standard negotiations, though. Wouldn't mean anything to you." Only half as condescending as it could be, how cute.
Kame puts the half-drunk beer on the shelf behind him, and goes for his jacket, and for a second Jin thinks this is it, done for the week, running away again. But Kame just reaches into one pocket. Pulls out a pack of cigarettes.
"You can't smoke in here." No way. That'd be the day.
Kame looks around with a doubtful face. "This is a non-smoking building?"
"My apartment is non-smoking." No way is he letting some entitled idol stink up his stuff. The rules are for everybody.
Kame looks at him like somebody just informed him the earth is flat and Johnny fallible after all. "You're kidding me."
"I'm serious. You want to smoke, you do it outside. I can give you a hat."
"This is a joke, right? Since when are you on the anti-smoking train?" He actually still taps out a cigarette.
"I have kids," Jin says. "And you can't smoke in here." For a messy moment, he thinks Kame will push it. But then he sorts the cigarette back neatly and lets his hands sink.
"You can smoke on the landing if it's urgent," Jin concedes.
"No, thanks." Kame shrugs easily and leans back against his shelf. "I don't really need to look like I reside here."
He's just a jerk, and Jin rolls his eyes. "Fine. Don't blame me when you get the jitters."
"It's under control, thank you," Kame says, and yeah, of course it is. It's Kame. And strangely quiet, and he thinks Kame is smiling under a whole lot of blasé and look-how-I-don't-care and coolest-guy-to-ever-lean-on-your-shelf-really.
"You'd have looked cute in a hat," Jin says, and finishes his beer. This is better.
Kame nods, like that is understood.
"How are your kids?" he asks, and call Jin weird but he can still faintly taste the guy through the Asahi, he doesn't want to talk kids right now.
"Fine," he says. "Thanks. How are the dogs?"
And god, wow. Kame's face just softens. "Okay, right now. Jelly was sick with some immune thing for a while, but the latest pills are working. We have to keep the puppy away from her, though, he's just too bouncy for an old lady."
"Poor Jelly." She must be so old now. "And Ran-chan?"
Kame blinks. "She... It's been a few years..."
Oh. "Shit, sorry." Shit. "I just... yeah. Maru too, you know?" He hasn't thought of it in years.
"Yes, actually I know," Kame says, but it doesn't sound sharp. "I spoke with your mother, remember? I'm sorry."
Yeah.
They drink more beer, until Kame checks his bottle, about one third full, and puts it down with an air of finality.
"I should get going," he says.
"You didn't finish it again," Jin protests. "I'm not so poor you have to leave me leftovers."
"I'm driving," Kame says. "Even this is... risky."
"Oh, true, I almost forgot," Jin says. "The minute you're out of here I've got to call the agency and tell them you're ripe for a scandal."
And he'd swear, Kame goes grey. And still, but it only lasts a moment, and then he has another long gulp.
"You'd make some people's day," he says.
"Sharks, huh?" Jin suspects he's trespassing, but what the hell. His apartment. His mouth.
"Big sharks." Kame seems to find his peeling wallpaper interesting. "Big teeth."
"Always swimming," Jin says. Akira was big into sharks at some point, and Jin got an education along with the teeth trauma. "Explains your hours."
Kame snorts, but leaves it at that.
"How are the guys?" The ones that are left. He's not going to mention Nakamaru. "How's Koki?"
Kame's smile turns to a frown. "Koki? Why?"
"Hey, I'm interested. Your dogs, your sharks, your other pets..." Koki threw himself at Kame over a decade ago and somehow he stuck. Like cuddly fungus, playing tough unless he's draped all over Kame. Given the way things went, it's a wonder they never fucked, a nice little bonus for Kame-chan.
Okay, there's a weird, distracting image, and the weirder thought that he doesn't even know.
"Koki's fine," Kame says, very neutrally.
O...kay.
For a moment, Jin's brain spins on possibilities. They did, broke up, this was a bad question. They didn't, Kame's pining, oh hell no way. They did, they are, Kame is... fucking Jin on the side, this isn't just about sharks, and Jin should kick him out right the fuck now and— fuck no, not Koki, surely.
"You're not fucking Koki, right?"
"What?" Kame stares at him like he dropped in through the roof, which Jin guesses is an answer. All righty.
He shrugs casually. "I'm sure he'd let you."
But Kame's face is smoothing over, his whole body drawing back into the Kamenashi Kazuya, Master of the Universe thing. "I'm sure he has other sources of income."
Fuck him. Jin doesn't even care. But it pools like acid in his mouth, the jobs and Kame in his suit and his fucked up hole of an apartment. "Yeah, you all sucked your dicks years ago, Johnny and the senpai, day and night and smile and say thank you and was it good for you sir..."
Kame's eyes are flaring, hot ice, Jin stops and he can't look away. "You shut your big mouth or I'll shut it for you."
His mouth, which is dry and wordless suddenly. His head is so blank, he needs a moment. "Sore spot?" he tries, though it sounds weak. "Don't worry, they all got value for money."
"If you think you can be proud of yourself..." Kame takes a step closer, but Jin just stands rooted. "If you're proud of your integrity, you're even dumber than I thought."
"Great," Jin says, giddy with coming to his senses. "Why are you talking to me then, if I'm so dumb?"
Kame shrugs tersely. "I figured someone's got to pay your rent. I heard your wife was out of cash this week."
"Leave her out of this, you asshole!"
"You got her into this. Some prize you were."
Jin wants to kick him. Pound the smug superiority right out of him. But you can do that when you're sixteen and not a loser, not when you're pushing forty and in trouble with everyone in the whole fucking wide world. "Well, aren't you glad I was out of your hair then."
Kame seems undecided whether to laugh or cry or toss him cash for better lines. "Oh, Jin."
"Shut up," Jin says hoarsely. "Drink your beer." He empties his own, and he kind of wants another, because his face is hot. But he doesn't want to be some lonely guy with a beer bottle in about three minutes.
"So, Koki," he says, and watches Kame. "He's fine?"
Kame gets the sharp look about him again, but all he says is, "Like I said. He's fine."
"He'd be sad to hear you speak so coldly of him."
"Well, I guess it's his luck he'll never know because nobody gives a shit about you anymore."
Swearing, Jin notes. It kind of makes him feel better.
"So what's your next meeting?" he asks. "If it's not national security, alien invasion secret."
Kame drinks at his beer, what little is left of it. Bastard actually thinks about it. "Concert budgets," he says. "Tour plans."
"You toured in March." Even Jin remembers the promotion, impossible to miss.
"Not our tour," Kame says, and then his beer is gone and the time is up.
Week 4: Wednesday
Oh, shut up.
The noise is insistent, annoying, shut up Jin's nice and warm—
He jumps wide awake. Middle of the night, the kids— he fumbles around, finds his jeans, finds the pocket, shit the other pocket.
It's light outside. Okay. "'lo?"
"Are you at home today?"
Kamenashi. Not kids in the hospital, or Meisa in a car accident. "What?"
"Are you at home today?"
Jin squeezes his eyes shut, then blinks. He rolls on his back. "What? Why?"
There's a pause. Jin's brain cells are assembling.
"I am in your area later today," Kamenashi says, in a very clipped voice. "I want to know if you are, in general, at home this afternoon."
"Uh, yeah," Jin says. "I didn't get any shifts, I'm home..."
"Shifts? What— Never mind. I'll call after my business is done. Later." And he's gone.
Jin checks the time on his phone. Nine thirty. Okay, can't really complain about that. Normal people, blah blah blah.
Jin being what he is, he could roll back over and no one's going to be the wiser.
Then he lies there and stares at the ceiling, and thinks that later today, Kame is coming over.
Well. Well, well.
*~*~*
Half an hour later he's sitting at his table, showered and dressed, with his tab on and a steaming cup of coffee. His brain couldn't be convinced of more sleep.
No, his brain wanted to know what song to prepare, and when his brain tried to suggest one, his brain insisted that it was a waste of time anyway, since Kamenashi isn't coming for Jin's song.
His brain should make up its mind.
Coffee might help with that. And also, he feels more with it when he's on his feet and dressed. More like somebody who makes decisions. Decisions like, what if his brain is right?
He notices he's licking his lips again. Sighs impatiently at himself.
Not the end of the world. Short, too. But he's sure he should object to a repeat. Kamenashi caught him by surprise, then, but now he's got plenty of time to decide just how many ways he's not that low.
The tablet's finally sorted itself out. Updating the synth software last night took forever. He starts it up, lets the couple of phrases he saved play back to him. No words yet, just a little tune. But he likes it. It's been a long time since the music came for him.
He hums those two lines again and gets his guitar, gets settled. Spends ten minutes bugged by a sequence he kind of likes but wonders if he's heard before in other people's songs. Then nearly drops the guitar when there's a knock on the door.
Fuck. Afternoon, that jerk said afternoon. Jin whips his head around and feels ridiculous, like a kid caught leaving a mess.
There's another knock, a more hesitant one. Jin goes and flings the door open, won't do to have the neighbors—
Oh, neighbor, singular. From upstairs.
Of course, Kame is in a meeting, Kame said he'd call.
Her polite smile is wavering by the time Jin's finally got his face under control. He bows deep. "Sorry for the wait, I was..." He can't quite say composing yet. "Good morning."
"Hello, Akanishi-san, it's so good to catch you."
Yeah, like Jin's not around most days. He bows a little again.
"I hope I'm not interrupting your morning too much?" she asks, for extra politeness that concerns him more than anything.
"No, no, not at all." Okay, what does she want? An egg?
"You'll have to forgive me, I'd been hoping to catch you and Yubawara-san just mentioned this might be a good time to see you to ask if you have possibly, maybe remembered about our neighborhood association?"
Her smile gets even wider, maybe to make up for the frozen rictus that Jin feels has settled on his own face. Fucking Yubawara. Most of last week's money went to rent, no wonder he spread the news, it must have broken his sad boring brain that Jin managed more than a one-off windfall.
"I, uh." He bows. It buys him time. "I see." It's not that much. But it was the first thing he stopped paying, and he doesn't know what she wants, arrears or just for him to start paying again from now. "It is true that I just managed to find weekend employment."
"My sincere congratulations," she says heartily. "It's so difficult in these times."
"Thank you," Jin says, because that's what one says when people come round one's door to ask for money and one has to explain about one's employment status and they pretend to care. "So I would be happy to start paying my dues again. Thank you so much for your forbearance in the last year." And he bows again.
He gets his wallet, fast is good; hopes she doesn't peer in with his futon still lying there. He shakes out some coins and hopes he still knows the correct amount. He's got his best smile on for her, and another apology, and, "I am sorry, I will not be so forgetful next month." His own little carrot, if she's not pushy enough to point out the arrears.
She's not. Her carefully made-up face smiles appropriately, and she takes his money and his weaseling ways, probably thinking she'd never expected to get anything out of Jin anyway. He sends her off with another bow and she seems happy to assume he'll be a better neighborhood citizen in the future, even if she didn't get all the cash she came for.
He hates this fucking balancing act. More ways this shit creeps up on him and chatters in the corners of his brain, disturbing his calm morning of coffee, composing and cock contemplation.
He stashes his wallet in the drawer. It's still got two of Kame's notes in it, small ones. He wasn't even embarrassed, paying his rent with it. Maybe he should be, the way he should tell Kame to fuck off. But then who's to care where he puts his mouth these days.
Kame cared, he liked it. And that part was easy, served straight-up, Kame wanted him and took him and it's been a long time since he's been wanted.
He stares out of the window, at bright and fuzzy sky. Wonders if Kame is used to it now, just taking what he wants. Or if that only works on guys like Jin. Guys at the end of a short, slippery rope.
Then he imagines all those slippery rope guys, dangling there and calling Kame a fucktard for his trouble, and he laughs.
*~*~*
Kame's meeting is over by four. "I'll be there in twenty," he says, and he's there in twenty-five.
Jin has his shirt on and the futon tucked away, and ants crawling under his skin. "Hi," he says. "Good meeting?"
Kame considers that, his eyes dark and on nothing. "As good as could be expected," he judges, in a tone Jin knows, a tone that says someone or something wasn't quite up to scratch.
"Anyone interesting?"
Now Kame looks at him, but only briefly, before taking another inventory of Jin's four walls and the roof over his head. "Interesting to me," he says. "Not interesting to you." He holds out the expected shopping bag. It's a different suit again, Jin thinks, but somehow they all blur into one, along with the face that's blank as a page.
"Wow, you've really put me in my place there," Jin says. His hands are the worst, with the ants. But he takes the beer and stashes it away. Six again.
"So," Kame says. Not wasting time. "What did you pick?"
But Jin's thought a thing or two about wasting time, too. "Nothing. I thought we'd skip to the point?" And he drops himself in the chair, because the chair is important, and spreads out his hands, and for a moment he wants to laugh because what is he doing, trying to sell Kame a fish?
Kame has gone still.
And Jin knows his body language, has known it for ever, and he can tell Kame's on the point of turning right around and walking out and what the fuck, did he need the singing for foreplay, can't he do it without?
"Don't mess with me," Kame says, slowly. "You'd lose."
What, what the fuck, Jin thinks. It gives him a shiver anyway. "You've got a problem?" he says.
Kame looks him over again. Jin is the fish. It's not a good feeling.
"No," Kame decides at last. "You have a point." And he steps up fast and his hands are in Jin's hair, urgent strokes. "I like your voice. I have always liked your voice. But this..."
He's cupped Jin's face between his hands now. They're gentle, tipping his chin up until he's got to meet Kame's eyes, but if Jin tried to move, he thinks they could crush him.
"...this is better."
Kame lets go. Undoes his belt, undoes his fly.
Brings it out. Half hard, not like last time, but growing, and what's a blur from last time takes forever. Ants all over when this time it's Jin who has to move, bend his neck, until he has a cock in his mouth.
No force this time and no speed. Space, and he's... supposed to do stuff with it. Lean forward, take it deeper, suck...
The skin's smooth, and dry. He pulls back, pulls off to lick his lips. Tries again; sucks because that was the plan, and it thickens in his mouth and he hears Kame exhale.
Jin can't see him. You can't look up when you're sucking a guy and thinking about your tongue, thinking what next, thinking about lips and no teeth, he's got too many thoughts and for the first time thinks what the hell is he doing, what does he look like.
He goes down again, far, coarse hair right in front of him and pressure at the back of his throat. Hot. Is Kamenashi watching him? He hears a wet sucking sound from his own mouth, and it's cold on his neck and then Kame's hands are back in his hair. "Yes," he says.
Jin breathes out harshly, hoarse. And Kame steps in, just enough, and the next slide is all Kame's hips, deep and hard, and the end of complicated.
Kame whispers something, makes a fist in Jin's hair and it's stable, steady, and Jin can close his eyes when the air is hot around his face. Don't bite, don't gag, let him take, that's all he's got to do.
Won't last long, though he forgets it between fast and too much and Kame everywhere, and he's got to remember not to struggle. Just hold still and not mind, and it's rough jerks at the end and sweat in his nose, and then come in his mouth.
Same as then, warm and too thick, too much, but he takes it all anyway, tastes it more when he takes a stuttering breath. Kame is still holding on.
Finally he sighs, and the grip in Jin's hair loosens. He covers his cock as he pulls it out, a casual brush over Jin's bottom lip with the tip of his thumb, 'see you next week' or something.
"Yes," Kame says. "Good."
Takes Jin a moment to place that. Trust Kame to pick arguments up right where they left them, after coming his brains out.
He needs more air, but he tries not to look it. He can still taste the whole thing, all around his mouth. He wants a drink, and what's he waiting for and watching Kame, he should just get up.
Kame has tucked in the tuckable and straightened the straightable, and apart from the color of his face, you wouldn't know what he's been up to. What, his stare seems to say, which is a joke, maybe.
Eventually Jin pushes himself out the chair. His muscles feel stiff like he's been sitting there forever, like he grew old giving blow jobs to Kamenashi. "The usual, too?" he asks, heading for the fridge.
"Please," Kame says, and, "thank you," when Jin hands him the bottle.
Jin decides he doesn't give a fuck, wipes his face with his sleeve, and has a long, long swallow of beer.
He doesn't sit down in that chair again. They stand, a little awkwardly, Kame against his usual shelf and Jin against the kitchen sink.
"Sorry if I woke you up earlier," Kame says. "I didn't know it was still morning. I'll be more careful."
Jin shrugs. "I don't keep such regular hours. No problem."
"You said something about shifts?"
Jin drinks more, doesn't care. "Security job, weekends. Night shift. I let trucks in and out of the supermarket depot, very exciting. Keeper of the Gates." He twirls his bottle and catches the tail end of Kame's fading frown.
"God, Jin."
"Shut up. Don't you dare." He doesn't care. Doesn't give a shit. "What are you doing in my neighborhood? What sort of meeting are you having here?"
"Believe it or not," Kame says, and at least he drop-kicked the pity act as fast as he put it on. "Some companies actually have offices not too far from here. Standard negotiations, though. Wouldn't mean anything to you." Only half as condescending as it could be, how cute.
Kame puts the half-drunk beer on the shelf behind him, and goes for his jacket, and for a second Jin thinks this is it, done for the week, running away again. But Kame just reaches into one pocket. Pulls out a pack of cigarettes.
"You can't smoke in here." No way. That'd be the day.
Kame looks around with a doubtful face. "This is a non-smoking building?"
"My apartment is non-smoking." No way is he letting some entitled idol stink up his stuff. The rules are for everybody.
Kame looks at him like somebody just informed him the earth is flat and Johnny fallible after all. "You're kidding me."
"I'm serious. You want to smoke, you do it outside. I can give you a hat."
"This is a joke, right? Since when are you on the anti-smoking train?" He actually still taps out a cigarette.
"I have kids," Jin says. "And you can't smoke in here." For a messy moment, he thinks Kame will push it. But then he sorts the cigarette back neatly and lets his hands sink.
"You can smoke on the landing if it's urgent," Jin concedes.
"No, thanks." Kame shrugs easily and leans back against his shelf. "I don't really need to look like I reside here."
He's just a jerk, and Jin rolls his eyes. "Fine. Don't blame me when you get the jitters."
"It's under control, thank you," Kame says, and yeah, of course it is. It's Kame. And strangely quiet, and he thinks Kame is smiling under a whole lot of blasé and look-how-I-don't-care and coolest-guy-to-ever-lean-on-your-shelf-really.
"You'd have looked cute in a hat," Jin says, and finishes his beer. This is better.
Kame nods, like that is understood.
"How are your kids?" he asks, and call Jin weird but he can still faintly taste the guy through the Asahi, he doesn't want to talk kids right now.
"Fine," he says. "Thanks. How are the dogs?"
And god, wow. Kame's face just softens. "Okay, right now. Jelly was sick with some immune thing for a while, but the latest pills are working. We have to keep the puppy away from her, though, he's just too bouncy for an old lady."
"Poor Jelly." She must be so old now. "And Ran-chan?"
Kame blinks. "She... It's been a few years..."
Oh. "Shit, sorry." Shit. "I just... yeah. Maru too, you know?" He hasn't thought of it in years.
"Yes, actually I know," Kame says, but it doesn't sound sharp. "I spoke with your mother, remember? I'm sorry."
Yeah.
They drink more beer, until Kame checks his bottle, about one third full, and puts it down with an air of finality.
"I should get going," he says.
"You didn't finish it again," Jin protests. "I'm not so poor you have to leave me leftovers."
"I'm driving," Kame says. "Even this is... risky."
"Oh, true, I almost forgot," Jin says. "The minute you're out of here I've got to call the agency and tell them you're ripe for a scandal."
And he'd swear, Kame goes grey. And still, but it only lasts a moment, and then he has another long gulp.
"You'd make some people's day," he says.
"Sharks, huh?" Jin suspects he's trespassing, but what the hell. His apartment. His mouth.
"Big sharks." Kame seems to find his peeling wallpaper interesting. "Big teeth."
"Always swimming," Jin says. Akira was big into sharks at some point, and Jin got an education along with the teeth trauma. "Explains your hours."
Kame snorts, but leaves it at that.
"How are the guys?" The ones that are left. He's not going to mention Nakamaru. "How's Koki?"
Kame's smile turns to a frown. "Koki? Why?"
"Hey, I'm interested. Your dogs, your sharks, your other pets..." Koki threw himself at Kame over a decade ago and somehow he stuck. Like cuddly fungus, playing tough unless he's draped all over Kame. Given the way things went, it's a wonder they never fucked, a nice little bonus for Kame-chan.
Okay, there's a weird, distracting image, and the weirder thought that he doesn't even know.
"Koki's fine," Kame says, very neutrally.
O...kay.
For a moment, Jin's brain spins on possibilities. They did, broke up, this was a bad question. They didn't, Kame's pining, oh hell no way. They did, they are, Kame is... fucking Jin on the side, this isn't just about sharks, and Jin should kick him out right the fuck now and— fuck no, not Koki, surely.
"You're not fucking Koki, right?"
"What?" Kame stares at him like he dropped in through the roof, which Jin guesses is an answer. All righty.
He shrugs casually. "I'm sure he'd let you."
But Kame's face is smoothing over, his whole body drawing back into the Kamenashi Kazuya, Master of the Universe thing. "I'm sure he has other sources of income."
Fuck him. Jin doesn't even care. But it pools like acid in his mouth, the jobs and Kame in his suit and his fucked up hole of an apartment. "Yeah, you all sucked your dicks years ago, Johnny and the senpai, day and night and smile and say thank you and was it good for you sir..."
Kame's eyes are flaring, hot ice, Jin stops and he can't look away. "You shut your big mouth or I'll shut it for you."
His mouth, which is dry and wordless suddenly. His head is so blank, he needs a moment. "Sore spot?" he tries, though it sounds weak. "Don't worry, they all got value for money."
"If you think you can be proud of yourself..." Kame takes a step closer, but Jin just stands rooted. "If you're proud of your integrity, you're even dumber than I thought."
"Great," Jin says, giddy with coming to his senses. "Why are you talking to me then, if I'm so dumb?"
Kame shrugs tersely. "I figured someone's got to pay your rent. I heard your wife was out of cash this week."
"Leave her out of this, you asshole!"
"You got her into this. Some prize you were."
Jin wants to kick him. Pound the smug superiority right out of him. But you can do that when you're sixteen and not a loser, not when you're pushing forty and in trouble with everyone in the whole fucking wide world. "Well, aren't you glad I was out of your hair then."
Kame seems undecided whether to laugh or cry or toss him cash for better lines. "Oh, Jin."
"Shut up," Jin says hoarsely. "Drink your beer." He empties his own, and he kind of wants another, because his face is hot. But he doesn't want to be some lonely guy with a beer bottle in about three minutes.
"So, Koki," he says, and watches Kame. "He's fine?"
Kame gets the sharp look about him again, but all he says is, "Like I said. He's fine."
"He'd be sad to hear you speak so coldly of him."
"Well, I guess it's his luck he'll never know because nobody gives a shit about you anymore."
Swearing, Jin notes. It kind of makes him feel better.
"So what's your next meeting?" he asks. "If it's not national security, alien invasion secret."
Kame drinks at his beer, what little is left of it. Bastard actually thinks about it. "Concert budgets," he says. "Tour plans."
"You toured in March." Even Jin remembers the promotion, impossible to miss.
"Not our tour," Kame says, and then his beer is gone and the time is up.
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Date: 2013-01-16 04:19 pm (UTC)XD XD you totally cracked me on that one...
then... please.... do not be... well, i dont think it would be offending but, i got to make sure in anyways though...
kame, you are one horny, fucking shameless bitch.... making jin do.... that... shit now i'm acting like a little kid.... oh no.. .this is bad...kmae just acted like one needy bitch right there... well, a decent one....
i was reading and when i saw the free-the-fly part, i kind of turned my eyes away from the monitor... because really, this is embarrassing on jin's part....
i hope none of this happens to jin... or kame or maru.... or koki.... please... koki, stay out of it....
thanks for this update.... :) can't wait for the next... well, i'm kinda nervous for the next updates... i don't know what to expect anymore aside form the fact that kame would be coming to get the blowjob he wants.... geez...
thanks again. :)
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Date: 2013-01-17 04:40 pm (UTC)We're starting to feel a bit worried about making you so nervous with Kame's blow jobs and stuff. >_> We have to admit that this will never be among the fluffier stories of ours. If it makes you uncomfortable, please don't think we'll be offended if you have to bail out.
(We have much fluffier sexytimez stories, and even some without sex at all. Promise! :)
Thank you for commenting; we really appreciate it! ♥
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Date: 2013-01-18 04:32 am (UTC)*turns to kame* bring it on, needy bitch!sorry. i'm having too much sugar in my body right now. kinda makes the brain over active.
well, it's not that i'm uncomfortable or what.... just that.... it always takes me by surprise... i mean, my imagination runs wild when i read your updates... that's why.... it almost feels like i'm there, watching while the
needybeast is being blown by the poor jinny..... just that.... don't worry... i'm fine.....and i might go check out the other stuff.... rest my head for a while from the wild imagination from this one.... :D thanks again... :D
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Date: 2013-01-18 11:21 pm (UTC)This is one of the best compliments you could give us! It's what we're always trying to do, make people feel like they're actually experiencing it. So, YAY!!!
Okay, if you're looking around for fluff... avoid The Same Deep Water As You.
Our fic index. (http://www.haikuesque.net/fic.htm)
Fluff with sexytimes:
See a better time; Good will to all men...; Unexpected Changes in Management (very very fluffy)
Fluff without sexytimes:
The perfect Christmas date (very very fluffy); Fall in Dream; Our story
Hope you find something to relax you. :)
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Date: 2013-01-19 01:34 am (UTC)thanks so much... :) *off to reading*
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Date: 2013-01-16 04:28 pm (UTC)I wonder if Kame is trying to ease his bitchiness this time...it looks like he's trying to reach out to Jin without admitting it...Can't wait for next week!!!
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Date: 2013-01-17 04:40 pm (UTC)he's trying to reach out to Jin without admitting it...
...even to himself. :D
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Date: 2013-01-16 04:45 pm (UTC)There's a pause. Jin's brain cells are assembling.
This beginning is adorable. Sometimes I'm worried that I think like that, but it's Jin. He's allowed to be adorable in any kind of age.
Well. Well, well.
Jin cannot have the same reaction as me yet. I all go OH YES, it's an UPDATE WITH KAME *____*
I feel lucky. LOL
No, his brain wanted to know what song to prepare, and when his brain tried to suggest one, his brain insisted that it was a waste of time anyway, since Kamenashi isn't coming for Jin's song.
This is nearly what I thought right now ._.
It's been a long time since the music came for him.
Writing again, YAY
neighborhood association? What are they even doing?
He hates this fucking balancing act.
Yeah, this is clearly a situation he has to deal with all that shit.
Kame cared, he liked it. And that part was easy, served straight-up, Kame wanted him and took him and it's been a long time since he's been wanted.
I cannot help myself with all those Deep Water feels. o.o Not exactly the same sentiment, but… Jin is Jin. ^^
"Don't mess with me," Kame says, slowly. "You'd lose."
*______*
I get happy at strange moments. o.o
Brings it out. Half hard, not like last time, but growing, and what's a blur from last time takes forever.
For a turtle who is supposed to be slow this turtle is quite fast.
Trust Kame to pick arguments up right where they left them, after coming his brains out.
Very functional. LOL
And god, wow. Kame's face just softens.
Jin's thoughts are just hilarious.
"You'd make some people's day," he says.
Seems like Kame is trusting Jin far enough to not say anything. or well, that Jin has no leftover power. or other stuff.
"You got her into this. Some prize you were."
They still know which buttons to press.
Kame seems undecided whether to laugh or cry or toss him cash for better lines. "Oh, Jin."
Kame thoughts please.
"Not our tour," Kame says, and then his beer is gone and the time is up.
Cannot wait to get more information on the background. *______*
I hope he's back soonish. T____T no verification.... I hope this indicates that Kame can come and go whenever he wants. Same goes for the money. We are stuck on two months rent I suppose.
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Date: 2013-01-17 04:40 pm (UTC)We update faster than some people can manage to comment at all. There may be a flaw in our system. >_>
Jin is Jin.
Some things will be eternally Jin, no matter how we write him and what situation we put him in. :-)
"Don't mess with me," Kame says, slowly. "You'd lose."
*______*
I get happy at strange moments. o.o
Your happiness makes us happy. We are quite, quite fond of that moment.
They still know which buttons to press.
Don't they ever!
I hope this indicates that Kame can come and go whenever he wants. Same goes for the money. We are stuck on two months rent I suppose.
Yeah, it pretty much does. But it's two weeks, not two months. (Well, it's more like three and a half weeks because Kame doesn't realize how cheap Jin's little rathole is, but...)
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Date: 2013-01-16 05:34 pm (UTC)having said that, i love how jin's mind goes on and on about whether he should object to giving kame a blowjob or not..making an excuse that he was surprised the first time around and he shouldn't allow it to happen again..and then he's licking his lips (anticipating?) and he's having a cock contemplation (that cracked me up)..
by the time kame arrived, i think jin finally accepted what kame really needs from him..he confronted kame with it and kame made it clear what he's there for..did kame just admitted that aside from liking jin's voice, he also likes jin?does that mean no more singing on their future meetings?
thanks for the kame tidbits on this chapter..its nice to know more about his life now aside from what's going on with j.e.and kame's part there..poor ran-chan..
and you mentioned koki..jin's mind making different scenarios on kame's relationship with koki is funny..
and as always, i always enjoy the conversations between them, at one part it seems like they want to kill/hurt each other, then after that they're talking like good friends (or acquaintance), asking about this and that about their lives..it almost like a game, how they try to get a rise from each other..its good because i get to see the shifting of emotions from kame..
thanks for the update!!!
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Date: 2013-01-17 04:49 pm (UTC)We're happy you enjoy the conversations, we love writing them. For this story we had fun playing on the tensions and competitiveness a lot. You're right, almost like a game. :)
Thank you for this cool comment.
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Date: 2013-01-16 05:41 pm (UTC).. ouch T_T
Kame is being so mean to him. Like he's nothing. I wonder if it's simply related to Jin leaving 2010 and the wedding without notice. Or there's more behind it? Probably. Given how everyone doesn't give a crap about him anymore.
I want them to talk more. I want to know what Kame thinks about him. Does he love him or is it just their eternal sexual attraction?
I still don't get why Jin accepts this so easily. Though I kind of like how he's being smart about it, going straight to the point. I hope Kame will still make him sing and play.
I keep wondering if it's about Kame trying to help him going back to music. Or just the sex.
And you're already half-way through ? D:
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:06 pm (UTC)I want to know what Kame thinks about him. Does he love him or is it just their eternal sexual attraction?
It's... more complicated than that. But there is definitely sexual attraction. We hope the rest will become clearer as the story goes on.
Though I kind of like how he's being smart about it, going straight to the point.
:D Thank you. We like his attitude, too.
Half-way in terms of time... almost. But there are way more words in the second half. >_>
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:16 pm (UTC)Nothing could have made me happier :")
It's... more complicated than that.
Duh, it wouldn't be Jin and Kame otherwise.
but we don't think it was one particular thing, just... stuff adding up, life
Yeah. I kind of think that also, the fact that they don't see each other anymore played its role. When you have more time away from that person and thus only a distant point of view, you tend to spend more time thinking of things and possibilities. I know that when I have silent arguments with my loved ones, I always see the worst in everything. So I guess with a history like theirs, Kame would most definitely end up very very resentful.
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:39 pm (UTC)Enjoying our madness, are you? >_>
Duh, it wouldn't be Jin and Kame otherwise.
That is very true! And yes, to the 'silent argument' thing, stuff can get so dramatic in one's own head!
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:41 pm (UTC)ydek
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Date: 2013-01-16 05:50 pm (UTC)Ugh, there are so many things I liked about this! Jin suddenly wide awake when he considers maybe his children or Meisa got hurt, that was so sweet. I also like Kame's momentary confusion about shifts. It was strangely un-Kame-like, because he hasn't been taken by surprise much, or not enough for him to talk before he thinks. It was just for a small, silly reason, but still, I liked it.
I also want to punch that neighbor, by the way. Like, that's a really asshole thing to do.
And omfg "cock contemplation" WHAT. That was funny even though it wasn't!
And then Jin's, "Wow, you've really put me in my place there." Oh god, Jin, you're so funny when you make comments like that. BUT THEN YOU BLEW KAME AGAIN ANYWAY. EVEN THOUGH YOU KNEW YOU WEREN'T THAT LOW, IN MANY DIFFERENT WAYS, WHYYYYYY. I GET YOU NEED THE MONEY BUT STILL. DAMMIT JIN GET YOURSELF TOGETHER! AND KAME YOU HAVE TO GET YOURSELF TOGETHER TOO YOU LITTLE SHIT!
The 'you can't smoke here' deal was just... perfect, I loved it. Jin may allow Kame's cock in his mouth but no way is Kame smoking in his place. Cause there's boundaries (apparently) and Kame won't cross 'em. mh-hmm
The Koki and Kame fucking part, what the hell xD Jin what are you thinking! Caught Kame real of guard though! I liked that! But mainly it was just like, 'Jin, you are not a fangirl obsessing over bandmembers fucking, stop it'.
Even though I liked it a bit.And I can't even get mad at Kame for bringing Meisa into their... discussion. It was bound to happen with Jin's big mouth. Not saying Jin shouldn't have said anything, but it's not a surprise he got that retort.
AND THAT IS ALL. I SAID ENOUGH ALREADY. This chapter wasn't all 'sudden and wtf' but in my opinion it was better than the first time Jin sucked dick. Kame's dick. No, just dick in general. Anyway. Yeah, this was better because... hmm, there was more time for things, more time to think, to talk, to not get freaked out, to prepare, to be an asshole idk. Just... more time, and it got us more details and all, so that was good! Overall very satisfactory! (Idk why I put it that way, it sounds fake but I swear it's not!)
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:06 pm (UTC)We can't figure out if you're more outraged at Jin or at Kame. :) But it's great to hear which bits work for you, where you like them and where you go 'omg you dick'.
TOTALLY BOUNDARIES. Jin has them and Kame doesn't cross them. :)
Thank you, this was a fun comment!
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Date: 2013-01-16 07:02 pm (UTC)Kame cared, he liked it. And that part was easy, served straight-up, Kame wanted him and took him and it's been a long time since he's been wanted.
It's a little funny, that Jin had like, a week and all morning to think about what happened, and this doesn't occur to him until right before Kame arrives. X'D BUT AT LEAST IT DID and finally, he sort of admitted to himself that yeah, it's nice to be wanted. :) YAY NO REGRETS! And obviously he's got no regrets because
"Nothing. I thought we'd skip to the point?"
This I didn't quite expect because he seemed so nervous beforehand, with ants crawling all over, and honestly, it kinda made me a little sad because that would mean he really didn't want to do it again. BUT THEN HE SAYS THIS, and not only does it mean that he's accepted that that's what Kame likes, but that's he's totally okay doing it, and that maybe, well, he wants to do it. He just went and sat down and took Kame in like nothing, did his very best to make sure it felt okay, I feel like even though Kame started this, Jin is sort of the one in charge now. I think maybe that's why Kame was surprised because it seems like he figured he'd had to go through the whole singing and touching thing again to get Jin to go along with it, but NOPE. Jin's got him covered. /also no pun intended. It makes me happy this will be a regular, nice, consensual thing between them now. I thought eventually, the idea that well, Jin is basically sucking Kame's dick to pay his rent and child support would get weird after sometime, but I don't think it will now, not to me, because he wants to. It's such a simple word, but it has a lot of meaning. :D
Next, I didn't mention it before because I got SOOO lost in all my other feels lol, but even though at the beginning I said I loved BossKame, he is/was starting to irritate me quite a lot with his coldness to a point where I was like, "Oh no, I don't wanna dislike Kame again. DX" But he like, totally redeemed himself here. :'D Besides being in a relatively pleasant mood, (idk what he got so bothered about, saying "don't mess with me", was he annoyed cuz he realized he lost control HAHAHA) afterwards he said sorry about waking Jin up, allowed himself to show that he feels bad about Jin's crappy job, asked about his kids and said sorry that Maru died and I was like "He's....he's.....being NICE, he's actually showing he...CARES?!?! WHAAAAAAT."
And strangely quiet, and he thinks Kame is smiling under a whole lot of blasé and look-how-I-don't-care and coolest-guy-to-ever-lean-on-your-shelf-really.
And god, wow. Kame's face just softens.
Either Jin's blowjobs just have magical euphoric properties, or really, Kame just calmed down for a bit and acted like a normal human being for awhile. :'D (Or both, LOL.) Cuz like Jin thought, he could have just left shortly afterwards, but he didn't. He actually stayed and had a bit of conversation. And really, that whole chunk where they were talking about these things and relaxed like they were still kinda friends, that was my favorite part. <333 Their relationship is slowly patching up and you can tell, well, it ain't just about the blowjobs or Kame would have left already. :'D /CRIES
So it actually kinda made me laugh when they started throwing insults at each other again (LOL about Jin getting seemingly jealous that Kame would be with Koki, like why would he care? X'D Oh Jin.) It's like they realized "ALRIGHT, reached nice quota for the day, we have to start being dicks and hating each other again now, so no one can get any ideas >.>;;". OH YOU GUISE.
"Well, I guess it's his luck he'll never know because nobody gives a shit about you anymore."
YOU DO KAME YOU DOOOO AHAHAHAHAAAAA.
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:17 pm (UTC)omg you killed me
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:41 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-01-17 05:25 pm (UTC)I feel like even though Kame started this, Jin is sort of the one in charge now.
You aren't wrong there. :-)
It makes me happy this will be a regular, nice, consensual thing between them now.
Um, don't get too excited, the 'nice' part is... well, you see how they are with each other. *g* But yeah, consensual. Jin could always say no. He could have said no the very first time... or rather, he could have not suggested it. Or taken Kame up on the very suggestive-boner-in-Jin's-face, it's all a bit muddled to Jin what really happened there. *g*
Kame got too bossy for you? HAHAHAHAHA! Well, okay, he has his moments. But he isn't always an ass. (It can depend on the sort of day he's had at work, too. And whether Jin gives him a reason to snarl at him.)
idk what he got so bothered about, saying "don't mess with me", was he annoyed cuz he realized he lost control
Even when you think you don't get it, you totally get it. *g* This was a REALLY fun comment to read, and some excellent analysis.
And really, that whole chunk where they were talking about these things and relaxed like they were still kinda friends, that was my favorite part. <333 Their relationship is slowly patching up and you can tell, well, it ain't just about the blowjobs or Kame would have left already.
Yep. :-) We love writing those bits too. And the insults, we also like the insults, because it shows neither will back down. :-)
Koki... yes, Jin, why would you care? #haha
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:53 pm (UTC)You aren't wrong there. :-)
YAAY :D
Kame got too bossy for you? HAHAHAHAHA!
I KNOW I KNOW XD But he's getting better and he handles Jin nicely while he's sucking him off, he doesn't pull his hair too hard or anything, so, that's good at least. :D
Even when you think you don't get it, you totally get it. *g*
YAAY PART TWO!! :'D Glad I'm figuring this out a little. :3 I'm glad you like them, it's a big part of why I love this and DW so much, you don't make what's going to happen obvious and it makes me think a lot and I like interacting with a story. :D Instead of sitting there like "Yeah I saw that coming. /YAWN."
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Date: 2013-01-18 11:20 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-01-16 07:21 pm (UTC)foughttalked XD can't wait to see what happens next XD looking forward to the next part ^_^♥♥♥♥(no subject)
Date: 2013-01-17 05:25 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-01-16 10:14 pm (UTC)me likey~
i just love how the development here. all. everything.
thank you :)
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:28 pm (UTC)Thank you for commenting! ♥
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Date: 2013-01-16 10:25 pm (UTC)Favourite parts of this chapter are probably the times when Kame says "Oh Jin." I kept wondering what tone he was using when he said it, particularly the first time when he heard abt Jin's new job, was he thinking it's such a waste of Jin's talent/potential or is it exasperation, like, trust Jin to find something like that...
Why does everyone clam up and start being suspicious whenever Jin asks questions about JE? Do they think he's got a revenge agenda or something?
I hope when this is over, they can all talk again. Thanks for clearing things up in the comments in the last chp that Kame doesn't know the full truth abt Maru's withdrawal from KT. I hope at some point, he can find out the truth. Kame really does love KT and it would be a shame if one of the people who worked so hard alongside him to keep KT going after Jin left is forever in Kame's mind someone who then not only betrayed the group, but also Kame personally.
Anyway, back to this chp, now that you'vementioned it here again, I'm very curious as to why Kame was speaking to Jin's mum? Does Jin still keep in regular contact with her (if he was so desperate for money before this then why didn't she help if Kuroki-san has been helping Meisa?)?
Each time you reveal a little bit of Kame's life, a dozen more questions pop straight up! Can't wait for the next chp!
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:29 pm (UTC)Why does everyone clam up and start being suspicious whenever Jin asks questions about JE? Do they think he's got a revenge agenda or something?
Another interesting observation! Kame definitely has his knee-jerk reactions when people start getting nosy around him. *g* (And Maru too, for his own reasons! Maru could even still go to jail, really, with the drugs involved, so there's that. :-/ )
I'm very curious as to why Kame was speaking to Jin's mum?
That was an accident, he ran into her in a department store and they just made small talk.
Jin's mom doesn't know the full extent of Jin's money trouble, though she knows he hasn't had a real job in a while. She could probably help him out, but really, Jin's rent PLUS child support for two kids would really be... a LOT of help, and something Jin wouldn't want; and even if he managed to ask his mum for money for his own kids, she couldn't afford to do that as more than a one-off.
Thank you for this cool feedback, it's really interesting to hear what people are guessing about and stuff. :DDDD
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Date: 2013-01-17 06:05 am (UTC)I'm glad that Jin laughs, like twice, in this chapter. He sounds carefree.
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:30 pm (UTC)LOL, you're counting his laughter? Excellent. *g* Thank you for the feedback and the praise! :DD
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:07 pm (UTC)"No, no, not at all." Okay, what does she want? An egg?
I laughed XDDDDD
Kame looks him over again. Jin is the fish. It's not a good feeling.
Nope, not a good feeling at all >____>
But then again, I'm M >___>Fuck him. Jin doesn't even care. But it pools like acid in his mouth, the jobs and Kame in his suit and his fucked up hole of an apartment. "Yeah, you all sucked your dicks years ago, Johnny and the senpai, day and night and smile and say thank you and was it good for you sir..."
Kame's eyes are flaring, hot ice, Jin stops and he can't look away. "You shut your big mouth or I'll shut it for you."
Kame's reacting so strongly I can't help but think that... really? What's been done to Kame, what has he done to get so far with his career? That could be why he's able to do this to Jin-- if Kame's done something like it for his career or something before too. YOU TOLD ME YOU LIKE SPECULATING SO HERE I AM XDD <3
"Well, I guess it's his luck he'll never know because nobody gives a shit about you anymore."
Well, aren't you angry, Kamenashi >____> But at least he's visibly FEELING something and not being a PROFESSIONAL with Jin.
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:35 pm (UTC)Interesting speculation. *g* We will say that it's not what you're thinking right now, but the whole context and the question of what you do (and put up with) for success is a sore one, and it goes together with what you're saying at the bottom, he's... feeling his feels right now and not dealing with that very well.
On the other hand, in his job he can never act on his feelings, he's always got to be diplomatic or circumspect or downright cagey; being able just to be angry when he wants to be angry is also doing him good.
This was a lovely comment and, here, we hug you some more. *HUG* *GLOMP*
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Date: 2013-01-17 09:15 pm (UTC)We will say that it's not what you're thinking right now
I'm happy that it isn't DD:
being able just to be angry when he wants to be angry is also doing him good
I definitely agree with this D: Even though it makes me wince when he says things like that to Jin... it's a lot better than keeping on his mask. >___>
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Date: 2013-01-17 05:45 pm (UTC)I have to say though, I like all that bitching between them. So fun to read :P and is Jin getting attuned to kame's needs? Somehow it doesn't really feel like his offering his 'services' only because he needs that money from kame. And he's digging into kame's history. Sigh all the akame feels :) my brains so screwed up by this story I don't even know if my comments make any sense already lol :P
Haha love it though :) thanks!
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Date: 2013-01-18 11:20 pm (UTC)It kinda seems like jin's his only stress-reliever, although he probably doesn't realize it and doesn't know how to deal with it.
This. Yes. Well, and smoking. >_>
Your comments make total sense and are very insightful. :))
Thank you, this was an awesome one!
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Date: 2013-01-17 07:57 pm (UTC)They're doing such a delicate dance those two, dangling on one side or the other of an edge between some sort of nostalgic familiarity and unforgiving defensiveness. Their dialogues goes from bickering to insults to empathy to curiosity - back and forth making me giggle one secind and feeling my poor heart clench the other. Which is a highly enjoyable experience. But those blows under the belt they keep giving each other, cheap ones about Meisa and sexual favors, makes me wonder about their past and future. The big question is why they still let each other pull all their triggers. They should reasonably not be so easily insulted after thirteen years of not speaking to each other... I wanna read the rest right now!!! *_____*
Sorry for my comment being this short but the next one will probably make up for it :D
Lovely update, fantastic actually. No fluffy kittens for you though, this time I'm throwing hugs, kisses and pastries at you <3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3<3
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Date: 2013-01-18 11:20 pm (UTC)Once Jin has figured out what exactly is going on in his head, you'll hear about it. :)
They're doing such a delicate dance those two, dangling on one side or the other of an edge between some sort of nostalgic familiarity and unforgiving defensiveness.
That is a lovely way of putting it. *___* They're still trying to figure out what they actually mean or are to each other now. And when they want to be defensive, suddenly the old friendship pokes its head, but once they have lowered their guard a bit, something reminds them that they haven't really been friends in a long time. So it goes all over the place, like a yo-yo. :)
Hugs, kisses, and pastries! We are spoiled!
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Date: 2013-01-18 11:33 pm (UTC)okay I know that I'll probably be everything but patientI love the yo-yo metaphor, fits Akame perfectly (that's why I love your fics, you guys seem to be channeling all the best bits about the Akame ship).I should've included some bubbly to go along with the sweets =^-^=
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Date: 2013-01-17 10:42 pm (UTC)It broke my heart a little bit when Jin's first reaction to an early phone call was that something bad would've happened to his kids or Meisa ;;______; Poor guy. The ant stuff was... hrrrrrrrr. Such a distracting and awful sensation. On top of that, him just giving himself to Kame like that and... Come on, you two idiots, stop being so cold with each other, it's just going to upset both of you in the end. You're old already. Grow up. TALK.
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Date: 2013-01-18 11:20 pm (UTC)You're old already.
Whaaaaat! They are in the prime of their lives. Don't give them a crisis. ;p
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Date: 2013-01-20 08:48 am (UTC)Jin’s brain is interesting though. Seems like it doesn’t quite know what to make of all of that? But then again who does.
It’s nice to see Jin is starting to compose again. Guess that what Kame wanting Jin to sing for him was good for after all. I don’t know if I’m repeating myself here but I already had the suspicion that for some reason Kame wants Jin to get in touch with music again. To feel the music again and start composing. And not run away from music and long lost careers.
Of course, Kame is in a meeting, Kame said he'd call.
Yeah, well. Kame’s the reliable type. *g*
Jin being that blunt is unexpected though. And I still wonder if Kame really only comes for the blow jobs. Because I don’t think he does. But I also don’t think you’ll tell me about Kame’s real reasons yet. #damn #ampatientthough #alwayspatient #usedtothewaiting
Though Jin being Jin, I still don’t think he would do this if he really hated it. Jin’s always been more like that and even with all of the problems he’s having, I can’t bring myself to believe he’s totally disgusted. He just maybe hasn’t realized yet how much he loves it. But I think he can’t deny that it feels good that Kame wants him. And is he actually trying to make it nice for Kame?
It’s still interesting how Kame seems more relaxed with Jin afterwards. When he’s not too much of a bitch then and can maybe even let go a little. Like he can make it seem like they’re still good and friends and nothing has changed. He even calls Jin by his first name.
And god, wow. Kame's face just softens. "Okay, right now. Jelly was sick with some immune thing for a while, but the latest pills are working. We have to keep the puppy away from her, though, he's just too bouncy for an old lady."
I wonder who ‘we’ is here. o.o
"Oh, true, I almost forgot," Jin says. "The minute you're out of here I've got to call the agency and tell them you're ripe for a scandal."
And he'd swear, Kame goes grey. And still, but it only lasts a moment, and then he has another long gulp.
Jin, you evil thing. I bet he enjoyed that, right?
I wonder if something happened between Kame and Koki? And their friendship as well? Will we ever find out? >__< But Jin… why is he even interesting in whether they fucked or not? Starting to get jealous? Worried? Not wanting Kame to cheat? Or just interest? But them fighting like that also has a very familiar feeling. Though they seem a bit like teenagers who try to find where the other one’s boundaries are. Who are provoking each other as much as they can, but retreat as soon as they get too close to said boundaries so they won’t cross them. (Although Kame seems better at not crossing the boundaries than Jin.)
"Not our tour," Kame says, and then his beer is gone and the time is up.
Not KAT-TUN’s tour, but Jin’s tour! #wunschdenken
Okay, maybe not. But then again. Well I really did start wondering if this would rather be Kame’s solo tour, or a tour he organizes for Jin (but then why?) or someone completely different? I really wonder. Would Kame even manage with his packed schedule? I mean, yeah he’s Mr. Super Turtle, but still. When he’s aiming for president? (Or maybe I’m just too caught up in my ‘Kame just wants Jin to feel the music again’ theory.) Too bad you won’t tell me yet. *g* #morewaitingitis #thatsokay #icanwait òó
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Date: 2013-01-21 09:38 pm (UTC)Yeah, well. Kame’s the reliable type.
It's always good when you can rely on your penises to be erect on time!
But I think he can’t deny that it feels good that Kame wants him.
No, he can't, and he doesn't. That helps a lot, for a guy in Jin's position!
And is he actually trying to make it nice for Kame?
We never know when we should answer a question, or whether we'll end up overexplaining too much -- we can tell you what we think is going on in Jin's head, but maybe you want to keep it murky for his later, erm, development? :-)
I wonder who ‘we’ is here. o.o
OK, we will say when we were just accidentally mysterious -- that's him and his mom. *g* The dogs, like the dogs of most idols, live with mommy, because Kame is just not home enough for a dog.
Jin, you evil thing. I bet he enjoyed that, right?
He enjoyed it a little bit and then he found it very very interesting. *g*
As for Koki and Kame -- NO THEY NEVER FUCKED. T__________T (And nothing 'big' happened, but yeah, they're not where they used to be, either.)
WE LOVE YOUR COMMENTS EVEN WHEN WE ARE BEING TEASES.
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Date: 2013-01-25 09:27 pm (UTC)LOL this is great, and the whole brain theme in the first bit made for a cute running amusement, but this bit I love best, even though it gave me the weirdest mental image of a miniaturized Captain America yelling "BRAIN CELLS ASSEMBLE!" into Jin's ear. Hazards of reading too many fandoms, I guess. *g*
One thing I was surprised by and really like in this fic is Jin rediscovering how much he enjoys making music, even if it's just one of several ways Kame makes a change in Jin's life. I wonder, by now, if "awakening" isn't the one thing that runs through the whole story, as its major theme, for both Kame and Jin.
if you have possibly, maybe remembered about our neighborhood association?"
This is so Japan I can't even. xD The utter politeness, and that neighboorhood thing.
cock contemplation
lol this needs an entry at urban dictionary. they'd love it
Kame wanted him and took him and it's been a long time since he's been wanted.
This is...idek how to say it, I just love the way this is put, the insight. Jin's honesty with himself.
Then he imagines all those slippery rope guys, dangling there and calling Kame a fucktard for his trouble, and he laughs.
Jin's way of thinking, I can't get enough of it. Gimme mooooore.
"Don't mess with me," Kame says, slowly. "You'd lose."
asdafdasfdsa Kame you badass! I shouldn't like this bit so much but god I do. I can hear him say it, and woa. *-*
a casual brush over Jin's bottom lip with the tip of his thumb, 'see you next week' or something.
I love how his attitude returns here.
Koki threw himself at Kame over a decade ago and somehow he stuck. Like cuddly fungus, playing tough unless he's draped all over Kame.
Whenever someone asks what Kokame is, I will give them this quote. It's perfect.
The shark thing, I was so excited about how a bit more was hinted at here. I think you're doing a cool job at steady information increasing, and keeping the suspense just right. Never thought this would have a conspiracy vibe when you first started posting. *g*
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Date: 2013-01-27 10:47 am (UTC)One thing I was surprised by and really like in this fic is Jin rediscovering how much he enjoys making music, even if it's just one of several ways Kame makes a change in Jin's life. I wonder, by now, if "awakening" isn't the one thing that runs through the whole story, as its major theme, for both Kame and Jin.
:DDD How very interesting. *g*
Heeee, we researched the neighborhood association thing. Glad it worked!
Jin's getting B.A.s in cock contemplation...
Badass!Kame -- yeah. *g* He's not psycho!Kame in this but he can definitely be scary. And we enjoy it.
The idea that we are writing Kokame definitions is kind of hilarious. *g*
And thank you kindly on the shark/conspiracy commentary. We will see what you think at the end, but we're very happy the pacing seems to be working so far!