9 1/2 Weeks - 20 - (Week 5 1/2: Friday)

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Week 5 1/2: Friday

He's absorbed in his composing software, fiddling with fiddly bits, when the phone rings. Jin nearly drops it when he lunges for it. "Yeah?"

"I'll be there in an hour," Kame says.

"An hour, huh," Jin says, because... because. "Not in the neighborhood today?"

There's a pause. Something rustling. Maybe it's Kame's brain. Maybe not.

"No," Kame says at long last. "One hour. See you then."

Jin takes a breath, but Kame beats him to it; to anything. The line's dead. Jin lets the phone sink and looks at the screen. 14:07.

He lets the air out again. Right, one hour. What does he do.

He makes tea for starters and then he grabs his wallet. Also his phone. A few minutes won't be a problem.

He walks along the landing, up one flight of metal stairs. Good thing he remembered where Imamura-san lives, because this is something he can take care of in the meantime. It's June now and less than a thousand yen.

He rings the bell, trying to smile when he hears shuffling and the clink of a chain, but his face can't be bothered to get with the program.

"Oh, Akanishi-san," Imamura-san says brightly with that perfect housewife face, and then her eyes skim over him. "Oh..." She blinks.

Oh. Yeah. The shirt and black jeans he put on after his shower. She's not used to seeing him in anything above 'slightly not homeless'.

"Good afternoon," he says, because somebody should say something. "I hope I'm not disturbing..."

"Not at all," she says quickly, "so nice to see you."

"I've brought my contribution for this month." He holds out the envelope and she takes it with thanks, gives him a neatly written receipt. Then she comments on the rainy season and how dear old Takahashi-san from 1D so helpfully keeps the landings wiped dry, and isn't it sad what happened to his wife.

Jin nods and agrees for about five minutes, the heat sneaking under his clothes, then he makes his excuses. He doesn't want to end up having to shower again, or with his hair sagging like dough. Anyway, he's paid his dues.

Then he's back in his badly air conditioned apartment and has something like forty minutes left, and what do you do with those. Two hours, he could take out the tablet and see where he could get to with that new song, but forty minutes is—

Song. He hasn't got one, didn't think of it. No song, no practice, not even just in case. But last time was special, right, and the time before that they agreed to do without, so...

He takes a gulp of his lukewarm unloved tea, shrugs to himself. He's got some Hot Dogs in cold storage for emergencies. He's good.

And he's got thirty-eight minutes.

He spends them browsing for random shit, some reviews of singles TuneShop thinks he's just going to love and Jason's remastered Best Of e-album, which his mom might get him for his birthday. Some reviews for new movies his kids might ask him to see, because he likes to check out warnings for gory or otherwise upsetting stuff. Then he just generally clicks around, to see what's new.

Not much. Not much at all. Same old, scrolling on.

The doorbell rings.

Jin rises. His phone says it's 15:08.

He opens the door, to a gust of warmer air and Kame standing there.

White shirt, no jacket. Plastic bag, no briefcase. He's wearing sunglasses. "Hi."

One hour, one minute. Friday.

"Hi," Jin says. He steps back, his naked feet not making a sound. Kame follows and the door falls shut.

"Here," Kame says, holding out the bag. "You can put those in the fridge."

Yeah. Sure. Jin takes the bag. Jin will do that.

Behind him, he hears the soft drop of Kame's shoes, Kame stepping up. When he turns, Kame is looking around; looking everything over. Shielded.

It's quiet and still, and Jin says, "Where did you park?" because he never asked before.

Kame is blank, clean as glass. "Car park, three streets away. It's secure." Three streets, that's a walk, humid heat Jin thinks he can feel, and Kame pulls his sunglasses off, looks around again, and the room is so much smaller.

Jin could say other things. About the beer, about Kame's precious precise timing. Or he could just shut up.

Kame puts the glasses on a shelf, skims the floor as if he can see more than Jin, and then looks straight at him. "You didn't take the bed out."

No. He's flushing, he put it away this morning, and he didn't think of it. Didn't think of it at all. "It gets in the way."

Kame's eyebrows twitch. "You think?"

"It's a small apartment," he says. He doesn't know why he sounds like he's lying.

"Big enough for our purposes," Kame says, not that Jin is hearing much, catching up with five days to here and Kame's dark stare. "Go take the bed out."

Take the bed out. Because Kame has a plan, he gave Jin notice, and now it's time for that. All very tidy.

Kame thinks so too. It's in the set of his shoulders and half a smile; patience, and expectation. At home and at ease, perfect in his shirt and soft hair, and this isn't what Jin should notice. He should be angry, maybe. Nurse his pride and hate his unfair life.

He feels like he's moving through water when he turns to the wardrobe. Take the bed out.

He rolls out the futon, and just bending down for the task makes him feel naked, drives the sweat to his neck.

Progression. One step after the other, and this is that.

"Good."

Through water, and it goes over him like another wave. Kame is still watching him, no smile now. But Jin hasn't seen him this open and intent since he started taking detours to has-been and miss-you-not. Does this mean Kame's won?

Jin doesn't feel lost. Even though he's got nothing to say, doesn't know where to move.

"Will you take your clothes off?"

Jin slows. Everything's slow, and it seems a strange question. "That would help. Wouldn't it."

There's heat in Kame's eyes. "Very."

Shirt first, Jin thinks, and his hand is halfway there when he considers. "You'll take your clothes off, too?"

"Yes," Kame says. He doesn't move, but he wouldn't lie. Not about this.

Buttons, one by one. He could just pull the shirt over his head, but something tells him not to, something about the way Kame seems to want to burn through the shirt with his eyes.

They've seen each other topless, even naked, so often. Just not on Jin's futon, with Kame's plan. The thought raises goosebumps on his skin when he puts his hands on his belt buckle.

Kame is staring at him with his lips parted and with utterly undivided attention. When Jin pulls down the zipper, Kame swallows.

Jin pushes all the fabric down together. Has to take his eyes off Kame to step out of his jeans, has time to feel a chill on his skin, in his mind.

But Kame moves, Kame is there. Small apartment.

His hands come down on Jin's hips. Small, smooth office hands, and Jin swallows hard and he blinks, feels like they're pulling him to a stop, or holding him here, or something.

Kame looks Jin over, unembarrassed. Jin's chest and his stomach and his cock and his thighs, and his hand sketches the direction after. It feels free, touching wherever, however, just because. Kame's hand lingers just below Jin's ribs, and then there's a light squeeze and he lets go.

Kame undresses silently and like it doesn't matter, not taking that focus away. But he's doing it, like he said. Jin breathes and lets Kame look his fill, watching Kame's buttons and everything else in turn.

He still works out, has settled into some muscle. Just a bit of flesh on his hips, like they never had as teenagers. He's never felt the years on Kame more, strong years. Kame's no kid.

When Kame pushes his briefs down his hard-on is right there, and Jin breathes through a shudder. Knows it's dumb; he's seen it, he's sucked it, and he's old and knows shit and he made his choice... when? When did he do that. Interesting question.

Then Kame kicks those elegant pants to the side like a balled-up paper bag and Jin bites his lip, doesn't know why he likes that so much.

"Turn around for me?"

The water shifts, pulls at him. Turn around, what for? He turns, slowly, feeling clumsy and unsure what do to with his hands, and then he stands still. He feels Kame's breath behind him, and it makes him flush, zig-zag jolts through all his limbs. He doesn't know how to take that attention, he's not used to it.

"You're really something," Kame says, a whisper trickling down Jin's back.

Is he, still? He doesn't know what he is, or what he's doing, except turning for Kame, naked. Waiting.

Kame's hand is on his shoulder. Dry heat. Kame guides him back around. His eyes are holding nothing back and if there was ever a moment Jin should have been afraid, it's this.

"Get down now."

The only thing that drops is Jin's stomach. Jin stands and blinks at Kame and he's too slow, this is too slow.

Kame's hand is back on his hip. More guidance. He's staring at his blue sheets and then his knees are on the futon, and Kame's touch is just there, on his shoulder from high. He leans forward, and he closes his eyes.

Too slow. He can't think, he can't hear and where is Kame?

Kame takes a moment, and then there's just the smallest pull in the sheets under him, Kame on the futon. Jin breathes, he's so naked and what is he doing, and his skin shakes inside out when he pictures himself.

Too slow.

Kame's hand high between his shoulders, light touch, calming. "You look gorgeous."

Mindreading now. Jin bites his lip. Tenses when Kame's hand moves, long slow strokes down his back, and up and further down.

Relax.

"Relax," Kame says, and this is freaky.

But it works. Works better when Kame tells him. The next sweep goes all the way to his ass and lingers there, hot curious fingers on cool skin, and he breathes through it. It doesn't feel bad or anything.

Then Kame's hands are gone, and this isn't steady, Jin's not, this bed is not, until Kame shifts between his legs, skin against his thighs, what is he doing, and the touch is back and it's cool, slick and wet, slipping... between.

He almost jumps away. Holds his breath instead.

It feels so weird, and nothing's even... Kame's slicking him up, that's all. Knows what he's doing, unlike some. He hears the sound of Kame's strained breathing, and he keeps listening to that, and then there's a slippery hand on his hip.

"Spread wider," Kame says. "Tilt up." The hand guides him. "Hold still."

He holds still. Ass in the air, waiting.

"Get with it," he grates when a second later still nothing has happened, and then it's there, big, slick and opening him up.

His breath just stops.

Kame doesn't. Slow, hardly moving except Jin feels it, more of it every moment, more of the burn. Kame's slow, and Jin's head runs through everything, Kame on his doorstep and songs and suits and hands in his hair.

"Breathe," Kame says, and all the air leaves him in a rush, and he sucks in more, and feels Kame from the shudder.

It helps. He breathes again when he remembers, and it goes easier. Bit by bit and it can't be slow enough, and it's keen and alien, pinning him right on an edge. But it's nothing he can't do. For however long it needs.

"How is it?" Kame asks on a pause, his hands hard on Jin's hips. The strain in his voice tells him there's a way to go.

How? It's strange, really strange. "Go deeper," Jin says, because he can take this. Bury his face and let Kame in until they're as close as they can be, and maybe he was waiting for this.

Kame goes deeper, a little sharper and Jin bites back a sound. But he remembers to breathe, and it lasts and lasts and then Kame is there, close as it gets. Stilling with a sigh, his hands warm around Jin's hips. His thumbs are light, stroking. Kame hasn't touched him like this.

He can feel the long, slow breath Kame takes. It's like he can feel everything. He wonders if he's expected to do something now.

"You're doing well."

Is he? Jin squeezes his eyes shut, tries not to shudder. Silly. Stupid. He's doing nothing, just holding still.

But he's sweating, breaking out all over.

Kame pets him; his sides, just a bit, everything a little sticky. "You're perfect," he says, a rasp like dead leaves.

And Jin's flush spreads worse, he doesn't know why, why he's listening, so much. "Good for—"

"Shh," Kame cuts him off. "Stop that."

So he does.

"I'll move now," Kame tells him.

Jin nods, to himself; to the sheets, maybe. Exhales and the sweat prickles, and then Kame pulls back and oh fuck what is this, stop.

His arms are wobbling, he wants up or down and he's inside out and trapped and just a mess, a shaking mess.

Kame grips his hips, hard. Sharp through the blur.

"You're fine," Kame says, and the burn comes back, Kame pushes back, up close, "just fine," and same again, double-time, and oh fuck, "breathe," and he does, and okay... okay. Fast, hard and full, but slippery smooth as well and somehow, sometime it clicks, there's not going to be any pain.

"Good," Kame says, and Jin agrees, not that it's needed. Nothing's needed.

Just Kame and what he wants, moving him the way he wants. That's all. That's enough, full in his head, and Kame pulls him higher and it's the easiest thing, the clearest thing to go with it. Go, take him in, take wet slapping sounds and Jin spreads wider, to get more of each thrust, the strength of Kame's legs and the roughness that pins him, puts him right here, he knows where he is and what and he feels himself right to his curling fingertips, no stranger's skin numb to the world.

He makes a plaintive noise when it stops.

He hears Kame, too, his breaths like aftershocks against him. It's over? Kame is done?

The moment just passes, the grip on him still firm, there's still that. And Kame slipping out of him, strange too and Jin doesn't stop the shudder that goes through him, just puts his head down. Nothing needed. Kame is stroking him with sticky hot hands and Jin's got his ass spread out for him and that's just the way it is.

"Turn over," Kame says, and shows him, too. It's easy. He feels how wet he is back there, how strange it is to move. Somehow he likes it. He's on his back, Kame still kneeling, his hair sagging and his chest slick with sweat.

Watching him, suits and shoes and sharks and cash folded in over a twenty-year-old stare. Jin looks back and hides nothing. Not that he's waiting. Not that he's sweaty, too. Not that he spread for it. It's that same feeling, being right where he is. No questions and no whispers. His mind is so clear.

"Pull your feet in more," Kame says, pushes a bit to show what he means. Then one of his hands strokes down the inside of Jin's thigh, slow and right down, round, and a finger probes the wetness... there. Jin swallows hard but it's already stopped again, and Kame strokes up the other thigh, lays his other hand on Jin's belly. Wherever he touches Jin's skin starts to shimmer.

His eyes come to rest on Jin's face. Studying him; taking his measure, and Jin wonders what Kame sees, if he can look as deep as Jin feels him. If he can that's okay. Kame is sweaty and he's still flushed, and Jin had a part in that.

Is he waiting for Jin to protest? Or just waiting to get his second wind? Do they have to wait in silence?

Kame shows him a slow smile. "Let's do something about you now."

What?

Kame's hand slides down to Jin's cock and lifts it, squeezes softly. And a familiar low curl stirs in Jin's belly, muddies the calm.

Kame is watching. Always watching, and giving one slow tug. "Come on," he says, eyes fixed on Jin's, and the curl turns to a glow.

Yes, okay. He can come on, if that's what happens. He can come.

Kame strokes him, and Jin keeps breathing. He wants to close his eyes but Kame is holding his gaze.

It's strange, someone else's hand after so long. Someone new, and he feels that, but more than anything he feels Kame urging him on. Closer.

Then Kame shifts and his head goes down. Down. A strong, warm wet lick across his cock, and Jin shakes, in all directions at once. He never thought... but who knows how it all works for Kame, what he might want.

Kame's head moves, his hair in Jin's groin, his mouth making Jin hold still, with a hard squeeze and soft warmth.

He bites his tongue when the sucking starts.

Suddenly Kame raises his head, a little frown on his face. "If I wanted you quiet, I'd gag you with your underpants," he says. "Give it up."

It tears a whimper from him and he digs his heels into the sheets. When Kame goes down on him again the breath hitches in his throat. "God, Kame..."

Better; Kame lets him know that's better, sucking him harder, and he gasps, "please," and there's fingers digging into his hips and even that, everything winds him higher. Kame's hair lifting and trailing on his skin, up, down and it's the last thing he sees before he closes his eyes and just feels, Kame being good at this, oh god of course he is, and Jin shakes and makes thick little noises, and he says, "I'll come," and Kame lets him.

He hears his own voice, drowned in relief that goes through everything, and Kame's holding his ass and Jin's mind just goes flat and black.

Then he's done, and breathing. That's enough. And that heat under his skin won't fade. Kame pulls off slowly. Sitting up between Jin's legs, still damp, his lips kind of... red.

He's quiet. Quiet but pleased.

Good.

It would be normal to say something, now. But Jin doesn't want to; feels for once he doesn't need to. If Kame had a problem, he wouldn't be feeling up Jin's legs or tickling his knee.

Then Kame shifts. "Stay," he says. "I'll be right back."

Hands gone, Kame gone. Jin flat on his back and all fucked out. He just stays. It's so easy.

Kame's in the bathroom, running water. Jin watches him walk back, how lean he looks, and dishevelled, and he doesn't even look away when Kame kneels back between his legs, washcloth in hand. Warm and wet at his ass, and Jin flinches, because that's embarrassing, and then it's just warm and wet. Kame wipes him down conscientiously and Jin keeps his legs apart and his eyes on whatever.

Then Kame folds the cloth away and moves aside, comes to rest with his back against the bookcase. Jin closes his eyes again because he's feeling just that drifty.

"That was excellent," Kame considers. And then, as if it's important that Jin should know, "You were excellent."

Good, Jin thinks, that's good. "You weren't bad, either," he says. Though Kame probably doesn't need that reassurance.

There's an odd silence. But Jin's too comfortable to do anything about it, and eventually Kame says, "Are you okay," sounding like it's not really a question because he'd much rather not ask.

"Peachy," Jin says. He turns on his side, slow with limbs giddy and drunk. Kame's hairy square knees are right in his vision, and Jin doesn't follow them up, though he half wants to. A lube bottle is capped on the other side of the futon. "You used a lot of that," he says.

"Well," Kame says, with a glance from high above. "Hurting you's not the idea."

"Hm." Jin settles down with his head in the crook of his elbow. Kame's skin is pale; hasn't been out of those suits in years, Jin guesses, and he sighs. "I'd like one of those beers," he says. "But I don't want to move."

He can feel Kame thinking. Thinking the right things, because after a moment he pushes off. "Don't get used to it," he says, but no more. Jin sighs again, just imagining the cool taste.

Kame walks without shame of being naked, gets the beers, pops them open. Jin watches his thighs as he comes back, remembers how powerful they felt against him. It makes him shiver a little and he imagines it some more.

Kame folds himself down against the bookshelf again, holding the beer out. Jin curls the bottle out of his hand, and one of them gets their fingers tangled. Jin's not sure if it's him.

Kame's short fingers. His perfect manicure, the whiff of stress and smoking breaks. Jin turns his hand over, the only part of Kame that is tan.

"You smoke too much," he says quietly. "I can smell it on you."

Kame jerks his hand away, hides it in his lap. "Is that so."

But Jin props himself up, pulls it back against tension and Kame thinking so noisily. "It's not good for you," he says. Puts his nose against Kame's palm. Breathes in, sex and cigarettes and come.

Kame's fingers are twitching, the tension never fading. After a moment he winds his wrist out of Jin's touch. "Never thought you'd even have a nose for it," he says, drinking his beer. "When did you quit?"

Jin looks up at him for the first time and finds his face a little red. "Three months after my son was born." He remembers it a bit ruefully. "I meant to as soon as he was there. But he was fussy, I hardly slept those first few months." He remembers some half-hysterical breaks on the balcony, sucking down a cigarette wondering if his baby would ever go to sleep.

"Good times," Kame remarks, and Jin just nods.

"Yeah."

They have a few more companionable gulps of beer. The sun's trying its best to push through the curtains, it's a lazy and warm afternoon, and Jin just got fucked. He's still wrapping his woozy head around that. He sets down his bottle and lets his eyes wander along Kame's naked body.

"So how long have you been going without?"

Kame's look sharpens on him. "What makes you think I've been going without?"

Touchy, is he. Jin raises an eyebrow. "You didn't use a condom."

"Oh," Kame says, and flushes. "Yeah."

"So?"

Kame hesitates. Weighs. "About five years, I would guess," he says flatly. "If it's any of your business."

Wow. That's a long time. For someone who's so... Who's not like Jin, divorced and broke, and who's... "That's pretty long," he says.

Kame shrugs, but Jin's no fool. He's known that defensive body language half his life.

"Do you want to go again?"

Piercing focus, instantly, a wash of a reminder of all the ways Kame touched him today. Then Kame pulls back. He might as well be putting on sunglasses.

"I think I can restrain myself until next week, thanks," he says tersely.

"Suit yourself," Jin says, pleased that his voice is smooth. "So why did that last guy dump you? And was he serious?"

"Not serious enough that I care all that much," Kame snaps. Yes, totally. Kame does really well on not getting any.

"So what happened?"

"You're fucking nosy today."

"I have a boring life." Jin takes a long swig, gives Kame time to make up his mind how intruded-upon he wants to feel.

"Buy yourself a TV."

"I have a TV, but it doesn't bring me beer."

Kame looks from him to his beer as if the beer is now being nosy too. But then he takes a breath, a smooth one that Jin wouldn't notice if Kame weren't naked. "Must be an old model," he judges. "It's sad when poor people can't keep up with the times."

"Yeah," Jin says. "Sucks." He shifts a little, his body finally cooling down. "Why'd you take an hour to get here today?" he asks then. "Where were you?"

Kame blinks at him like Jin is a reporter and the Q&A was technically finished two questions ago. "I came from home," he says slowly, like he's weighing every word. "I wanted to shower."

"Hm." So Kame thought about it. Didn't do what Jin did. Kame in the shower, thinking about fucking Jin. Jin has a drink, his dry mouth wants it. Moves on quickly. "So no secret meeting with SMAP today?"

"What do you mean by that." Now, Jin is a sleazy hack for Tokyo Sports caught lurking in a dark car park, and Kame's voice could cut glass.

"Their headquarters is the right distance from here," Jin says easily. It feels a bit like talking down a skittish tiger. Shark, Jin's brain supplies unhelpfully. "There's not much else around here that would be relevant to you, so unless you were fibbing all the time about being in the area anyway and just came because I'm so pretty..."

The tiger shark on his futon is regarding him like he's just turned into a problem that needs solving. Jin feels kind of naked and like he should have gone for clothes. But Kame is naked too, and this is crazy.

"You know I won't tell anyone," he says. He thinks he could use more beer. Maybe Kame could use more beer too, to lighten the fuck up.

Kame's shoulders sag after a moment. Okay. Better. "I'll appreciate it if you keep that quiet, yes." Kame sets his bottle down at some distance, like he's never going to touch it again.

"What's it about?"

Kame shakes his head. "Sorry, confidential. You shouldn't even know there's anything to know."

Jin rolls his eyes at him. "What's so terrible about you negotiating with them?" he asks, and catches the flash in Kame's eyes. "I mean, if that's what you're doing. What would be oh so horrible about that?"

"It would be horrible because it's premature and I'm not ready. My enemies are watching for me to be not ready."

Oh boy. "Aren't you being a bit extreme?"

"Am I?" Kame says sharply.

Jin feels a little less comfortable, a little more like he's treading water above the tiger shark's shadow. "It sounds kind of... I mean, enemies?"

Kame stares at him with a thin frown and a flat, tight mouth. And then he says very lightly, "Do you know what the best-paid job in the company outside of music is right now?"

"Um," Jin says. "No?"

"The three guys I'm paying to stick around Johnny and make sure he's never alone with a Junior."

"Johnny?" Jin doesn't follow. "What's he got to do with... why?"

Kame takes a deep breath. Maybe he even sighs. "Johnny's old, Jin. He's really old, and he's not... he's pretty confused these days. We don't tell the media just how confused. Hell, we don't tell most of the agency just how confused."

Johnny... he would be old now, yes. Confused? It's such a weird concept. Johnny runs the world.

"He must have had a hard grip on himself all these years," Kame says with a cold look off into nothing. "But he's confused now, and he doesn't have a grip on anything, and she's watching him. She'd sell out her own uncle to swallow up the company, never mind the Juniors, that's what I'm dealing with. That's why nobody knows what I'm doing or not doing with SMAP and why I come out here to—"

Kame cuts off, but Jin's blinking at him as it finally filters through the static. "Johnny... is looking at Juniors?"

Kame's expression is clear, and Jin imagines Kame paying guys, guys to watch Johnny, and the Kame in his head is no shark, just a neurotic stick with spiky hair who told Jin of his dreams, and Jin thinks he's sinking, somewhere, through the bed.

"Don't look at me like that. I've aged out of his interest range."

Still. Kids, Johnny and kids, some Juniors are ten. "You're protecting him?"

Kame gives a short laugh. "I like to think I'm also protecting the Juniors. But sure I'm protecting him. He's a confused old man, Jin. He's also my ticket to doing whatever I think is best for the bands she'd just as soon toss to the dogs, and I'm also protecting KAT-TUN when they're not off getting themselves caught swinging, and Tackey and his lovechild and Tsubasa and the guys from Sexy Zone. You think I should let them all go to hell?"

But... he's not even taking all that in. He's just looking at Kame, thinks that Johnny likes Kame, and feels queasy.

"I've got three guys watching out," Kame says, all heat fading. "And he signs whatever I put in front of him."

He wants to say that none of that makes it better. But okay. Old, confused. Kame's game. Kame's looking out for people. "I bet I'm not supposed to know any of that, either," he says, and tries to make it light. It doesn't work that well.

Kame raises an eyebrow. "Sometimes I think you and 'supposed to' don't coexist in the same universe."

Jin laughs around the lump in his stomach. "Yeah, I've heard that before."

There's a long, deep breath, Kame closing his eyes and leaning his head back.

What now? What do you fit in after... that, about Johnny? Oh. "Who was caught swinging?"

Kame's turn to laugh, and Jin's almost surprised it sounds real. "Taguchi. And his girlfriend. Happy as clams, those two. And they meant nothing by it, they were just having some fun. Cleaning that one up took two exclusives for the reporter, and a hooker for his editor."

Just another day at the office. Jin blinks at the easy tone of it all, wondering what else Kame's done, and where he wants to go. But he doesn't even know what he wants to know most, so he says, "So they're still together?"

Kame nods, not without a touch of surprise. "Yes. Fancy that."

Lucky, Jin thinks, or maybe just more determination and suddenly he has to swallow. So little has lasted for Jin from that time. And maybe he shouldn't admit it; stick to prodding Kame and not feel more exposed than from any fucking. But then it sort of slips out. "Are you in touch with Pi?"

"Sometimes," Kame says. "Rarely. He's stable over there and she can't touch him. Why?"

"I don't have his email address. Or anything else." Kame gives him a curious look. "That's not confidential, is it?" Jin adds.

"I'll send you the address and his cell number," Kame says. "You think he'll talk to you?"

"I can try, right?" How much does Kame know about it?

"Sure," Kame says, and then, "He never said what happened. Did you fight?"

That's probably his answer right there. Jin wouldn't mind feeling woozy now, everything's way too sharp. "No," he says. "I thought it could hurt him to be... associated with me." The lump is in his throat now, great. "You know, with America and all."

He doesn't like the thing that shows in Kame's face, it looks too much like pity. "That was maybe the one good instinct you had back then."

Well, great. At least it wasn't for nothing. "He's doing okay, though, right?"

Kame doesn't ask him why he doesn't just google it. "Yes, he's fine. Like I said, stable. He's found his niche."

"The Asian market?" Jin never wanted it, and now he wonders if that was arrogance too.

That seems to wake Kame from his calm. There's a curious smile around his mouth. "You don't know?"

"Oh god," Jin says, because he knows that look on Kame's face, the 'let's have fun watching Jin freak out' look. "Just tell me."

"Our friend Yamapi is the darling of the gay community in the US."

Oh yes, Kame is relishing this. Jin closes his mouth quickly just to deny him the satisfaction.

"Pi is gay?" Okay, that sounded squeakier than intended.

"Not that I know of," Kame says. "It doesn't seem to bother anybody. He picked up a gay following on his first tour and a few years in he decided to run with it. He plays Texas and roundabouts a lot, they like him in a cowboy hat."

Jin always wanted it on his own terms. Now Pi went and became a gay icon, and he's still there, in America, doing shows. In cowboy hats.

"I'm glad he's doing well," Jin mumbles. Then his bottle is empty, and his head spinning from... all this.

"I should have some time Tuesday afternoon," Kame says.

"More meetings not happening in places I don't know of," Jin nods understandingly.

"Fuck you," Kame says.

"That's the idea, isn't it." Jin gets up when Kame does, meets his eyes.

Kame looks a little caught off guard but quickly recovers. "Correct. And the rest doesn't concern you." He gathers his clothes together. If he's got a meeting now, he'll still have the sweat on him, he'll smell the sex when he takes his clothes off at night.

Jin won't stare, and won't get distracted. He throws on his clothes, too.

When he's done, Kame has his wallet in his hand, is pulling out notes. Jin's glad one of them remembered about that; he needs that cash.

"Is it enough?" Kame says when Jin takes the money.

It's the usual amount. "Yeah." Kame has no idea about normal people's rent.

"I'll call then," Kame says, and Jin agrees that he will, and then he steps out into a bright Friday afternoon.


 

Comments

[abi-manyu.livejournal.com]

finally!!!!!!!!!!!

ASDFGHKJHFFGHJKL!!!! it's friday! IT'S FRIDAY!!!!
i think i'll read it twice, thrice and again after this :)

jin... kame doesn't care abt your apt size, bb :p
in 'that' business, large or small is...
ouch, pervy me~~~

hope tomorrow will be still friday and friday again. XD thank you.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

We have perverted you. >_>

Reading several times is always good, it means you liked it. Thank you! :D

[ttalktomesoftly.livejournal.com]

Holy shit, holy shit *jumping up and down* It's fucking Friday *Off to read*

[krystal-32206.livejournal.com]

Friday's here!!!!

[krystal-32206.livejournal.com]

Oh my f***ng god!!! It finally happened!!! Coherent thoughts just flew out the window! Gah!!
But this..

"So how long have you been going without?"
"About five years, I would guess,"

I was so right! Kame just needs to get laid. See, he's much more mellow and open about his thoughts after the sex. XD

Thank you for this chapter! It was worth the torturous-ly long wait. :)

[dungbrains.livejournal.com]

FRIDAY FRIDAY GONNA GET DOWN ON FRIDAY ....... :") and YES they did !

(i'm giggling sooo stupidly people in the house are gonna think i'm a fucking retard -and you're to blame!!!)



Jin is so enjoying that. He likes sex with Kame. He can't even deny it anymore. His thoughts are full of yes and good and needs and wants.
Did I even sense jealousy .... ?

So, the old fart has gone crazy and rapes Juniors ? and Kame plays superbusinessman and saves Johnny's world from bitch Julie.
I can totally see this in theaters next summer 8D with Jin as the damsels in distress needs of money and special cocking.


I'm so loving the fact that Jin keeps asking and bugging Kame even though Kame is very obviously annoyed by it. I wonder if Kame wouldn't just like to lie down and share everything with Jin after a goof fuck. Of course he would. The poor baby hasn't been pampered for five years.

But they're letting out more than they want. Both of them. Something is growing... <=====3


THE YAMAPI PART KILLED ME SO BAD AHAH


I've to read it again and again before I leave for work yesssssss

[dungbrains.livejournal.com]

Oh and for a moment I thought Jin was going to look for gay porn on the Internet lol some precious last minute advice for first gay sex when you're almost 40.

[vrmachina.livejournal.com]

...needless to say I have been waiting all week and it felt like a loooong week... That was intense!
Jin was far less freaked out than I thought he'd be!!!!He is definitely a grown up now... I think he's actually starting to like the whole situation! Probably because nobody has taken interest in him in years? :(
I love how they gradually become comfortable with each other, enough to talk about company stuff!!! At the beginning I thought Jin would be more terrified of Kame and all silent and awkward...

Can't wait for Tuesday!!!!! ^_^

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes, Jin is no longer 20 or even 28, he's pretty mature about this. We think he's shed some of the 'OMG must be macho hip hop dude' that currently seems to be his preoccupation. Now he just does what feels right, and he defines himself without recourse to trends and stereotypes.

He's also liking it, yes. :) Partly it's what you mention - it's just great to have somebody take interest again. But also, well. It's Kame; in a weird way, Kame is too familiar to freak him out.

At the beginning I thought Jin would be more terrified of Kame and all silent and awkward...

Nope, this Jin will never be terrified of this Kame. Maybe a little spooked occasionally, when he sees how much Kame has changed, but still. He knows Kame, he's very certain of that.

Thank you for this comment, it's always great to hear what you are thinking!! ♥

[loveyourself6.livejournal.com]

Well shit. It happened. Jin let it happen. Kame too. It's good to know that Jin is aware he should feel differently about all this. Why he doesn't, however, I'm not sure yet. It's obvious he can still read Kame almost perfectly (I wonder if it's the other way around, too), so maybe Jin realizes that whatever is up at JE is really stressing Kame out and... that's why... he lets Kame fuck him? No, okay, I don't know. But Jin's letting him anyway. Huh. I am confused.

I'm actually glad Kame blew him. Idk, it somehow showed to me that Kame isn't just looking for a fuck? I mean, there's a reason it's Jin he's doing it with, obviously, that reason probably being he's been gay for Jin since whenever. And ugh, "If I wanted you quiet, I'd gag you with your underpants," that's just lovely. KAME WANTS TO HEAR YOU MOANNNN. Oh, and I also liked that Kame got flushed several times! Because of the sex, or the 'you didn't use a condom' bit. Yep, I like me some embarrassed Kame.

AND JIN WHY ARE YOU NUZZLING KAME'S WRIST. Seriously, what's up with your feelings?

Oh, question, what's the whole 'swinging' thing about? Cause I have like, no idea what that word means, unless it's actually the type of dance I know it to be. But I'm figuring that's not what it means. So.

I'm glad I was sort of right about the Julie bit! I didn't think Johnny's pervy old hands would've gotten so out of hand he'd need guards, and three of them. I wonder what kinds of contracts Kame makes him sign...

Ah yes, and I know these comments are completely out of order, but I like that Kame's clothes are different from usual. More casual. AND SUNGLASSES. YAY!

The Yamapi thing... What. The. Hell. I did not see that coming. I don't care if he's gay (hello, I'm reading a gay fanfiction about two of his friends, it'd be weird if I minded he was gay - in the fic, then), but it just strikes me as funny that he's this icon in America. It's just... God, I can believe people like him in cowboy hats there, it just fits and that's ridiculous. But also entirely awesome, so yeah, that's a great twist to Yamapi's story there. I felt a bit bad for Jin when he thought he was being arrogant when he didn't want to appeal to just the Asian community of the US. He shouldn't feel bad about wanting to branch out and wanting to let everyone enjoy his music. Oh! And I got it right that Jin broke contact instead of the other way around! Who would've thought I'd be right about that! So glad Kame's going to give him Yamapi's number and stuff. I hope it works out in the end.

Okay, that's it. There's still other stuff I like in here, like Kame's strong thighs and Jin remembering and kind of liking it, and loads more things, but the aforementioned ones are the ones that I liked most or caught my attention most.

GURLZ, U DID WELL. AKIRA-CHAN SAYS SO, SO U BETTA BELIEVE HER. ME.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Sorry our guys confuse you so. :)

It's obvious he can still read Kame almost perfectly (I wonder if it's the other way around, too), so maybe Jin realizes that whatever is up at JE is really stressing Kame out and... that's why... he lets Kame fuck him? No, okay, I don't know.

It's not because he sees himself as stress relief here, no. He doesn't even have a clear idea (or didn't, until now) just how much stress Kame is under. But the first thing you said, about being able to read Kame perfectly, that has something to do with it. Not because he reads anything in particular, just because there's a familiarity which makes pretty much anything possible.

I'm actually glad Kame blew him. Idk, it somehow showed to me that Kame isn't just looking for a fuck? I mean, there's a reason it's Jin he's doing it with, obviously, that reason probably being he's been gay for Jin since whenever.

Well, Kame attitude and motivations have also been developing through this story. Initially, he didn't even come for a song, never mind a blow job, and now... yeah, there's more now. And it's probably not a spoiler if we say that Kame had a big crush on Jin for a while, back in their late Junior, early debuted days. Then he got over it because he had to. (Also, bear in mind that Kame hasn't really interacted with another guy's dick in five years. There is also that. *g*)

Swinging - it's like couples swapping partners; there are entire clubs for this. So the woman from couple A sleeps with the man from couple B, and the man from couple A with the woman from couple B. Or they all have fun together. *g* Depends on what they all like. It's just one way to spice up one's sex life and get some variety. But everybody is all OMG and SCANDAL! when somebody prominent does it and it comes out.

I didn't think Johnny's pervy old hands would've gotten so out of hand he'd need guards...

He's pretty senile and confused in this story, hence no self control. come here, little boy, why don't you sit on grandpa Johnny's lap...

We riffed the Pi thing off his America tour, and how well he got on with people and stuff. *g* Also, well, Warner are interested in him, and we thought that after Jin was out of the agency, maybe Johnny pursued his little American dream with Pi.

He shouldn't feel bad about wanting to branch out and wanting to let everyone enjoy his music

We know. :(

And I got it right that Jin broke contact instead of the other way around!

YES! You made us smile with that comment, so right on the money. :)

Thank you, dear Akira-chan, for this beautiful comment which made us happy! *__*

[mec]

I generally read when I get the AO3 alerts, but t-list indicated updates and I'm not at work today, so... ^_^

I'm rather fascinated by all the agency schemes and machinations going on! J&A's mysterious enough in reality, with all the feuds and rumours, that having it explored in fiction is extremely interesting to me. I sort of feel like I should be drawing diagrams to work out who all the players are, but I'm sure there's more to come. The high point has to be Pi as a gay icon in America, though, complete with cowboy hats. This is so how Route 66 should have gone, with all those friends he made.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

We were thinking of Route 66 when we dreamed up that career of Pi's! *g*

The JE machinations... we're probably calling a lot of it wrong and also simplifying too much, but yeah, we were pretty interested in it ourselves. And then when we were almost finished we even found that there's an actual power struggle going on, and we went all SQUEEEEEEE *g*

Uh, if you normally read on AO3 and only jumped in this one because of t-list, you may have missed the full week 5 1/2. We have this weird sadistic clever posting schedule where on this comm we post on the days stuff happens, and everywhere else we post the full weeks, weekly. There was stuff every day this week! (Just to avoid confusion.)

Good to hear from you, no matter where! ♥

[ttalktomesoftly.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I'm too sleep deprived or if I read too fast or maybe both but there are some things I might have misinterpreted. Anyway, time will tell.

For a moment there I thought Friday wasn't gonna happen. I mean, not the day but the fucking. I thought Kame would say he had been joking or something. And then business got serious and we all got what we had been waiting for the whole week. Asdbad ♥

I could quote you the whole fic back right now but I think you do know the things you've written so I'll just flail about the fact that Jin nuzzled Kame's wrist and that kame blowed Jin. And that Yamapi is a gay icon. Wtf guys?! xD

And Kame kept showering Jin with compliments and then he told Jin he was perfect and then my heart exploded. And Jin couldn't stop asking things and Kame couldn't stop answering them all. God they are adorable.

I'll have you know that with this you've now set a high standard for the weekly sex so I won't accept anything less for the following weeks. That is unless you put some more compliments and nuzzling and Kame being honest for a change. I just rememebered that Kame laughed a real laugh for the first time in this fic ♥ you can keep on adding more of those too.

You guys just made my day. TGIF!

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Hm, what do you think you might have misinterpreted?

This Kame doesn't really joke. *g* He has a hard and serious life, Jin will have to get him used to some hilarity again somehow.

And Kame kept showering Jin with compliments and then he told Jin he was perfect and then my heart exploded. And Jin couldn't stop asking things and Kame couldn't stop answering them all. God they are adorable.


:DDDDDD We're really happy that that worked. Yes, Jin building up steam, and Kame cannot resist!!!

Sex, check. (Kame Jin Kame They will see to that.)
Honesty, check. (Jin will see to to that.)
Kame laughing, check. (As in, we need to check. There's quite a bit of stress awaiting Kame.)

Thank you for this cool comment! ♥

[starg8fan-liz.livejournal.com]

awesome chapter, and not just because of the fabulously written smut, really love how everything went, how it all flowed, great scene XD Also love that Kame is talking to Jin, albeit reluctantly LOL And GO PI!!!! XDDD That is beyond hilarious yet adorable LOL and Taguchi's scandal ROFL XDDD but it's disturbing what's going on with Johnny 0_0 poor Kame, having to do so much about everything, it sucks that no one else is there to take care of things besides him :(((
can't wait for the next part XD ♥♥♥♥♥♥

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Hey, we're happy you loved the flow! We were trying to get it flow-y and plausible. And oh, yes, Kame is talking to Jin, Jin makes sure of that. Kame will just have to get used to it! *g*

Johnny is just very old and losing control, and therefore increasingly creepy. Kame is dealing with it. But you're right, he doesn't get much of a break, because there's nobody he can trust. Or, well, he can trust a few people, but they aren't as competent as he would like.

Ha ha, next part... so greedy! *g*

[circuside.livejournal.com]

GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUYS.

*OFFERS VIRTUAL COOKIES AS AN APOLOGY FOR THREATENING YOU WITH A STICK*

I LOVE THIS FIC SO MUCH DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD8

NOW I SHALL EXPRESS MY FEELINGS FOR THIS CHAPPIE--

SKJHFKJSFHISEHTGKSJGHJSKDGHKJSDGJSDFGSJUGFHSGFKSHTUSGHKJSDHHHJDSFHUSGUYRGISHGSJDGFUISDTBGIUSGUSIDGHUSGHGDSUGHUDGHSGDHFDJK.

There. XDD ♥♥♥

Jin rises. His phone says it's 15:08.

Kame totally was there earlier but didn't want to seem eager so he waited behind Jin's door-- XDD

Kame puts the glasses on a shelf, skims the floor as if he can see more than Jin, and then looks straight at him. "You didn't take the bed out."

RIGHT TO THE POINT KAMENASHI.

Does this mean Kame's won?

No.

Kame is staring at him with his lips parted and with utterly undivided attention. When Jin pulls down the zipper, Kame swallows.

I TOLD YOU NO. KAME'S REACTING. SO INTO JIN. 8DDDDDD ♥♥♥

and Jin bites his lip, doesn't know why he likes that so much.

He likes it! JIN LIKES SEX WITH KAME. 8DD ♥♥

His eyes come to rest on Jin's face. Studying him; taking his measure, and Jin wonders what Kame sees, if he can look as deep as Jin feels him. If he can that's okay. Kame is sweaty and he's still flushed, and Jin had a part in that.

I love this line so much *_____________* They're going somewhere! It's not JUST fucking! They're FEELING THINGS. :DD ♥

Jin watches his thighs as he comes back, remembers how powerful they felt against him. It makes him shiver a little and he imagines it some more.

Jin likes sex with Kame very much.

Kame raises an eyebrow. "Sometimes I think you and 'supposed to' don't coexist in the same universe."

♥♥♥

"I thought it could hurt him to be... associated with me."

Poor Jin ;;__________; I want him to become friends with Pi again SO MUCH D:

"Our friend Yamapi is the darling of the gay community in the US."

XDDDDDDD Oh, Yamapi ♥♥♥

DID I ALREADY TELL YOU I LOVE THIS FIC 8DDDDDD

AND JIN CALLED HIM KAME! HE DID! HE CALLED HIM KAME EHEHE. ♥

I love nosy Jin XD I love how they're poking each other...

[circuside.livejournal.com]

OH AND. I FORGOT TO SAY. I absolutely love it that Kame gave Jin a blowjob *________* ♥♥♥ You're not that cold, are you, Kame-chan? :DD You didn't just fuck Jin and walk away. THIS FIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIC ♥♥

[cagnurit.livejournal.com]

I don't know what's wrong with me, but the part I'm interested the most is where Jin holding Kame's hand (and sniffing? XD) and then he looks at Kame's face.

Oh and their conversation!!! The most peaceful, I-care-about-you, enjoy-each-other's-company convo <3

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Nothing wrong with you at all! These are some of our favourite bits too! The intimate stuff. :D

[cristina~ (from livejournal.com)]

It took me almost 2 hours to read because I needed to read everything twice *____*

Oh God, I'm so glad there weren't beetles, bimmers or buses lol

It went way better than I expected :D
I thought Jin would run away at some point xD


5 years... Wow Kame, I pity you. Luckily he has Jin now lol


"Our friend Yamapi is the darling of the gay community in the US." This cracked me up. Now I want this to happen in reality xDDDD


Tuesday yay! Only 4 days of torture :D

I suck at commenting, sorry u___u

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Oh God, I'm so glad there weren't beetles, bimmers or buses lol

Really, we wouldn't give out spoilers for our own plot! >_>

Yes, five long years. He has a lot of catching up to do.

We're happy people like our gay icon Pi. :)

You don't suck! This is a cool comment, thank you very much!!!

[prologuesized.livejournal.com]

"Not in the neighborhood today?"
There's a pause. Something rustling. Maybe it's Kame's brain. Maybe not.
Caught~ ♥ Well, Kame's got something to look forward to A LOT so he's willing to make a little journey for it. Especially considering how long he's gone without... He really stresses too much and stays focused on other things. Quiet sex life isn't a bad thing, but with Kame it just seems more like bottling things up.

Some reviews for new movies his kids might ask him to see, because he likes to check out warnings for gory or otherwise upsetting stuff.
Daddy!Jin ♥ He's lovable. His kids bring out lovely sides of him. He's made to have children in a way, even if he can get rowdy and irresponsible.

what is he doing
Going along with Kame's sexual advances, that's what he's doing, and he seems to be incredibly fine with it although for some reason he's also really panicky. Could be because it's so new and absurd? And because Kame's suddenly really different, although he does start off a bit cold and demanding again complaining about the mattress not being set up or anything, but yeah, in the end he's quite mindful about it with all the lube and stuff. The sex bit felt awkward but not too awkward, the feeling wasn't negative, it was like desire and yay finally they have a good thing going on and even talking a bit afterwards about touchy stuff (although somewhat nasty...) ♥

Jin watches his thighs as he comes back, remembers how powerful they felt against him. It makes him shiver a little and he imagines it some more.
♥♥♥ Aaaand Jin clearly wants things to happen again. Oh Akame~

"Our friend Yamapi is the darling of the gay community in the US."
Oh yes, Kame is relishing this. Jin closes his mouth quickly just to deny him the satisfaction.
"Pi is gay?" Okay, that sounded squeakier than intended.
Woah, I guess things happen when you don't stay in contact with your friends - ESPECIALLY if they go to America. Oh Pi. I can totally see this. He's always had the potential ♥

Hmm, I have really mixed feelings about the Johnny vs. Julie thing... I don't like Julie's take on the company at all, but damn Johnny if Kame needs to hire people to make sure that he doesn't... God. I'm not sure if he should be in charge anymore if it's that bad. I understand that Kame's doing his best to make things good for everyone but still. It's a really tough battle and right and wrong are really awful to define. If only someone else could take over... *headdesk* It's cruel.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Haha, you caught Jin catching Kame. Yes, he's taking a trip out of the way today. :)

Not just too much work and bottling things up, he also feels it isn't very safe just now. Julie is just waiting for him to slip up somehow. Safer not to try to strike up sexual acquaintances.

We agree, Jin is just made for children. He clicks with them instantly, but he also finds unexpected depths of responsibility around them. He's a pal for them but will never let anything happen.

LOL he's panicky because he has never done this before and omg, it's WEIRD and WILL IT HURT??

they have a good thing going on and even talking a bit afterwards about touchy stuff (although somewhat nasty...)

Neither of them is really ready to just let this be a comfortable thing. They can't help pushing against each other. #tradition (Really, we sometimes want to put a disclaimer on the story that says, This is a story where the fluffy highlight is one character telling the other, 'Get on your own side of the bed, you asshole.')

Johnny... well, the point for Kame right now is that he kind of isn't in charge, Kame is. *g* At least of the share which Julie isn't running. (And which Julie wants to get hold of.)

Thank you for this great comment! ♥

[abyssinian13.livejournal.com]

-Kame folds himself down against the bookshelf again, holding the beer out. Jin curls the bottle out of his hand, and one of them gets their fingers tangled. Jin's not sure if it's him.- -i love the image of this..there should be a lot of this always..

and like what i said when you decided that jin and kame need to get it on: yes, finally, thanks you!!! love how jin seems so nervous after kame called..how they were when they were at it..kame wanting to hear jin's voice..and since i wanted kame to do more things to jin, thank you kame..and i love how kame was afterwards..taking care of him (even getting him beer)..

and i like that there is less sniping and more opening up in their conversation this time..and a lot of info too..glad that kame's opening up to jin about what's happening around the jimusho these days and his part in it..feels like kame's taking on the job of a lot of people by himself..lots of people to protect..so jin's really kame's stress reliever at this point..

they should probably have sex every time they meet, kame's less uptight after sex..

gay icon yamapi and swinging junno made me laugh..

thanks you very much for this!!!

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

:D Glad you liked that image. And post-coital Kame. And yes, he totally did more things to Jin! :DD

We agree that more sex will do Kame good. He'd probably hate to admit it, though. We think you're right about the stress reliever! Beer and snark and sex.

You're very welcome, and thank you for this very cool comment! *___*

[akiracheng.livejournal.com]

OK, I think my brain is finally ready to make a (mostly) coherent comment, so here it goes.

Jin as he's waiting for kame is quite cute - wanting to keep himself occupied but not wanting to get too involved into something that he wouldn't be able to finish. We don't know if he's thinking about what Kame promised to do to him, but it seems that he doesn't want to be caught mentally unprepared either. Then when Kame actually gets here, he seemed so lost but everything was OK as long as Kame was there and he was following Kame's instructions.

Then Kame kicks those elegant pants to the side like a balled-up paper bag and Jin bites his lip, doesn't know why he likes that so much. Because Kame's expensive suits are like a barrier separating them and Kame just chucked them to the side because Jin's more important that some million-yen pair of pants!

"Turn around for me?" I'm not sure why but this line made me want to say "Aww, how sweet."

Jin was so passive in the beginning, almost like he needed an excuse for himself that he wasn't actually enjoying it or taking part. Which makes it all the better when Kame stops him from making a snarky comment and ruining the atmosphere and then Jin's responding! And Kame wants to hear Jin and Jin finally sees that Kame wants him to enjoy it too and the whole thing was so much love! Then all the reminders as they settle down for the post-exercise chat - now that Jin's opened that particular can of worms he's going to be remembering and imagining all the different things Kame could do on their future visits!

"Do you want to go again?" I'm glad I wasn't drinking anything when I read that. I can't decide whether Jin is just that considerate about Kame's needs or whether it's just an excuse because he wants more. 5 years though...but Kame has inhuman control over his appetites. He mentioned a couple of weeks ago that he has a strong appetite for the 3 lusts in life- food, sleep and sex, and we all know how strict he can be about the first 2...

They've come such a long way - not only does Jin feel like he can ask questions, Kame's now willing to give him answers, even on stuff he wouldn't tell anyone else! So Jin is Kame's only confident!

Oh Taguchi, you're fast becoming my 2nd most favourite parson in KT, never, ever change! - somehow I can see that - not him getting high but the happy as clams part and him in his confused state not realising why Kame was so worked up.

JE intrigue is very interesting and Julie is evil (but we all know that) and Kame protecting Johnny and everyone else not on Julie's side and all Jin can think about is "Johnny... is looking at Juniors?" and Johnny likes Kame.

Tackey has a lovechild?!?! and Pi! Wow, this one blows the mind, the Pi in my head seems so shy, I have a difficult time imagining him playing to wild audiences.

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Then when Kame actually gets here, he seemed so lost but everything was OK as long as Kame was there and he was following Kame's instructions.

Indeedy. :D

Because Kame's expensive suits are like a barrier separating them and Kame just chucked them to the side because Jin's more important that some million-yen pair of pants!

HA! EXACTLY!

We really like what you have to say about the sex as such and we're not going to be quoting oodles back at you but YAY! :DDDD

I'm glad I wasn't drinking anything when I read that. I can't decide whether Jin is just that considerate about Kame's needs or whether it's just an excuse because he wants more.

Heeee. We're glad that left an impression. We confess when we were writing it, this just suddenly happened and we went like, 'Oh, Jin'.

He mentioned a couple of weeks ago that he has a strong appetite for the 3 lusts in life- food, sleep and sex

Where did he say that?? In some interview? *__*

Oh Taguchi, you're fast becoming my 2nd most favourite parson in KT, never, ever change!

LOL! They just have to take more and more people out of KAT-TUN and suddenly Junno is a favourite? >_> meanhaikuesque

Pi found his gay audience a bit bewildering at first, but then he got used to it. *g* (Come on, wouldn't he just look super appealing?)

Thank you for this awesome comment!!!

[candle-lies.livejournal.com]

If any of them still thinks its just sex, they're seriously deluded. So many feelings in this! Jin is so liking it (way more than he expected at least) and kame is taking care of him and opening up to him. And kame is carrying so much on his shoulder, no wonder he's so stressed. And see, Jin likes being his stress-reliever so much he even forgets about the money at the end of it all :P

Can't wait for their next meeting on Tuesday now! :) thanks for the updates!

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Yes, and yes, and yes, and yes. (Though eventually he'd have remembered about the money because a guy's gotta pay his rent. *g*)

Thank you for the comment! :D

[nimlothemeli.livejournal.com]

Guys you're attacked by massive comments for this update (which speaks for itself) so I wont feel too bad about leaving a shorter one :3 I've read the chapter four times now and wow... It's so intense and there's all these small details that I love, especially when Jin questions himself, like when did he ever decide that it was okay for Kame to have his way with him? He really hasn't and I can't wait for Jin to start figuring some things out.

Another thing I can't wait for is more of their interaction that hasn't much to do with sex, because I'm dying to know what Kame actually wants with Jin, what he feels. Because there must be something there, well obviously there is, and I'm crazily curious. That includes all the nice things he said to Jin, telling him that he is perfect and gorgeous, not because he is (well he is) but I think Kame knows that Jin needs to hear that. Be reminded of what a spectacular person he really is (I mean there's a reason to why he's got(had so many fans and it's not because he was a part of K-T but because he's Jin). And then there's Pi again and it makes me so happy that Jin has decided to take care of that part of his past (even if he succeeds or not it is really worth giving it a go).

Then, apart from the nice compliments Kame gives Jin, and the encouragements, it's Jin touching Kame and retrieving his hand. Even though he's not sure who entangled their fingers in the first place he wants Kame's hand there. And he wants Kame's thighs up against his and he liked it when Kame was as close and deep in him as he possibly could. I mean, really Jin. Soul-searching time. Oh I can't wait to know more and for Jin to realize more *_____*

And of course that's what Kame is up to in JE, now it starts to make sense as Jin starts pulling at the threads <3 Good Jin. Please keep doing the detective work for us because we're unfortunately trapped here and can't enter :3 I think I might need that support group soon though... It's too calm, something big is bound to happen (or not, that could work too really).

Was this comment supposed to be short? Oh my, but there's so much good stuff left to talk about O____O Uhm, okay, the short round-up version. I love the pacing, which is my favorite thing with DeepWater, and it really shines through here, because you let the moments take just the right ammount of time (I hate comparing this story to DeepWater because they're so awesome in their own ways and are separate works so sorry, but a small comparison had to be done here). This is by far the best written of the updates and that's like doing the impossible because the other parts are awesomely written *_____* This is of course personal opinions but yeah, the pacing, the way you let Jin's thoughts dictate the direction things goes, how limiting but also how free it is to keep it in Jin POV all the time. Yeah, it's lovely to read Jin <3

I love it! This time I'm tossing Swedish cookies and turtles at you :P

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

ATTACKED! Yes, we feel totally victimised!!

Four times, eh? Not bad, not bad. :D We're glad you liked their, erm, interaction this chapter. And yeah, Jin could totally do with some soul-searching, but whether he'll actually do it, or when, we won't tell you. *g* We are very YAY at your observations about their, well, interaction!

We were very happy about Jin taking steps with regard to Pi too. That's just wrong, those two not being friends.

Please keep doing the detective work for us because we're unfortunately trapped here and can't enter

Heeeee. This is really the benefit of an outsider-observer kind of story, and we're glad it seems to be working. Though we hope nobody will come for us with a pitchfork as it goes on.

We're glad the pacing worked! We actually think pacing is the area where we could still learn a lot, so it's great to hear that that seems to be working here. (And tortures everybody nicely by being limited to Jin's POV.)

WE WANT ALL THE COOKIES! We're not so sure about Swedish turtles, though, wouldn't they be, like, frozen? >_>

[jayeanne.livejournal.com]

i just love all that what-not tension..well it seems to be slowly melting away, but yeah. haha. xD
and pi being a gay icon.. xDD now I also have a mental image of him in cowboy hats singing and swinging his hips. oh god. not a pretty picture. xDDD

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

oh god. not a pretty picture.

Whaaaaaaaat? We thought he would actually look very yummy with his shirt off and a cowboy hat on. T________T

Hee, glad you like the tension, we got tension a-plenty! Thank you for the feedback! :DD

[kurakura-chan.livejournal.com]

the way u told the story felt very real (i think i've said it before but i cant help but to point it out again haha), like they could really happen in the future (and it somehow made my hands tingle when reading >_<). that's one thing that made me fancy this fic <3
and u made the awkwardness between jin and kame felt oddly comfortable to read. ok i dont i make any sense with the sentence. lol sorry.
thanks for updating :)

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

No, we think we get you with the comfortable awkwardness. *g* They are getting more relaxed with each other!

Thank you for commenting, much appreciated! :D

[laksmianindita.livejournal.com]

wow... kame really opens up to jin...
can't wait for your next update to know how they go from here :)

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Yeah, he kinda does, a bit, in his own way. *g*

Thank you for commenting, and stay tuned!

[(Anonymous)]

Sorry for being so late but somehow I ended up having no time to read on Fridday as much as I (like every1 else) wa waiting for this chapter...But yeah better late than never right....

So first off THANK YOU SOO MUCH !!! :)

Second, my jaw literally dropped to the floor when I realized they will actually do it...What wti the car crash and stuff? I was blown away by such a surprise... Oh and my thoughts are still all over the place so please bare with the incoherency (maybe) of this comment...

I don't know if it's just me...Prbably...But I still feel this was too fast for me and my understanding of the story...Even given that they had SOME KIND of past issues...As I read afterwards your comment to someone - apparently Kame had a crush on Jin and stuff...But STILL...In my mind...Being a 38 year old heterosexual (as he claims) father of 2 who's been wawy in the shade for like 10 years... Letting a man you've not seen for those 10 yeears fuck you like a few weeks after he randomly showed up at your door step...Offering you money for sex....Umm...I dunno....As much as I can relate to the whole trust thing as I have beest friends I've known 4ever and trust entirely but still...I guess there's maybe something wrong me but it's jsut hard to wrap my head around it for now...Maybe it's jsut cause I'm used to the EPIC siye/style of story where things unravel almost painfuly slow...So now with your attempt to make this less than 400k I guess for me it feels too fast... :D

Nevertheless, that stuff aside, I really LOVEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD how you wrote this out...It felt awkward much more than kinky....Whic, I suppose, is how it owuld really go if two men in their late 30s with the kind of backdrop history Akame have would be like...The things that I love the most in the entire world about your style of writing that attracted me back I don't even remember when....Is how you are able to write in a way that makes it seem real and like I'm there wathcing...I dunno how to explain in words but....Like the tiniest details and single words that make it pop for me.....I admire people who can write like that....Noticing and then including such small details of RL that I would havee never known were there....This is expecially noticeable in high-tension kinda scenes and sex scenes....When I read I often catch myself thinking things like "OMG yeah that's how I feel" or like twhen Jin pays attention to something or notices something I'm like "OMG that what I notice in these type o f situatins too"....Like I said I can't really pin down properly in words what it is that attracts me in your writing style but this chapter had more than enough of it so I re-read prolly like 3-4 times already before even commenting... :P THANK YOU!

[LJ said I exceeded the limit so the continuation of my comment is below...]ransvl

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

LOL! The car crash misdirection was a total success, it seems? *g*

Sorry that this happened too fast for you. To us... yeah, it is a big deal, but it is also a continuation from the blowjobs. It works for us with Jin's frame of mind, but we accept we can't sell everyone on it. We're glad you had fun with the rest of it anyway. :-)

And w00t for breaking the maximum comment length, that is impressive. *G* We're totally thrilled by what you're saying about our writing, that is really cool praise. Yay yay! Getting people to 'be there, watching' (apart from the voyeurism aspect >_>) is really awesome! ♥♥♥

[(Anonymous)]

[continuation of the previous comment]

Now maybe just a short list of fave plaes/phrases:

"Turn around for me?" - Just cause I find this kinky and hot and sweet and cute all at the smae time...And cause it's a type of thing that the type of men I generally like could say...So it's so doki-doki :P

"He holds still. Ass in the air, waiting." - I dunno why i seriously ROFL at this every time....Just picturing the expectant bum in the air makes me laugh...LOL I'm weird what can I say... :D

"Shh," Kame cuts him off. "Stop that." - AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW :)

"Peachy," Jin says. - LOL I dunno why but that word makes me laugh..........LOL Cute. :P

"Do you want to go again?" - And here my brain just shut down due to overheating as a result of trying to hard to comprehened the words and find the logic behind them....Every time....Cause sriously....If my jaw wasn't on the floor already from the beggining of this chapter it would definitely drop at this line....Cause all I can say is WTactualF.....Given how shocked I still am Jin let him do it in th first place....This is like the ifnla blow to my understanding of Jin in this fic so far... :D

So overall thank you for once again EXCEEDING my already sky-high expectations! This was wonderful billiant and if there was a Fic-writing Oscar I'd give you them all....THANK YOU!

~rokstary.

P.S.: Regarding you being nosy (like Jin LOL) in the previous chapter's comments...Yes, I do teach English and I live in a small city in Yamaguchi-ken....About an hour away from Fukuoka and Hiroshima....And a LONG ASS way away from Tokyo....Which is how I actually wanted it so I totally don't mind... :) Oh and looking back at my comment just now....I'm SO SORRY it got so huge....*bows* GOMEN NE

[haikuesque.livejournal.com]

Kinky and hot and sweet and cute is a nice mix, so that makes us *____*

Just picturing the expectant bum in the air makes me laugh

*g* Totally not weird, Jin finds it kind of ridiculous too. >_> But he decides to roll with it.

And here my brain just shut down due to overheating as a result of trying to hard to comprehened the words and find the logic behind them....Every time....Cause sriously....If my jaw wasn't on the floor already from the beggining of this chapter it would definitely drop at this line....Cause all I can say is WTactualF.....Given how shocked I still am Jin let him do it in th first place....This is like the ifnla blow to my understanding of Jin in this fic so far...

Hmmmm, it makes perfect sense to us with where Jin is coming from here, but yeah, probably helps if you buy into the sex happening in the first place. *g*

OMG fic writing Oscar. #^_^# meep!

Oh, thank you for satisfying our curiosity! We were in Hiroshima once [Jo bullied Solo into going for History purposes and Solo was obstructionist all the way /Jo] but not to Fukuoka. Small city must also be interesting, and so different from Tokyo! :-)

[bellemelody.livejournal.com]

I was reading this chapter at the public place with my mom siting at the same table with me and I have no idea how many times the color of my face changed, because it changed, few times. I'm sure in it!!!!!

This is not about sex, or maybe it is and I love all the descriptions and the moments, but the feelings, but this Jin and his thoughts!!!! It was absolutely captivating and I can't take my eyes away just following all his emotions. Maybe my biggest mistake was the fact that I forget how old is Jin in this story and what he went through, because this facts change a lot. He is beyond all the confusing moments and all the doubtful thoughts and all the worries and questions. Maybe he has nothing to lose at some points, not in the extreme way, but in realistically. I don't know is my explanation is making any sense. What I'm trying to say, that he knows Kame and Kame knows him and the level of knowing each other is pretty high if it wasn't very difficult for Jin to understand how long Kame has no sex in his life and to make some conclusions what was the reason behind it.

He's known that defensive body language half his life.

I like this feeling of bond, not the cheesy sweet bond, but something deep, and something that always will be there. And Kame also, he risks and opens up to Jin, sharing with his life problems and vulnerable in some way, because the info he is telling can be important for the enemies. I don't know why Kame came to Jin in the first place in the beginning of the story, was is out of the curiosity or some whims or maybe he has some history that will be revealed later, I don't know and you want tell me I'm sure, but this is not important now. Kame needs Jin. He needs someone because his life is the endless fight and is look not more cheerful, than Jin's.

Jin was so nervous from the beginning, but what is really interesting, that he doesn't think about stepping back and maybe he was surprised himself why he is following Kame’s desires and why he wants it too.

The descriptions and the emotions! IT WAS PERFECT!!!! JUST SOOOO CAPTIVATING, NOT BECAUSE I HAVE RED FACE HOPING THAT NO ONE IN THIS PLACE CAN READ MY THOUGHTS AND SEE WHAT I’M READING THERE!!!!!!!!!

THAT WAS SO HOT AND AMAZINGLY SWEET! JUST VERY SWEET AND CARING AND WONDERFUL, NOT IN PERVY WAY, BUT IN ALL THE POSSIBLE EMOTIONAL WAYS AND I REALLY LOVE IT A LOT!!!

And Jin’s behavior after! He was so thrilled and still under the effect of what just happened and asking questions. Maybe that was little bit calculating. Like after sex and naked Kame will talk easily XDXDXD who knows XDXD

Small, smooth office hands, <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Kame's no kid. THIS IS VERY VERY ФЫАПРОЛОРПАВЫВАПРОЛД

when? When did he do that. Interesting question.

This is Jin being true to himself >_> he do things and thinks after >_>

Then Kame kicks those elegant pants to the side like a balled-up paper bag and Jin bites his lip, doesn't know why he likes that so much.

Jin! Come to my club! We will be happy Kame’s fetishists!!!!! THAT MUST BE SOOO AMAZING!! KAME BEING SO MANLY WITH HIS PANTS XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD

[bellemelody.livejournal.com]

Piercing focus, instantly, a wash of a reminder of all the ways Kame touched him today. Then Kame pulls back. He might as well be putting on sunglasses.

Kame is a real turtle and he needs his shell, just hiding there all the time and saving himself <3 <3 <3

It seems that Jin doesn’t know himself what he really wants from his life, where will it lead and what he should do with himself, maybe at some point just leading Kame is easier and better for him. It seems like he is lost, lost in his own life, that has a purpose as a money and being with kids, but this is not EVERYTHING and he should find some place for himself, maybe with Kame he feels something. I DON’T EVEN KNOW I’M JUST THINKING AND THINKING ALL THE TIME, BECAUSE IT”S INTERESTING FOR ME

Behind the SCENE of JE and Johnny with Kame being protective and all the intrigues and things that is going on there, that was very interesting to read. The influence and the power and who will be the faster and smarter and just in right place and in right time will rule. I always have the picture that Kame is a person who must always be at the edge, just working too much to survive and keep his place. I love Kame, this love has no logic, but he is amazing. In this fic this is not the exception <3

Pi riding ponies in cowboy hat. I totally can imagine it XDXDXDXD he must wear pink glittering pants and sing something ero to be the best in gay community ever <3 <3 He just knows how find the most comfortable place and being a sweetheart <3 with his dimples <3

LOVE THIS PART AND ALL THE EMOTIONS AND GREAT CONVERSATIONG WHEN THEY ARE JUST BITING EACH OTHER< CARING ABOUT EACH OTHER AND DOING IT IN THEI UNIC SADISTIC WAYS!!!! I LOVE IT <3 THANK YOU FOR AMAZING PART!!!

[b_akakame.livejournal.com]

OMG THIS IS BRILLIANT! *___*
And I have brain again!
But one thing at a time. *g*

It’s good that Jin can finally avoid embarrassing meetings with the neighbours. And he seems so relaxed and relieved. This really sweet.

Also sweet how nervous Jin is and how he desperately tries to do something during that one hour he has to wait and how and what he’s thinking.

Song. He hasn't got one, didn't think of it. No song, no practice, not even just in case.
Yeah, because Jin was so busy not thinking about Friday at all, that he didn’t even think about a song. It’s what you do when the main theme of your week is ‘get distracted, no matter what!’ (Hey, I’d probably do the same. >___>)

One hour, one minute. Friday.
And I suspect that Kame was already done showering and arriving at that car park way earlier and then sat it his car and went all „OMG OMG OMG, CALM DOWN NOW“. And in order not to be suspiciously punctual, he came one minute later than announced. *g* Oh, Kame…

And then…
Kame and his commands. Okay, honestly he seems so nervous to me here. Only he would never ever let that show of course. But if my previous assumptions that have yet remained unanswered are correct, then this is just logical. Especially because Kame hasn’t had sex for so long and now there is Jin. The person Kame wanted for a long time but who he has given up on because Kame knew it would just hurt them both if anyone knew. And now he’s standing in that person’s apartment because he announced they’d have sex tonight.

At this point this actually makes me wonder (again) why exactly Kame announced it beforehand. So that Jin is prepared? Or rather because Kame suddenly wanted that so much and didn’t want to back down? Because this is Kame and when Kame wants something, he goes and gets it. But this mainly applies for the things he points out, things where people could say later “but you wanted to do this-and-that, what about it now?”. So maybe Kame wanted to have sex with Jin when he saw him before but he held back, because it would’ve been too early anyway and awkward and strange. But then Jin got off in front of him and then Kame couldn’t hold back anymore and more important: he can’t back down now. Nice, because even when situations run out of Kame’s control, he still makes himself boss of them and turns them to his advantage.
(Yes, when you don’t provide me with Kame POV, I have to do that myself. :P But it’s fun.)
So anyway, there he is, giving commands, being Mr. Perfectly-in-control-of-himself again and that makes him feel better than everything he feels under that mask he put on.

At home and at ease, perfect in his shirt and soft hair, and this isn't what Jin should notice. He should be angry, maybe. Nurse his pride and hate his unfair life.

Except Jin doesn’t and he should give that more thought. Should think harder about why he lets Kame do all of this. Why he’s not even protesting. Why he doesn’t really mind it. But okay, it’s normal that Jin won’t give this more thought. On the one hand, because I don’t think that he really wants to think about what they’re doing, that he wants to keep it away from himself, because that makes it less real during the time Kame’s not around him. And on the other hand, because I don’t think he’d find an answer yet anyway. And not when he’s thinking about this alone. Because he’s just starting to rebuild his life and not ready to think about what kind of role Kame might really play in his life at the moment. And how unfair his life actually isn’t. Not anymore.

[b_akakame.livejournal.com]

Kame is still watching him, no smile now. But Jin hasn't seen him this open and intent since he started taking detours to has-been and miss-you-not. Does this mean Kame's won?
Because there’s another Kame under that mask of coldness and that Kame is there in front of Jin, only Kame’s not ready to let the mask fall completely, but there is progress. And Jin. Making everything a game again. Only it’s not. And it’s also not that Kame has won. Well, okay that maybe depends on the point of view. Because I think if you’d ask Kame (and he would answer honestly and all), he’d say he lost, because he got weak. Because all of this hasn’t been planned and he lets himself or at least a part of himself be guided by his emotions rather than his head. And he has been doing things he hadn’t planned to do, yet they happened or he let them happen. And that actually is not the Kame-way life goes. But Kame lets it happen. And God, I really don’t know if sometimes I’m reading too much into all of this and am too focused on my own theories and assumptions that I don’t see what’s really written there anymore. Xx Maybe someone should stop me? D:

Somehow there’s this mix of familiarity and awkwardness. Like everything between them feels so normal, but also new. And it’s great to read how Jin observes what parts of Kame’s body have changed. How he compares. With Kame watching him all of the time, maybe even doing the same.

… and if there was ever a moment Jin should have been afraid, it's this.
But he isn’t and never had to be and god, Jin… don’t you realise how Kame is putting you under his spell? ;__;

"Relax," Kame says, and this is freaky.
But it works. Works better when Kame tells him.
Because maybe that’s the security Jin needs. With what they’re about to do. And with him not being able to tell what the hell Kame wants from him. And how Kame feels about him. and what kind of person Kame really has become. Because I don’t think Jin finds it so nice when ice-cold Kamenashi who is much crueler and determined than Johnny is fucking him. I’d say he prefers caring Kazuya-kun who takes what he wants but wouldn’t want to hurt anybody. And well, he gets parts of that at least.

And okay, well one of the reasons I was waiting for this kind of porn was, because I was hoping for some more infos about Kame. And how he might feel, how he will act with Jin. Because I figured this would be different from the blow-jobs. Someone must’ve heard my prayers. *g*
Kame is just so sweet here. Preparing Jin. Making sure he’s all right. And it seems like he even holds back. And they way he waits until Jin felts comfortable. Until Jin even asks for more. Also the way he touches Jin has changed from before. And he’s opening up. The compliments, the way he is reassuring Jin. The way he is preparing him and won’t do any unannounced moves. And really, this is awesome.
I wonder if there’s any special reason behind the fact that Kame wanted Jin lying on his stomach. Whether this was just something that had to do with access or because Kame prefers it that way? Or is it because there was something he was afraid of? Something on Jin’s face that might have resembled disgust and hatred, because this is not what Jin’s usually doing or what he likes. Or Kame was afraid of what his face would show Jin. Afraid that he wouldn’t be able to hide what he’s really thinking and what is going through his mind.

His eyes come to rest on Jin's face. Studying him; taking his measure, and Jin wonders what Kame sees, if he can look as deep as Jin feels him. If he can that's okay.
OMG. T__T #randomoutburst #ofhappiness

Kame shows him a slow smile. "Let's do something about you now."
Yes, because for Kame this is not about getting everything for himself. This is not just about getting his satisfaction. For Kame this is a mutual thing and I doubt he’d enjoy it if he was the only one having fun. In addition to that who could resist Jin anyway?

[lady-aenea.livejournal.com]

I'll only say that I read this on an airport, surrounded by PEOPLE looking at me squirm and flush.
And I STILL won't learn not to read your fics on public places.
laallalalaa

I love you girls!!!!

[lady-aenea.livejournal.com]

I'll also say that i LOVED that jin told kame he's smoking too much, and I loved that he made him fetch him a beer.

I also love that kame is slipping and telling jin things.

:D