9 1/2 Weeks - 29 - (Week 8 1/2: Tuesday)
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Week 8 1/2: Tuesday
On Tuesday, Jin wakes up at ten and goes to buy himself some cigarettes. He has to buy a lighter too, it's been that long, and he sits himself down on a damp bench in the park because he doesn't know how he feels about smoking at home, even now.
The plastic wraps have changed and Jin feels young fiddling the pack open, sticking one between his lips. But like the guitar, there's a memory in his fingers, and how to draw the air.
The taste is like something dead rolling in his mouth. He coughs. It's disgusting, and then the high spreads up along the back of neck and into his head, like a cold clean shower.
God, yes. That.
It still tastes revolting, and his lungs are in protest. But he's awake, and it feels wonderful. His prize at the end of a decade. He was maybe fifteen when he last felt a smoke kick like this.
He smokes the first one down slowly, while staring off into the park, at wet branches and trees still dark from yesterday's rain. When he lights the second, the taste's no longer so bad.
This is stupid. It took him ages to quit, it was hard, and here he is, dumb like a high schooler, endangering himself the way a dad shouldn't. But for the first time since yesterday morning he's stopped shaking, one way or the other.
He pushes out his cigarette when it's done, hides it behind the same clump of grass as the first.
It's left a faint trace on his fingers. On Kame's hands the smell is older, goes deeper.
How many times will he wake up now to thoughts of Kame's hands at his hips? Often enough to turn him back into a chain smoker?
That would be intriguing, because he can't afford that, he'd need more Kame cash and that would just be... ironic. He laughs, and fuck here's the coughing fit.
He leans back on the bench, time on his hands and the sky getting lighter. Kame won't call today. Kame will be busy.
He got no update on SMAP yesterday. Or this morning. Sleep and drift and dream. Of things Kame can do, to Julie and Jun and Koki and middle-aged independent pop idols. To Jin.
Is that going to be his new thing? Like cigarettes, the kick and the high, the restlessness when he doesn't get it.
He stubs the third one out early. Whatever he is, he's not going to be stupid, and maybe if he stops now, he won't miss it again.
Authors' note: For operational reasons, there'll be a week's delay in the posting schedule. The next part happens on the Friday after this Tuesday, but will be posted on Friday next week (15 February). Sorry about that!
Week 8 1/2: Tuesday
On Tuesday, Jin wakes up at ten and goes to buy himself some cigarettes. He has to buy a lighter too, it's been that long, and he sits himself down on a damp bench in the park because he doesn't know how he feels about smoking at home, even now.
The plastic wraps have changed and Jin feels young fiddling the pack open, sticking one between his lips. But like the guitar, there's a memory in his fingers, and how to draw the air.
The taste is like something dead rolling in his mouth. He coughs. It's disgusting, and then the high spreads up along the back of neck and into his head, like a cold clean shower.
God, yes. That.
It still tastes revolting, and his lungs are in protest. But he's awake, and it feels wonderful. His prize at the end of a decade. He was maybe fifteen when he last felt a smoke kick like this.
He smokes the first one down slowly, while staring off into the park, at wet branches and trees still dark from yesterday's rain. When he lights the second, the taste's no longer so bad.
This is stupid. It took him ages to quit, it was hard, and here he is, dumb like a high schooler, endangering himself the way a dad shouldn't. But for the first time since yesterday morning he's stopped shaking, one way or the other.
He pushes out his cigarette when it's done, hides it behind the same clump of grass as the first.
It's left a faint trace on his fingers. On Kame's hands the smell is older, goes deeper.
How many times will he wake up now to thoughts of Kame's hands at his hips? Often enough to turn him back into a chain smoker?
That would be intriguing, because he can't afford that, he'd need more Kame cash and that would just be... ironic. He laughs, and fuck here's the coughing fit.
He leans back on the bench, time on his hands and the sky getting lighter. Kame won't call today. Kame will be busy.
He got no update on SMAP yesterday. Or this morning. Sleep and drift and dream. Of things Kame can do, to Julie and Jun and Koki and middle-aged independent pop idols. To Jin.
Is that going to be his new thing? Like cigarettes, the kick and the high, the restlessness when he doesn't get it.
He stubs the third one out early. Whatever he is, he's not going to be stupid, and maybe if he stops now, he won't miss it again.
Authors' note: For operational reasons, there'll be a week's delay in the posting schedule. The next part happens on the Friday after this Tuesday, but will be posted on Friday next week (15 February). Sorry about that!
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Date: 2013-02-05 09:42 am (UTC)-Is that going to be his new thing? Like cigarettes, the kick and the high, the restlessness when he doesn't get it.
He stubs the third one out early. Whatever he is, he's not going to be stupid, and maybe if he stops now, he won't miss it again.- --but it looked like a one-time deal, which is good for him..i like jin's determination not to go back to his previous habits..
thanks for the update!!!
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:03 pm (UTC)Than you for commenting. :)
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Date: 2013-02-05 10:05 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-05 08:03 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-10 10:59 am (UTC)But for the first time since yesterday morning he's stopped shaking, one way or the other.
Yeah, the head running and droning and not shutting up.
He stubs the third one out early. Whatever he is, he's not going to be stupid, and maybe if he stops now, he won't miss it again.
hm… mixture of talking about Kame and the cigarettes and damn the waiting. :-/
At least I finished with the comments :D Anni style ;D
Now just waiting for the next stage on Friday. *____*
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Date: 2013-02-05 11:35 am (UTC)I'm leaving on 15th ;_______________; I'll have to bring my netbook for sure now. It's become a life or death situation (?)
I'm not happy Jin started smoking again but he has his reasons (like uhm, Kame's chubby hands) so I'll forgive him.
So, see you next week! (I hope) :D
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:04 pm (UTC)potatoman... On twitter we were presented with dramatic hamsterstares and birds making crying-baby sounds. >_>We are very sorry! ORZ
Kame's chubby hands are reasons for many things... but Jin has already stopped again, too! :)
Hope to see you next week too. No matter what, have a great holiday!!
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Date: 2013-02-07 07:12 am (UTC)right?so that's why I'm not giving you more grief over it :PThank you! I hope you update before I get on the car xD
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Date: 2013-02-10 11:26 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-10 07:06 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-15 09:00 am (UTC)what kind of crazy person does that
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Date: 2013-02-05 01:41 pm (UTC)And Kame..the reason why he showed up unexpectedly at Jin's apartment was because he needs Jin for his fight with Julie. Am I right? He's subtly trying to make Jin presentable again. Letting Jin get back to his old self step by step. Like a spider pulling at his silk threads little by little so he could draw Jin back into the entertainment world or at least the Jimusho. Lol! I sound like a conspiracy theorist. XD
Thanks for the heads up. Will wait patiently for next week then. (^_^)v
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:04 pm (UTC)But, hm, we didn't think Kame showed up because he needed Jin against Julie. We don't think he expected Jin to be any use at all with JE related stuff. (That Jin was outside all this crap he has to deal with all the time was actually a bonus. He gets a break, even if it's spent with beer and insults.)
But hey - the authors are dead (\o/) and if your interpretation works, that's cool! :)
Thank you for your patience... and for commenting! :)
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Date: 2013-02-05 02:24 pm (UTC)Hey, the next update will be on my friend's birthday! Isn't that a coincidence! And oh so interesting.
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:04 pm (UTC)WE ARRANGED THAT UPDATE SPECIALLY! FOR YOU AND YOUR FRIEND! PRAISE US! *cough*
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:20 pm (UTC)MY FRIEND REFERS TO JIN AND KAME AND KAT-TUN IN GENERAL AS "THOSE FAGS" SO REALLY YOU SHOULDN'T HAVE. :P
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Date: 2013-02-06 07:40 pm (UTC)Okay, so in that case, we arranged it specially so you can say to her on her birthday, 'sorry but you have to leave me alone for an hour, I need to go read about the two fags'. :p
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Date: 2013-02-06 09:12 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-05 02:39 pm (UTC)will look forward to the next part ^_^♥♥
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:04 pm (UTC)Next part in... well, a wee while. >_>
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Date: 2013-02-05 05:07 pm (UTC)I mean, I can but, you know.*slaps Jin* No no no, don't smoke. It's not good. It's expensive. Bad boyyyyy.
♥ I'll look forward to the next update.
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:05 pm (UTC)Expensive, yes! That... could on reflection be the point? *g* >_>
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Date: 2013-02-05 06:52 pm (UTC)It took him ages to quit, it was hard, and here he is, dumb like a high schooler, endangering himself the way a dad shouldn't is he still thinking about smoking? Because it could also be talking abt him getting involved in the JE world again (and that didn't end well last time!) or his newfound obsession with Kame and endangering his heart as well as his future?
It's left a faint trace on his fingers. On Kame's hands the smell is older, goes deeper ...Jin, please don't pick up smoking just so you can be surrounded by the smell of Kame all the time. Then there'd be no way you can keep this a secret from your family!
he can't afford that, he'd need more Kame cash and that would just be... ironic
"Here's the money for this time"
"...that's not enough...maybe we can have another round?"
"...did your rent triple even though your apartment is still as crap as the first time I saw it?"
"..."
"..."
"...istartedsmokingagainsoIcouldsmellyouaroundmeallthetime"
"..."
Jin's fantasizing day and night to make up for that time before he started thinking about Kame in that way! Kame does have a head start on him in that sense. Then they could spend their future enacting out each other's fantasies!
It's going to be agonising waiting for next Friday after almost daily updates. 10 days! ...I'm think I'm going to reread SDW.
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Date: 2013-02-05 08:05 pm (UTC)We think that the idea that he could be endangered by the whole JE thing hasn't hit him. After all, he's been out of there for years and years, and he's certainly not thinking of going back.
WONDERFUL DIALOGUE! Poor Jin! And yes, his fantasy life is going to get rather active. :)
We're very sorry about the delay, but delighted by the constructive approach you are taking to it! :D
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Date: 2013-02-05 10:45 pm (UTC)well.. a week off? good. my bp will rest, lolz. dramatic hamstares sound good ^^. do try and enjoy yourselves.
meanwhile, shall try not to torture myself too much with how jin is being taken over by kame, creepy by crawly bit [you know, like that black spiderman suit, or something.. >.<]. only it's not exactly a hardship for jin, now is it. is it? one addiction matches another.. just go with the flow, jin. stop trying to think.. it'll just do your head in.
advice of a mate watching me learn to drive: don't think about what you're doing. just go with your instinct. once you start to think, it all goes to hell.. i laughed so much i nearly crashed. maybe jin will laugh about this also, later on. whatever, i hope he avoids the car crashalso, i've meant to say for a while, and never did, that i much appreciate just having jin's pov. really. tho', tbh, pity the person who can figure your kame/lex to the extent of writing from inside his head. don't get me wrong. not that i don't savour the pieces of kame you do serve us with. [hmm. sounds like cannibal cafe'..]
unrelated thot: they both have a lot going on, but i think i'd go for jin's 'traffic' being like piccadilly circus, while kame's would be on a scale of that shibuya crossing. seriously scary. #the turtle needs a panda.
--it's late. am wittering. go well ^^
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Date: 2013-02-06 07:41 pm (UTC)A cold prickly just for you.
In case you're interested, here is the defining post about warm fuzzies vs cold pricklies for fandom (http://julad.livejournal.com/71396.html) by an author whose writing in Due South, Highlander and Smallville Solo loves to bits. :)
Why would you torture yourself? Jin enjoys being taken over by Kame, so ... roll with it? Nope, no hardship. *g*
Your mate's advice sounds like good sense. Um, for Jin, we mean. We wouldn't know what the dire results of you starting to think might be. #caveatcakes
We think this story lives from just having one POV, to be honest. We also think you can pretty much figure this Kame out from the hints Jin picks up but we also think that unless you pay really close attention, this may be more apparent on second reading and just now, you just need to trust us. :)
No comment on cannibals. But turtle needs panda, yes.
--it's late. am wittering.
Oh, time of day has something to do with that? #runningaway
Thank you for this cool comment! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-06 08:04 pm (UTC)[oh, but i LOVE the cold pricklie asdfghjkl;lkjhgfdsfghjklkjhgfdertyuiolkjhgfh *staresinutterawe* and yes. interested i am. thank you kindly for both :>]
edit: YES for the POV. utterly works like this.
[and if i say utterly butt-erly (solo'll understand, i think), will she run away shrieking? advisable.. see? *checks time* busted..](no subject)
Date: 2013-02-07 08:55 pm (UTC)Anyway, KAME GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER AND GET YOUR ASS OVER TO JIN'S HE NEEDS YOU YOU DUMB SLUT. X'D AND DON'T FORGET THE FUCKING BEER.
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Date: 2013-02-10 11:26 am (UTC)Yeah, he does feel more useful around Kame. After all, Kame was the first one in a good long time who found any use for him. *cough*
Thank you for this lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-09 05:26 pm (UTC)Is Jin falling for him though-- really falling for him? :DD
I'm not even gonna poke you. XDD <3
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Date: 2013-02-10 11:26 am (UTC)What, no poking? We might think you don't love us any more. >_>
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Date: 2013-02-10 01:29 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-12 09:35 pm (UTC)I hope everything's okay? ._. I'm a bit afraid to admit this, but when I first read this (after the immediate NOOOO~, of course) I had to giggle at the... German vibe of those operational reasons. Aufgrund von Verzögerungen im Betriebsablauf overlord!Kame will arrive with an estimated delay of one week. Wir bitten dies zu entschuldigen. ;) Or maybe Jin will arrive at Kame's? hmmm....
Jin's head is all KameKameKame. Approve. Though poor confused puppy.
But he's awake, and it feels wonderful. His prize at the end of a decade. He was maybe fifteen when he last felt a smoke kick like this.
You know, I'm very anti-smoking and all, but I was weirdly relieved and happy for him here. Brainwashing. ;P
Whatever he is, he's not going to be stupid, and maybe if he stops now, he won't miss it again.
The cigarettes, I hope so. Kame, well, come on. No stopping now.
Very excited still! Looking foward to Friday and counting the library hours in between! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-14 07:00 pm (UTC)I hope everything's okay? ._. I'm a bit afraid to admit this, but when I first read this (after the immediate NOOOO~, of course) I had to giggle at the... German vibe of those operational reasons. Aufgrund von Verzögerungen im Betriebsablauf overlord!Kame will arrive with an estimated delay of one week. Wir bitten dies zu entschuldigen. ;-)
Yes, everything's okay! :-) And we had a giggle too, to be honest. We kept making up standard reasons: leaves on the line, the wrong kind of snow... there is no de-icer for the planes... Personenschaden auf den Gleisen... *g*
HAHAHA we brainwashed you into liking Jin's cigarette. :-D Jo is actually fanatically anti-smoking, and Solo's not fond of it either, but yeah. We know what a good kick from a good drug feels like. >_>
Poor you, stuck in that library... hope you'll consider the wait worth it!
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Date: 2013-02-24 06:46 pm (UTC)I wonder if that is just Jin missing Kame and trying to at least smell Kame around him so he can pretend it hasn’t felt like so long since he saw Kame. (Which was just the day before, but well. :P)
But maybe this is just part of Jin starting to realize even more that he might have fallen in love with Kame and that he hopes the cigarettes calm him down.
Either way, him not being able to stop thinking about Kame is some very nice development. Him smoking again not really, but so far he is responsible and doesn’t seem like he likes it. Which is a nice development as well. And at least he knows that he can still stop the smoking in order to not to become addicted again. A thing he can’t do with the things Kame does to him, because he’s already too addicted to stop.
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Date: 2013-03-04 08:42 pm (UTC)