9 1/2 Weeks - 30 - (Week 8 1/2: Friday)
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Week 8 1/2: Friday
It's Friday and Kame still hasn't called. Jin's not waiting, as such, but when he sits with his afternoon tea, he thinks Kame could really send him an e-mail, just to keep him in the loop. Or something.
Nothing in the news, no new drama. He hasn't smoked a cigarette, either. He kept the pack because hey, paid for, and it's sitting in a drawer, and he hasn't touched it.
Nino's been on Music Japan with FUNky5's Mr Dark, who is called Oda-san, dueting the apology song. Jin watched the whole thing, kept grinning throughout.
He feels strangely at rest. And he's not really pissy about the lack of e-mails. It would just be nice to know if—
His phone rings, the familiar tone.
"Slum City Host Club," Jin says, "how may we help you?"
There's a moment of silence at the other end. Jin figures this whole thing must be very healthy for Kame, putting him in touch with normal people and a sense of humor.
"I have one more meeting to take care of, but I should be done in about an hour. I can be at your place in two, maybe two and a half. Does that work for you?"
Jin nods into the receiver. Two-hour notice, Kame's getting really accommodating these days. "I'll be waiting."
And that's that.
He looks around. The place has been reasonably tidy since Wednesday. Not much left to do.
He shaves again, not that it's really necessary. Then he takes a long shower. Washes his hair, not that that's necessary either. But, well, plenty of time.
Plenty of time to dry it and style it, to contemplate cologne and decide on the one he's made last since 2019.
His shirt's ironed. But he'll get the bed out, clean sheets on, before he gets dressed.
Dressed to undress.
None of it takes long; even wasting time he's still ready half an hour early. He even washed up some glasses. He finished the last two beers over the course of the week, but Kame will bring more. Something to look forward to.
The beer, right.
He looks at himself in the mirror, hair and shirt and all, and sticks his tongue out at himself. Then he sits down on the futon and leisurely avenges pigs on his tab while he waits.
The bell rings at seven. Jin rolls up on his feet and clears his throat. Then he looks at the spot where he sat on the bed and smoothes out the sheet.
"Hello, you're early," he says when he swings the door open.
Kame's in the regular suit, a pink shirt with a wide collar, no tie, a plastic bag in hand. "I thought I was right on time."
"Exactly," Jin says and lets Kame step in, takes the bag off him. It's heavier than usual. "No over-running meetings?" God, now he makes business small talk.
"No, it was fine," Kame says. He blinks around the room, and Jin notices his hair is meticulously fluffy and light. A small silver hoop goes through his left ear. Jin's intrigued, but looks away before Kame notices.
"Anyway, let me put that away," he says, and deals with the beer, which is six bottles this week plus a pretty snazzy looking sake. "Impressive," Jin comments, though he feels stupidly fake.
Kame shrugs. "It was there." His eyes have a pinched look to them that makes Jin guess eyedrops, concealer, the works.
"Long week?" he asks.
"Indeed," Kame says. "In a good way, and in no small part thanks to you. But long enough that I really hope it's over now."
It's the first time Jin's heard Kame coming close to admitting he's tired.
"So... this isn't half an hour?"
It takes Kame a moment to place that. "Well," he says stiffly, "it may or may not be." It lacks the usual bite, though Jin thinks it's not for want of effort. "But I do assume that unless random disasters strike, which of course they might, I'm off schedule for the rest of the day."
"Okay," Jin says, while his brain's still sorting that. Kame, taking a night off. Talk about unexpected. "Good for you, I mean. Probably about time."
Kame doesn't dignify that with a comment, but he takes his jacket off and drapes it over Jin's chair.
"Have you eaten anything today?"
"I do eat," Kame says a little sharply. "I'm not nineteen, Jin. I have—" He shuts up.
Jin feels a grin coming on. "You set yourself an alert?"
"I haven't had dinner, in any case."
Well, that's an easy fix. "Me neither," Jin says. "How about I run down to the conbini and get us something to eat?"
"I don't—" Kame processes like he's not handling surprises with his usual efficiency.
"You can still fuck me after you've had some food," Jin says, easy as pie, and pockets his wallet.
"Okay, sure," Kame says eventually.
Very long week, Jin guesses. He grabs his keys, says, "Don't let anybody in," and off he goes. If Kame replies, he doesn't hear it.
It takes him less than ten minutes to buy two bento at half price, four different onigiri, and a couple of dorayaki for sweet. When he's letting himself into the apartment again he finds Kame on the futon right where he was last time, fully dressed with a bottle of beer in his hand, his head leaned back, eyes on nothing.
He looks like an elegant zombie.
"We have food," Jin says, which shouldn't startle Kame after keys and doors and everything, but somehow Kame seems to wake up.
"Okay," he says, rolling his shoulders.
Times like this, it'd be nice to have a full-size table. They have to eat on the futon and Jin puts the stuff down for them with a twinge of worry about the sheets, and gets himself a beer.
Kame's bottle's half empty. "You're taking it fast today," Jin says.
Kame just shrugs. "Don't have to drive." He goes for one of the bentos without hesitation.
Today's just full of surprises. "You didn't take the car?"
"Taxi." Kame is making short work of the rice. Jin can't disapprove of either, the shovelling or the taxi. "Seemed to make sense."
Jin thinks so too, and not only because Kame hardly seems fit to drive even without the alcohol.
"From the SMAP offices?"
Kame shakes his head, swallows down a fish. "Was there yesterday, but no time to come here. PV filming."
Right. Sometimes Jin forgets that in among all these things, Kame is also still a functioning superstar.
"So are they on board?"
Kame gives him one brief suspicious look over his chopsticks, but then he nods. "Yes. If everything works out with the girl."
"You've found her?"
"Hokkaido." Kame takes a long, satisfied swig from his bottle. "We're flying her in tomorrow morning." He takes a deep, deep breath. The bottle is empty.
"Congratulations," Jin says. "So she's going to help you?"
"We can get her nailed for the drugs. That was the flaw in the plan, makes her vulnerable. She's pragmatic." There's a hint of admiration in Kame's voice when he adds, "Very enterprising young woman."
"But you haven't… you haven't met her, right?"
"Video conference. Even so… with that charisma, she could lead SBY64. Julie made a smart choice."
It creeps Jin out, hearing Kame evaluate Julie's conspiracy performance, but maybe that's what you do when you're trying to be better.
"She told us how Julie gave her access to the targets and plenty of private info. I can't wait to see Julie's face when the questions start." The satisfaction is back; Jin just thinks of what the girl knew and how she got close, pretended…
"I'd like to tell Nakamaru about her," he says. "I feel he should know she's... she's not worth thinking about anymore."
Kame's smile disappears entirely. But at least he considers it. Slowly.
"I understand that," he says in the end. "But I'd appreciate it if you gave me more time. There's a bigger picture, and I'm not ready to move, not yet. A few weeks wouldn't make a difference for him. Would they?"
After five years, probably not. "I can wait," Jin says. "Just... keep it in mind."
"I will."
Kame polishes off the dorayaki, too, and Jin gets him a second beer. Clears the plastic and bags and chopstick wrappers away.
No stains on the sheet. Score.
Jin gets back down on the futon too, and then... Kame is staring at Jin's socks. Or somewhere thereabouts. It feels like a long time that nothing happens, when things have always just happened.
Finally Kame's gaze slips up, another odd blink. Maybe he's noticing Jin did his hair. Jin would make fun of him if he knew how, and if Kame was less adrift.
"You look very good in that shirt," Kame says, staring.
Jin can stare too. And pay attention. "You look like you haven't slept in a week."
"I sleep," Kame says. "I've slept."
No doubt. On Tuesday, maybe. "Bet you don't have an alert for it, though."
"Idiot," Kame says without sting. For a moment he seems to be mapping Jin's shirt again, Jin's neck, because Jin can feel the prickle.
"You've got the whole night?" Jin asks.
"Unless—"
"Unless disasters strike, yeah, yeah." Jin takes a breath and looks squarely at Kame. "Why don't you just crash for a few hours?"
Instantly, Kame looks more awake than he has all night. "That is not necessary."
"I know," Jin says peacefully. "But you'll feel better." He gets up again before Kame can organize his protest, and gets his pillow from the wardrobe. "Here," he says. At least Kame's catch is still decent. "Fuck me after you've had some sleep."
Kame is holding the pillow, staring at it like he caught a star and doesn't believe his luck. "I can't, though," he says, eyes flickering to...
"I'll keep an eye on your phone," Jin says. Funny how natural it seems to think this through as Kame would. "If you give me your password, I'll stay on top of your mail. Wake you up if anything comes in that looks urgent."
"This is ridiculous," Kame says, shaking his head, but he's not letting go of the pillow. Which has a week-old cover on it, but Jin figures it's better not to interfere. Then Kame says, "7161582." Jin blinks. "Ran1582. Not a word."
"Wouldn't dream of it."
"Okay," Kame says, in a tone of board meetings and tight schedules. Next on the schedule: sleep.
He stretches out while Jin pulls the curtains shut. Closes his eyes.
"Don't let me sleep too long," he mumbles, and Jin makes a solemn promise as he wedges himself in a corner with Kame's phone and his tab.
*~*~*
Kame gets a lot of e-mail. Jin scrolls and scrolls, trying to read without reading. Banal stuff, here a dinner invite, there a company update. Kame is a curled lump on the futon, not much but his hair visible at the top, his ass sticking out. It's filled out some. Jin catches up on the world and reads music reviews, starts to fiddle with some lyrics he was writing and stops again because it doesn't work in the silence.
Kame's slept for two and a half hours when a message from a Y.K. comes in that concerns 'flight times tomorrow.' Jin chews his lip. The message doesn't sound dramatic, but...
He wakes Kame with a light shoulder shake and, "Kame."
Kame has a creepy frozen way of waking up. "Yes?"
"Nothing bad," Jin says. "But I thought you might want to see right away."
Kame takes the phone from him without another word, scans the mail, then the subject lines in his inbox. It doesn't take a minute but when he puts the phone down, his movements are exact and his eyes determined, like he's never been asleep.
"Okay?" Jin says.
"Yes." Kame glances towards the curtains. "Nothing bad. But you were right to wake me."
Jin nods and doesn't even want to make a joke.
"What's the time?"
"Around ten." He sees Kame consider that, judge it in terms of acceptable or not, and let it go. "Feeling better?"
"I... yes, I do." Kame stretches discreetly and nods to himself. His shirt hardly shows that he slept in it. "What a bitch of a week."
And now it's over, and he came straight here. Jin looks at his socks, not so dumb he doesn't notice; not so dumb he points it out either.
"I need to use the bathroom."
Jin gestures. "Third door on the right."
That squint looks a bit evil, but Jin's never really been scared of Kame anyway.
He keeps busy with his own phone, makes sure the zero e-mails he got in the time of Kame's fifty-eleven didn't double while he wasn't paying attention, and notices for the first time just how thin the wall to the bathroom is.
Then flush, and the tap, and the funny wheezing sound the pipes always make. The water turns off and the door opens five seconds later. Kame looks at him right away, and then down, and Jin can almost feel the thoughts beyond sleep and food.
"Guess you're awake now," he says.
"I used your toothpaste," Kame says as he takes the amazing three steps until he's standing on the futon. Looking up, Jin catches just a trace of mint.
"My toothbrush, too?" he says, and Kame flips two fingers against his forehead like Jin's a Bakanishi. Jin could tackle him from here, show him what's what, skinny little...
Kame's fingers, cold from water, skimming the edge of his hair, and Kame's eyes aren't playful anymore.
Not so skinny. Not silly, standing there.
Like this? Jin turns his face up with no prompt, no urging, and then he's embarrassed, and then not. Breathe, let go. Breathe.
Kame lets his hand trail, all four fingers on Jin's face, two catching at Jin's mouth. Long evening, Jin thinks, and fine and I'm sitting weirdly and... Kame takes a tiny step back, and then he sits back down against the shelf, looking at Jin without meeting his eyes.
Yes. Fucking, after all. He's not sure why Kame stopped touching.
But he's looking. That works too. Jin kneels up, and Kame's gaze is on him every inch. It brings them closer and it lets him move, lets him unbutton his shirt, one button, two. "You want it like last time?" he asks, leaning just in Kame's space, slipping his hand down, getting the button and zip on his jeans. Kame still hasn't moved but he's swallowing, eyes burning into Jin, and Jin just starts to push the fabric down when Kame lunges forward and grabs him, fabric and skin and a hot still breath between them.
He yanks the shirt down Jin's arms, tall on his knees, his hands sinking into Jin's hair, and then they slide down, down Jin's back to his ass, groping and rough and the bulge in Kame's pants presses against him while Kame gets the shirt off like he needs to. They sway, Jin holding on, keeping his balance, and maybe they should just let go, fall, take it from there.
Then Kame stops.
What?
Kame's hands are gone, and Kame sits on his heels, away, much too far away.
"What?" Jin asks, feeling as stupid as before.
"I just… this," Kame says. Very coherent. Kame's noticed too, he's focusing. "You were very kind to me," he says carefully. "I appreciate that. I'll give you the money anyway. For food and for sleeping. You won't have to..."
What?
"No," Jin says, "wait." Because he's not following and nothing should happen here until he's figured out… how to be clear.
Kame looks at him with a frown, but he waits. He looks like he's got far too many thoughts in his head.
Okay. "I want you to fuck me," Jin says. There; clear. How good he got his head sorted out in time. "I want it."
Kame blinks once, and then his face goes bland with caution. "I don't want to make you."
"You're not," Jin says. "And you didn't whammy me with your handjobs either. I want it. I like it." It's that quiver again, embarrassment lurking, and then it just goes away. "So can we get to it?"
Seems like not. Kame just stares at him.
Because the idea of someone wanting to have sex with him is so inconceivable. Or because Jin was totally fighting him off last time too, or something. "Well?"
After a mini-eternity Kame says, "Okay. Sorry." Jin decides that'll have to do. Less talking, more doing. He gets his pants off, doesn't even care about the ungraceful picture he makes. Kame takes it all in, but he's not moving, sitting there while Jin is naked on the bed.
It should feel awful, but he knows too much. "You staying dressed?" he asks, rhetorical, but he finds he wouldn't care either way.
That gets him a smile. A genuine one. "No," Kame says, and gets to work on his shirt. "I don't think so."
All right.
Kame makes quick work of his clothes, doesn't even fold them. Then he's next to Jin, with a deep breath.
It sizzles when Kame's hand touches him. A light brush on his shoulder, Kame's eyes following, electric. Jin holds still. Spirit of the thing, he said Kame could.
He lets Kame map him, the first time he waits for the appreciation, memories of darker, more urgent looks teasing him. He knows how much Kame wants him, and he'll feel it, and he can just let it happen.
It's so different when he knows.
Kame leans close, and just that, everything aside, warmth and another person, is wonderful. Kame nuzzles his neck and it makes him shiver, this floating thing between them, and Kame's hands skimming lower and lighter.
Kame's not saying anything. It's all quiet. And Kame guides him down, an arm across his chest and an erection against his hip, and he's smiling and thinking and petting Jin and...
Suddenly Jin feels like he's in a bad, coy television drama. "What are you doing?"
Kame's hand stops. "Sorry, I…" He doesn't look like he's completely sure himself. "You said you wanted to."
"Yes, sure…"
Kame nods slowly, catching up with them. "And we can…" And his smile returns, mild, respectful, and Jin's still not stupid. He could always tell when Kame is putting on a show.
"I like it the way you like it."
Kame blinks at him, that bland concentration again. From the quiet it goes to a pulse in the air.
When Kame touches him next, he's closer, and the way he slides his fingers into Jin's hair is focused, watchful. He pulls, testing, soft twist in Jin's neck. "The way I like it."
Jin closes his eyes, that floating shiver coming back. "Yes." Just say it. He's had a week to know for himself.
Kame's hand goes tighter, like he means it, and Jin's balance is shot, a strain in his back. "You mean like this."
"Yes." He jumps when Kame's mouth is on his neck, hot with tongue and a scrape of teeth. "I don't want to think," he whispers. "It feels good. When I don't." When everything's gone except this, and nothing is complicated. And he doesn't see anymore why he shouldn't have it.
"Okay." Kame sounds like he's getting it. Jin blinks his eyes open and there's just a glimpse of Kame, his lips parted and his eyes hot, before strong hands push Jin down and turn him over, and oh yes. Kame's got it.
"I can do that," Kame says, and he pulls Jin's hips back, up, and Jin gets his knees under him and just waits, like that. "That works for me."
Jin's breath catches. But he doesn't have to say anything. Kame strokes his skin, not quite soothing. Squeezes a little, light pull where he spreads Jin more. Jin can imagine him looking. Looking as he runs a thumb down the crack, and it should be so embarrassing. Jin just lets it flutter through him.
"That works really well for me," Kame says quietly.
Jin makes a sound, and it doesn't embarrass him either. When the thumb slips inside he can't help pushing back, whimpering, and Kame laughs.
"You like it." He pulls out again but keeps it there, rubbing in place. It's wonderful and maddening. "You want more."
Jin bites his lip. He's said as much, hasn't he? Was pretty damn clear.
The movement halts, Kame right there, just holding him. "You said you didn't want to think," Kame says. "So don't."
When Jin breathes out, his head feels light, and his limbs heavy sinking into the futon. "I want more."
"So spread your legs. Let me see you."
Jin does that too.
So Kame sees him, and it goes everywhere, tingles from the tips of his fingers through the sweat on his back, a pull in his cock.
Kame is gone for a moment, but even that… he'll be back. He's in charge. Jin won't think. Then Kame's thumbs come back sticky, rubbing there, pushing in a little more. And gone.
"Sometimes I like it rough," Kame says. It hangs in the air, certain as it is, and they've done that, they've done that when he was scared and now he's just here.
"I know," Jin says, letting the high thrill of it run through him and take every last tension with it.
There's a careful breath behind him, and next Kame's hand is tight on his hip, and there's the pressure, and the deep thick slide, the sudden fullness and the panic. The other hand coming to match, pulling him close.
He's held there, gasping, trembling. It's so good.
Good when Kame pulls out before Jin's even settled, good on the deep thrust back in. When it gets faster, harder, when there's nothing but the next move.
He's been waiting for this all week.
"You are greedy." Kame's voice is strained, but he sounds approving. "Might take a while to get you all fucked out."
They've got a steady rhythm now, Jin could go with it forever. Take a while. Take however long.
"Give me your hand," Kame says, and Jin's not sure… what he means, but lifts his arm backward and Kame takes it, pulls it up and onto his back. "The other one."
Jin shudders, but he gets his hand there. Gives it up.
Kame takes his crossed wrists like it's his right and it aches, and if Jin wanted, a pull would free him, but he doesn't want, god he doesn't want.
The pumping inside him, the grip around his wrists pulling him sharp against it. Kame in charge, fucking him hard. Liking it rough.
"You'll take everything and still want more, is that right?" Kame says, and he's gasping now too, and Jin moans, yes, just like that. "Say it. You want to say it."
"Yes." His face is squashed against the sheets, his shoulders pulled back by Kame's grip, he's helpless, moving as Kame wants, parted knees the only point of balance, and Kame's hand. Kame tells him he wants it and he deserves it and Jin doesn't squirm away, says "yes," plain clean truth spilling out to the world, "I want it," says, "Kame." Weight and heat, more with each thrust. First time. Kame. "I'm hard."
Slut.
"That's new," Kame says, skims and feels, wobbling pace but oh, god, right there. "You want that, too?" Almost a challenge, but challenges are some other time, are not now.
"Yes," he says, "I want," muffled and hot, "I want to come when you fuck me," and it's never been this clear, and he'll tell Kame anything and not fucking care.
Kame, with a desperate noise of his own, stroking him and fucking him, hot like burning back and front and there's no air, Kame plunging in deep and jerking him hard, Jin's going to have a heart attack.
He's whimpering with every slam, every new twist of Kame's hand. Can't move, just hangs in there, and Kame keeps him pinned and takes him high until he forgets where he is and why and doesn't know the sounds he's making any more.
He crumples, raw and still falling to pieces when Kame speeds up, goes just for himself, and forever Jin can't breathe and think and stop and thank you, thank you.
"Fuck," Kame says, fingers digging hard into Jin's skin. Holding on as they still, everything slowing, sweaty, hot with Kame's thick breaths.
Then he lets Jin fall forward, guides him down. Drops down beside him and still there's the touch, warm, dirty, his ass and his thighs.
"Don't move."
Okay.
Kame's hand is at the small of his back. "You are one hot slut."
"Wasn't that always my image," Jin mumbles. He closes his eyes and thinks there must be steam coming off him. He wouldn't move if a volcano was coming for him.
"I like it when you're good and don't talk back."
He turns his head just a bit and blinks at Kame through sweaty strands of hair. "Yeah, don't get used to it."
Kame snorts, and god, he's thirty-fucking-seven and a jerk and tired around the eyes, and he's glowing.
"Don't move," he says again, and then he's gone.
Bathroom sounds, water, then Kame is back with the washcloth and Jin closes his eyes again when Kame wipes him down.
"I clean up my messes," Kame says. Jin just spreads his legs a little wider.
The cloth is warm and Kame is thorough, and at the end his fingers tickle on the back of Jin's thighs, a curious lingering.
"Turn over," Kame says then. There's not much that's not gone on the sheets but Kame wipes off Jin's come too, and then he flops, not so much the boss now, on his ass next to Jin and leans back on his arms.
Jin rolls on his side and props up his head. Thinks.
Kame is looking at him too, and apparently nap time cancels out orgasm fatigue.
"Get me a beer," Jin says.
Kame's eyebrows rise ever so slightly.
"I want it."
Kame sighs. But he gets up and goes, good man. "You want lots of things all of a sudden."
Yes. Jin's got catching up to do, from wanting nothing but peace and quiet and for his landlord to go away.
The beer is the best beer ever. Kame goes back to his spot against the shelf, and Jin gets a few minutes of really appreciating how sweaty Kame gets when he's fucking Jin's brains out. Then he needs the bathroom, and oh, boy, his legs are as lazy as the rest of him.
Kame watches him come back, every step. They spend another minute or so in silence. Yeah, Kame doesn't have to be anywhere. No rush.
After a while, Kame asks, "So what brought this on?"
Wanting it. Needing it. Of course Kame would wonder. He didn't even get the cigarette or three to get over it. "Obviously, you have a magic cock and it cured me of my heterosexual ways."
Kame actually flushes. "I was just curious," he says, but he's looking a bit tense for curious.
"Sorry," Jin relents. "I told you, it feels good." He's not drunk and not horny. Just fine. Even with the rest of it. "I don't think when you do it. It drowns out all the bullshit."
Kame is staring again. Thinking time. That's fine, Jin had a head start.
"I hate people telling me what to do," Jin says, and there's still the buzz, the freedom of not caring. "I've hated it so much. All the rules and the people who try to keep me in line." All those years, all those voices... it's all shut up and out of here now. "But I don't mind when you do it. I don't mind it like this. It's..."
He looks to Kame, for the words to get it right.
Kame blinks, and there's understanding there. "Everything's very clear," he says quietly.
"Exactly."
"Come here," Kame says suddenly, his voice like a tug somewhere deep in Jin's belly.
Jin hesitates, but then thinks what the hell, and shifts up until he's hovering in front of Kame.
Kame tucks the hair behind his ears; closes Jin's eyes with a brush of his hand. It tingles, like leftover glitter stirring back into the air.
Then Kame's hands come around his neck, subtle pressure. Jin holds still.
"I should put a collar on you," Kame says calmly. "My mark on you. Remind you when I'm gone."
Jin swallows against Kame's palm. He thinks he's getting hard again, and that's... surprising.
And Kame releases him. When Jin opens his eyes, he's studying him, studying like you study dinner. "Interesting," Kame says. Funny how he had his hands around Jin's neck but he's the one sounding a little hoarse.
Jin raises his chin. "Want to make something of it?" he asks, and drops his hand into Kame's crotch. "How much reminding you been doing yourself?"
Kame tenses back towards the shelf. "Thinking highly of yourself, are you."
If he is, he isn't wrong. That's Kame's cock, half-hard under his hand.
Interesting.
Kame looks strangely caught. Drawn up, watching Jin like Jin can do things to him.
Maybe Jin could. But maybe he doesn't need to make the point right now.
"You want more booze?" Jin says, sitting back on his heels. "We can use tea cups for the sake."
"I didn't plan on getting drunk," Kame points out, but his shoulders come down from yellow alert.
Jin gets up and fetches the cups from the kitchen cupboard. "Just half full, then." He's not intending to get drunk, either. "But you did come by cab, might as well make the most of it."
For a moment Kame looks like drunk driving is the least of his worries, like he's thinking about having to keep other people in line while buzzed on Jin's sake. But then he relaxes, nods. "Just a little bit."
"By the way, I saw Nino on TV with your little song," Jin says when he's sat down again. "And your little delinquent. Very harmonious."
There's a twitch of a smile on Kame's face. "Hot cakes," he says. "It'll give us a great quarter."
The sake is sharp at first. Been so long since Jin had any. But it feels good, another little glow. "So you never get to drink?" he asks. "Because you always have to be careful?"
"Oh, I drink," Kame says, making a face. "What do you think happens when I meet people from the industry?"
Yeah, okay. Stupid question.
Kame still drinks almost as slowly as Jin. Two naked guys on a futon with tea cups. Cozy.
"Meant to ask," Jin remembers, "what about Ueda? What little scandals did you have to rescue him from?" Kame must have rescued him, since he's still in the band. In the company.
So he's surprised when Kame says, "None." Even more surprised that Kame doesn't look happy about it.
"Okay?" he says.
"He's had no scandal. He's very careful." Kame lowers his drink like the question reminded him he should be careful too, and damn, that's not what Jin wanted. "You could say he's staying out of all the politics," Kame says. "You could also say that nobody can figure out which side he's on."
Oh, Jin thinks. Oh, that must suck. "And you have to work with him."
"He doesn't make it difficult," Kame says with a low shrug. "He just... he does the job, and keeps himself to himself. I know he works out at a tiny private gym, and he's taking karate lessons, but even that I only know because I've had somebody check him out."
"You're spying on KAT-TUN?"
Kame gives a little laugh. "Just Ueda, because I need to know what's what, if he's meeting with Julie. I've been wondering recently if I should just have the others tailed too, though. Just so I have warning when they get into any dumb shit."
He's got to be relieved, Jin suddenly thinks, that Jin is gone and he doesn't have to worry about Jin's talent for fuck-ups, too.
He says so, and Kame gives him a long, weird look.
"I'm sure we could work out a way for me to keep you in line," he finally says with a little smile.
Jin raises his cup in a sloppy toast, then notices it's empty.
"More?" he says.
But Kame shakes his head. "I should get going. If I take an early night, I should get a good night's sleep too. I've got stuff tomorrow."
Even sleeping's a duty, with Kame.
They get up, get dressed. Jin throws on his sweatpants and watches Kame button his shirt, adjust his jacket like he could still be photographed in the cab.
"I don't know about next week yet," Kame says. "I'll call ahead when I know."
"I'm here," Jin says. "You know when I work."
"I do," Kame says. Then he goes a little stiff, before he fishes for his wallet. "Of course," he says, looking uncertain as his fingers skim the bills. "I don't quite know now..." At last he stops fiddling. "How much do I owe you?"
Very correct, very Kame, and you have to wonder where he was when they were snipping off the price tags. Of course, people still have to pay their rent. "Give me that wallet."
Kame hands it over without hesitation.
Jin clears out all the notes, a nice fat bundle. He notes the credit cards and sticks a thousand back in before he returns it, because he's not cruel, just poor. "There, you can buy yourself a coffee tomorrow morning," he says. "It's on me."
Kame blinks, and just for a moment Jin worries if he went too far. But, no, Kame's only a little slow, and Jin grabs him by the jacket and kisses him square on the mouth.
Sake and surprise, tension and yeah, about time.
"I'd say don't spend it all on one place," Jin says, "but I know how you like to splurge."
Kame smashes into him, spins them and shoves him right into the door, kisses him back hard with teeth as if they've both forgotten how to do this.
Jin's squirming for more anyway, they can get better, and he doesn't mind the sting, or the bruises he'll have from Kame moving him around.
"I should fuck you right against the door for that," Kame mumbles.
Jin laughs low in his throat. "What's stopping you?" Jin wouldn't.
"I have to get ready to earn more money. I have this expensive slut to keep."
"You haven't even called your cab yet," Jin points out and doesn't remove his own hands from anywhere, because the cab could take, like, five minutes.
Kame gives him a look, then gets out his phone and orders a cab to a couple of streets away without ever taking his eyes off all the places Jin isn't wearing clothes.
He slips the phone back in his pocket and grips Jin's wrist and pins it against the door; sticks his tongue in Jin's mouth and tells Jin with his hand in Jin's sweatpants just how desperate Jin must be, and when he really has to go, he's right about that.
Week 8 1/2: Friday
It's Friday and Kame still hasn't called. Jin's not waiting, as such, but when he sits with his afternoon tea, he thinks Kame could really send him an e-mail, just to keep him in the loop. Or something.
Nothing in the news, no new drama. He hasn't smoked a cigarette, either. He kept the pack because hey, paid for, and it's sitting in a drawer, and he hasn't touched it.
Nino's been on Music Japan with FUNky5's Mr Dark, who is called Oda-san, dueting the apology song. Jin watched the whole thing, kept grinning throughout.
He feels strangely at rest. And he's not really pissy about the lack of e-mails. It would just be nice to know if—
His phone rings, the familiar tone.
"Slum City Host Club," Jin says, "how may we help you?"
There's a moment of silence at the other end. Jin figures this whole thing must be very healthy for Kame, putting him in touch with normal people and a sense of humor.
"I have one more meeting to take care of, but I should be done in about an hour. I can be at your place in two, maybe two and a half. Does that work for you?"
Jin nods into the receiver. Two-hour notice, Kame's getting really accommodating these days. "I'll be waiting."
And that's that.
He looks around. The place has been reasonably tidy since Wednesday. Not much left to do.
He shaves again, not that it's really necessary. Then he takes a long shower. Washes his hair, not that that's necessary either. But, well, plenty of time.
Plenty of time to dry it and style it, to contemplate cologne and decide on the one he's made last since 2019.
His shirt's ironed. But he'll get the bed out, clean sheets on, before he gets dressed.
Dressed to undress.
None of it takes long; even wasting time he's still ready half an hour early. He even washed up some glasses. He finished the last two beers over the course of the week, but Kame will bring more. Something to look forward to.
The beer, right.
He looks at himself in the mirror, hair and shirt and all, and sticks his tongue out at himself. Then he sits down on the futon and leisurely avenges pigs on his tab while he waits.
The bell rings at seven. Jin rolls up on his feet and clears his throat. Then he looks at the spot where he sat on the bed and smoothes out the sheet.
"Hello, you're early," he says when he swings the door open.
Kame's in the regular suit, a pink shirt with a wide collar, no tie, a plastic bag in hand. "I thought I was right on time."
"Exactly," Jin says and lets Kame step in, takes the bag off him. It's heavier than usual. "No over-running meetings?" God, now he makes business small talk.
"No, it was fine," Kame says. He blinks around the room, and Jin notices his hair is meticulously fluffy and light. A small silver hoop goes through his left ear. Jin's intrigued, but looks away before Kame notices.
"Anyway, let me put that away," he says, and deals with the beer, which is six bottles this week plus a pretty snazzy looking sake. "Impressive," Jin comments, though he feels stupidly fake.
Kame shrugs. "It was there." His eyes have a pinched look to them that makes Jin guess eyedrops, concealer, the works.
"Long week?" he asks.
"Indeed," Kame says. "In a good way, and in no small part thanks to you. But long enough that I really hope it's over now."
It's the first time Jin's heard Kame coming close to admitting he's tired.
"So... this isn't half an hour?"
It takes Kame a moment to place that. "Well," he says stiffly, "it may or may not be." It lacks the usual bite, though Jin thinks it's not for want of effort. "But I do assume that unless random disasters strike, which of course they might, I'm off schedule for the rest of the day."
"Okay," Jin says, while his brain's still sorting that. Kame, taking a night off. Talk about unexpected. "Good for you, I mean. Probably about time."
Kame doesn't dignify that with a comment, but he takes his jacket off and drapes it over Jin's chair.
"Have you eaten anything today?"
"I do eat," Kame says a little sharply. "I'm not nineteen, Jin. I have—" He shuts up.
Jin feels a grin coming on. "You set yourself an alert?"
"I haven't had dinner, in any case."
Well, that's an easy fix. "Me neither," Jin says. "How about I run down to the conbini and get us something to eat?"
"I don't—" Kame processes like he's not handling surprises with his usual efficiency.
"You can still fuck me after you've had some food," Jin says, easy as pie, and pockets his wallet.
"Okay, sure," Kame says eventually.
Very long week, Jin guesses. He grabs his keys, says, "Don't let anybody in," and off he goes. If Kame replies, he doesn't hear it.
It takes him less than ten minutes to buy two bento at half price, four different onigiri, and a couple of dorayaki for sweet. When he's letting himself into the apartment again he finds Kame on the futon right where he was last time, fully dressed with a bottle of beer in his hand, his head leaned back, eyes on nothing.
He looks like an elegant zombie.
"We have food," Jin says, which shouldn't startle Kame after keys and doors and everything, but somehow Kame seems to wake up.
"Okay," he says, rolling his shoulders.
Times like this, it'd be nice to have a full-size table. They have to eat on the futon and Jin puts the stuff down for them with a twinge of worry about the sheets, and gets himself a beer.
Kame's bottle's half empty. "You're taking it fast today," Jin says.
Kame just shrugs. "Don't have to drive." He goes for one of the bentos without hesitation.
Today's just full of surprises. "You didn't take the car?"
"Taxi." Kame is making short work of the rice. Jin can't disapprove of either, the shovelling or the taxi. "Seemed to make sense."
Jin thinks so too, and not only because Kame hardly seems fit to drive even without the alcohol.
"From the SMAP offices?"
Kame shakes his head, swallows down a fish. "Was there yesterday, but no time to come here. PV filming."
Right. Sometimes Jin forgets that in among all these things, Kame is also still a functioning superstar.
"So are they on board?"
Kame gives him one brief suspicious look over his chopsticks, but then he nods. "Yes. If everything works out with the girl."
"You've found her?"
"Hokkaido." Kame takes a long, satisfied swig from his bottle. "We're flying her in tomorrow morning." He takes a deep, deep breath. The bottle is empty.
"Congratulations," Jin says. "So she's going to help you?"
"We can get her nailed for the drugs. That was the flaw in the plan, makes her vulnerable. She's pragmatic." There's a hint of admiration in Kame's voice when he adds, "Very enterprising young woman."
"But you haven't… you haven't met her, right?"
"Video conference. Even so… with that charisma, she could lead SBY64. Julie made a smart choice."
It creeps Jin out, hearing Kame evaluate Julie's conspiracy performance, but maybe that's what you do when you're trying to be better.
"She told us how Julie gave her access to the targets and plenty of private info. I can't wait to see Julie's face when the questions start." The satisfaction is back; Jin just thinks of what the girl knew and how she got close, pretended…
"I'd like to tell Nakamaru about her," he says. "I feel he should know she's... she's not worth thinking about anymore."
Kame's smile disappears entirely. But at least he considers it. Slowly.
"I understand that," he says in the end. "But I'd appreciate it if you gave me more time. There's a bigger picture, and I'm not ready to move, not yet. A few weeks wouldn't make a difference for him. Would they?"
After five years, probably not. "I can wait," Jin says. "Just... keep it in mind."
"I will."
Kame polishes off the dorayaki, too, and Jin gets him a second beer. Clears the plastic and bags and chopstick wrappers away.
No stains on the sheet. Score.
Jin gets back down on the futon too, and then... Kame is staring at Jin's socks. Or somewhere thereabouts. It feels like a long time that nothing happens, when things have always just happened.
Finally Kame's gaze slips up, another odd blink. Maybe he's noticing Jin did his hair. Jin would make fun of him if he knew how, and if Kame was less adrift.
"You look very good in that shirt," Kame says, staring.
Jin can stare too. And pay attention. "You look like you haven't slept in a week."
"I sleep," Kame says. "I've slept."
No doubt. On Tuesday, maybe. "Bet you don't have an alert for it, though."
"Idiot," Kame says without sting. For a moment he seems to be mapping Jin's shirt again, Jin's neck, because Jin can feel the prickle.
"You've got the whole night?" Jin asks.
"Unless—"
"Unless disasters strike, yeah, yeah." Jin takes a breath and looks squarely at Kame. "Why don't you just crash for a few hours?"
Instantly, Kame looks more awake than he has all night. "That is not necessary."
"I know," Jin says peacefully. "But you'll feel better." He gets up again before Kame can organize his protest, and gets his pillow from the wardrobe. "Here," he says. At least Kame's catch is still decent. "Fuck me after you've had some sleep."
Kame is holding the pillow, staring at it like he caught a star and doesn't believe his luck. "I can't, though," he says, eyes flickering to...
"I'll keep an eye on your phone," Jin says. Funny how natural it seems to think this through as Kame would. "If you give me your password, I'll stay on top of your mail. Wake you up if anything comes in that looks urgent."
"This is ridiculous," Kame says, shaking his head, but he's not letting go of the pillow. Which has a week-old cover on it, but Jin figures it's better not to interfere. Then Kame says, "7161582." Jin blinks. "Ran1582. Not a word."
"Wouldn't dream of it."
"Okay," Kame says, in a tone of board meetings and tight schedules. Next on the schedule: sleep.
He stretches out while Jin pulls the curtains shut. Closes his eyes.
"Don't let me sleep too long," he mumbles, and Jin makes a solemn promise as he wedges himself in a corner with Kame's phone and his tab.
*~*~*
Kame gets a lot of e-mail. Jin scrolls and scrolls, trying to read without reading. Banal stuff, here a dinner invite, there a company update. Kame is a curled lump on the futon, not much but his hair visible at the top, his ass sticking out. It's filled out some. Jin catches up on the world and reads music reviews, starts to fiddle with some lyrics he was writing and stops again because it doesn't work in the silence.
Kame's slept for two and a half hours when a message from a Y.K. comes in that concerns 'flight times tomorrow.' Jin chews his lip. The message doesn't sound dramatic, but...
He wakes Kame with a light shoulder shake and, "Kame."
Kame has a creepy frozen way of waking up. "Yes?"
"Nothing bad," Jin says. "But I thought you might want to see right away."
Kame takes the phone from him without another word, scans the mail, then the subject lines in his inbox. It doesn't take a minute but when he puts the phone down, his movements are exact and his eyes determined, like he's never been asleep.
"Okay?" Jin says.
"Yes." Kame glances towards the curtains. "Nothing bad. But you were right to wake me."
Jin nods and doesn't even want to make a joke.
"What's the time?"
"Around ten." He sees Kame consider that, judge it in terms of acceptable or not, and let it go. "Feeling better?"
"I... yes, I do." Kame stretches discreetly and nods to himself. His shirt hardly shows that he slept in it. "What a bitch of a week."
And now it's over, and he came straight here. Jin looks at his socks, not so dumb he doesn't notice; not so dumb he points it out either.
"I need to use the bathroom."
Jin gestures. "Third door on the right."
That squint looks a bit evil, but Jin's never really been scared of Kame anyway.
He keeps busy with his own phone, makes sure the zero e-mails he got in the time of Kame's fifty-eleven didn't double while he wasn't paying attention, and notices for the first time just how thin the wall to the bathroom is.
Then flush, and the tap, and the funny wheezing sound the pipes always make. The water turns off and the door opens five seconds later. Kame looks at him right away, and then down, and Jin can almost feel the thoughts beyond sleep and food.
"Guess you're awake now," he says.
"I used your toothpaste," Kame says as he takes the amazing three steps until he's standing on the futon. Looking up, Jin catches just a trace of mint.
"My toothbrush, too?" he says, and Kame flips two fingers against his forehead like Jin's a Bakanishi. Jin could tackle him from here, show him what's what, skinny little...
Kame's fingers, cold from water, skimming the edge of his hair, and Kame's eyes aren't playful anymore.
Not so skinny. Not silly, standing there.
Like this? Jin turns his face up with no prompt, no urging, and then he's embarrassed, and then not. Breathe, let go. Breathe.
Kame lets his hand trail, all four fingers on Jin's face, two catching at Jin's mouth. Long evening, Jin thinks, and fine and I'm sitting weirdly and... Kame takes a tiny step back, and then he sits back down against the shelf, looking at Jin without meeting his eyes.
Yes. Fucking, after all. He's not sure why Kame stopped touching.
But he's looking. That works too. Jin kneels up, and Kame's gaze is on him every inch. It brings them closer and it lets him move, lets him unbutton his shirt, one button, two. "You want it like last time?" he asks, leaning just in Kame's space, slipping his hand down, getting the button and zip on his jeans. Kame still hasn't moved but he's swallowing, eyes burning into Jin, and Jin just starts to push the fabric down when Kame lunges forward and grabs him, fabric and skin and a hot still breath between them.
He yanks the shirt down Jin's arms, tall on his knees, his hands sinking into Jin's hair, and then they slide down, down Jin's back to his ass, groping and rough and the bulge in Kame's pants presses against him while Kame gets the shirt off like he needs to. They sway, Jin holding on, keeping his balance, and maybe they should just let go, fall, take it from there.
Then Kame stops.
What?
Kame's hands are gone, and Kame sits on his heels, away, much too far away.
"What?" Jin asks, feeling as stupid as before.
"I just… this," Kame says. Very coherent. Kame's noticed too, he's focusing. "You were very kind to me," he says carefully. "I appreciate that. I'll give you the money anyway. For food and for sleeping. You won't have to..."
What?
"No," Jin says, "wait." Because he's not following and nothing should happen here until he's figured out… how to be clear.
Kame looks at him with a frown, but he waits. He looks like he's got far too many thoughts in his head.
Okay. "I want you to fuck me," Jin says. There; clear. How good he got his head sorted out in time. "I want it."
Kame blinks once, and then his face goes bland with caution. "I don't want to make you."
"You're not," Jin says. "And you didn't whammy me with your handjobs either. I want it. I like it." It's that quiver again, embarrassment lurking, and then it just goes away. "So can we get to it?"
Seems like not. Kame just stares at him.
Because the idea of someone wanting to have sex with him is so inconceivable. Or because Jin was totally fighting him off last time too, or something. "Well?"
After a mini-eternity Kame says, "Okay. Sorry." Jin decides that'll have to do. Less talking, more doing. He gets his pants off, doesn't even care about the ungraceful picture he makes. Kame takes it all in, but he's not moving, sitting there while Jin is naked on the bed.
It should feel awful, but he knows too much. "You staying dressed?" he asks, rhetorical, but he finds he wouldn't care either way.
That gets him a smile. A genuine one. "No," Kame says, and gets to work on his shirt. "I don't think so."
All right.
Kame makes quick work of his clothes, doesn't even fold them. Then he's next to Jin, with a deep breath.
It sizzles when Kame's hand touches him. A light brush on his shoulder, Kame's eyes following, electric. Jin holds still. Spirit of the thing, he said Kame could.
He lets Kame map him, the first time he waits for the appreciation, memories of darker, more urgent looks teasing him. He knows how much Kame wants him, and he'll feel it, and he can just let it happen.
It's so different when he knows.
Kame leans close, and just that, everything aside, warmth and another person, is wonderful. Kame nuzzles his neck and it makes him shiver, this floating thing between them, and Kame's hands skimming lower and lighter.
Kame's not saying anything. It's all quiet. And Kame guides him down, an arm across his chest and an erection against his hip, and he's smiling and thinking and petting Jin and...
Suddenly Jin feels like he's in a bad, coy television drama. "What are you doing?"
Kame's hand stops. "Sorry, I…" He doesn't look like he's completely sure himself. "You said you wanted to."
"Yes, sure…"
Kame nods slowly, catching up with them. "And we can…" And his smile returns, mild, respectful, and Jin's still not stupid. He could always tell when Kame is putting on a show.
"I like it the way you like it."
Kame blinks at him, that bland concentration again. From the quiet it goes to a pulse in the air.
When Kame touches him next, he's closer, and the way he slides his fingers into Jin's hair is focused, watchful. He pulls, testing, soft twist in Jin's neck. "The way I like it."
Jin closes his eyes, that floating shiver coming back. "Yes." Just say it. He's had a week to know for himself.
Kame's hand goes tighter, like he means it, and Jin's balance is shot, a strain in his back. "You mean like this."
"Yes." He jumps when Kame's mouth is on his neck, hot with tongue and a scrape of teeth. "I don't want to think," he whispers. "It feels good. When I don't." When everything's gone except this, and nothing is complicated. And he doesn't see anymore why he shouldn't have it.
"Okay." Kame sounds like he's getting it. Jin blinks his eyes open and there's just a glimpse of Kame, his lips parted and his eyes hot, before strong hands push Jin down and turn him over, and oh yes. Kame's got it.
"I can do that," Kame says, and he pulls Jin's hips back, up, and Jin gets his knees under him and just waits, like that. "That works for me."
Jin's breath catches. But he doesn't have to say anything. Kame strokes his skin, not quite soothing. Squeezes a little, light pull where he spreads Jin more. Jin can imagine him looking. Looking as he runs a thumb down the crack, and it should be so embarrassing. Jin just lets it flutter through him.
"That works really well for me," Kame says quietly.
Jin makes a sound, and it doesn't embarrass him either. When the thumb slips inside he can't help pushing back, whimpering, and Kame laughs.
"You like it." He pulls out again but keeps it there, rubbing in place. It's wonderful and maddening. "You want more."
Jin bites his lip. He's said as much, hasn't he? Was pretty damn clear.
The movement halts, Kame right there, just holding him. "You said you didn't want to think," Kame says. "So don't."
When Jin breathes out, his head feels light, and his limbs heavy sinking into the futon. "I want more."
"So spread your legs. Let me see you."
Jin does that too.
So Kame sees him, and it goes everywhere, tingles from the tips of his fingers through the sweat on his back, a pull in his cock.
Kame is gone for a moment, but even that… he'll be back. He's in charge. Jin won't think. Then Kame's thumbs come back sticky, rubbing there, pushing in a little more. And gone.
"Sometimes I like it rough," Kame says. It hangs in the air, certain as it is, and they've done that, they've done that when he was scared and now he's just here.
"I know," Jin says, letting the high thrill of it run through him and take every last tension with it.
There's a careful breath behind him, and next Kame's hand is tight on his hip, and there's the pressure, and the deep thick slide, the sudden fullness and the panic. The other hand coming to match, pulling him close.
He's held there, gasping, trembling. It's so good.
Good when Kame pulls out before Jin's even settled, good on the deep thrust back in. When it gets faster, harder, when there's nothing but the next move.
He's been waiting for this all week.
"You are greedy." Kame's voice is strained, but he sounds approving. "Might take a while to get you all fucked out."
They've got a steady rhythm now, Jin could go with it forever. Take a while. Take however long.
"Give me your hand," Kame says, and Jin's not sure… what he means, but lifts his arm backward and Kame takes it, pulls it up and onto his back. "The other one."
Jin shudders, but he gets his hand there. Gives it up.
Kame takes his crossed wrists like it's his right and it aches, and if Jin wanted, a pull would free him, but he doesn't want, god he doesn't want.
The pumping inside him, the grip around his wrists pulling him sharp against it. Kame in charge, fucking him hard. Liking it rough.
"You'll take everything and still want more, is that right?" Kame says, and he's gasping now too, and Jin moans, yes, just like that. "Say it. You want to say it."
"Yes." His face is squashed against the sheets, his shoulders pulled back by Kame's grip, he's helpless, moving as Kame wants, parted knees the only point of balance, and Kame's hand. Kame tells him he wants it and he deserves it and Jin doesn't squirm away, says "yes," plain clean truth spilling out to the world, "I want it," says, "Kame." Weight and heat, more with each thrust. First time. Kame. "I'm hard."
Slut.
"That's new," Kame says, skims and feels, wobbling pace but oh, god, right there. "You want that, too?" Almost a challenge, but challenges are some other time, are not now.
"Yes," he says, "I want," muffled and hot, "I want to come when you fuck me," and it's never been this clear, and he'll tell Kame anything and not fucking care.
Kame, with a desperate noise of his own, stroking him and fucking him, hot like burning back and front and there's no air, Kame plunging in deep and jerking him hard, Jin's going to have a heart attack.
He's whimpering with every slam, every new twist of Kame's hand. Can't move, just hangs in there, and Kame keeps him pinned and takes him high until he forgets where he is and why and doesn't know the sounds he's making any more.
He crumples, raw and still falling to pieces when Kame speeds up, goes just for himself, and forever Jin can't breathe and think and stop and thank you, thank you.
"Fuck," Kame says, fingers digging hard into Jin's skin. Holding on as they still, everything slowing, sweaty, hot with Kame's thick breaths.
Then he lets Jin fall forward, guides him down. Drops down beside him and still there's the touch, warm, dirty, his ass and his thighs.
"Don't move."
Okay.
Kame's hand is at the small of his back. "You are one hot slut."
"Wasn't that always my image," Jin mumbles. He closes his eyes and thinks there must be steam coming off him. He wouldn't move if a volcano was coming for him.
"I like it when you're good and don't talk back."
He turns his head just a bit and blinks at Kame through sweaty strands of hair. "Yeah, don't get used to it."
Kame snorts, and god, he's thirty-fucking-seven and a jerk and tired around the eyes, and he's glowing.
"Don't move," he says again, and then he's gone.
Bathroom sounds, water, then Kame is back with the washcloth and Jin closes his eyes again when Kame wipes him down.
"I clean up my messes," Kame says. Jin just spreads his legs a little wider.
The cloth is warm and Kame is thorough, and at the end his fingers tickle on the back of Jin's thighs, a curious lingering.
"Turn over," Kame says then. There's not much that's not gone on the sheets but Kame wipes off Jin's come too, and then he flops, not so much the boss now, on his ass next to Jin and leans back on his arms.
Jin rolls on his side and props up his head. Thinks.
Kame is looking at him too, and apparently nap time cancels out orgasm fatigue.
"Get me a beer," Jin says.
Kame's eyebrows rise ever so slightly.
"I want it."
Kame sighs. But he gets up and goes, good man. "You want lots of things all of a sudden."
Yes. Jin's got catching up to do, from wanting nothing but peace and quiet and for his landlord to go away.
The beer is the best beer ever. Kame goes back to his spot against the shelf, and Jin gets a few minutes of really appreciating how sweaty Kame gets when he's fucking Jin's brains out. Then he needs the bathroom, and oh, boy, his legs are as lazy as the rest of him.
Kame watches him come back, every step. They spend another minute or so in silence. Yeah, Kame doesn't have to be anywhere. No rush.
After a while, Kame asks, "So what brought this on?"
Wanting it. Needing it. Of course Kame would wonder. He didn't even get the cigarette or three to get over it. "Obviously, you have a magic cock and it cured me of my heterosexual ways."
Kame actually flushes. "I was just curious," he says, but he's looking a bit tense for curious.
"Sorry," Jin relents. "I told you, it feels good." He's not drunk and not horny. Just fine. Even with the rest of it. "I don't think when you do it. It drowns out all the bullshit."
Kame is staring again. Thinking time. That's fine, Jin had a head start.
"I hate people telling me what to do," Jin says, and there's still the buzz, the freedom of not caring. "I've hated it so much. All the rules and the people who try to keep me in line." All those years, all those voices... it's all shut up and out of here now. "But I don't mind when you do it. I don't mind it like this. It's..."
He looks to Kame, for the words to get it right.
Kame blinks, and there's understanding there. "Everything's very clear," he says quietly.
"Exactly."
"Come here," Kame says suddenly, his voice like a tug somewhere deep in Jin's belly.
Jin hesitates, but then thinks what the hell, and shifts up until he's hovering in front of Kame.
Kame tucks the hair behind his ears; closes Jin's eyes with a brush of his hand. It tingles, like leftover glitter stirring back into the air.
Then Kame's hands come around his neck, subtle pressure. Jin holds still.
"I should put a collar on you," Kame says calmly. "My mark on you. Remind you when I'm gone."
Jin swallows against Kame's palm. He thinks he's getting hard again, and that's... surprising.
And Kame releases him. When Jin opens his eyes, he's studying him, studying like you study dinner. "Interesting," Kame says. Funny how he had his hands around Jin's neck but he's the one sounding a little hoarse.
Jin raises his chin. "Want to make something of it?" he asks, and drops his hand into Kame's crotch. "How much reminding you been doing yourself?"
Kame tenses back towards the shelf. "Thinking highly of yourself, are you."
If he is, he isn't wrong. That's Kame's cock, half-hard under his hand.
Interesting.
Kame looks strangely caught. Drawn up, watching Jin like Jin can do things to him.
Maybe Jin could. But maybe he doesn't need to make the point right now.
"You want more booze?" Jin says, sitting back on his heels. "We can use tea cups for the sake."
"I didn't plan on getting drunk," Kame points out, but his shoulders come down from yellow alert.
Jin gets up and fetches the cups from the kitchen cupboard. "Just half full, then." He's not intending to get drunk, either. "But you did come by cab, might as well make the most of it."
For a moment Kame looks like drunk driving is the least of his worries, like he's thinking about having to keep other people in line while buzzed on Jin's sake. But then he relaxes, nods. "Just a little bit."
"By the way, I saw Nino on TV with your little song," Jin says when he's sat down again. "And your little delinquent. Very harmonious."
There's a twitch of a smile on Kame's face. "Hot cakes," he says. "It'll give us a great quarter."
The sake is sharp at first. Been so long since Jin had any. But it feels good, another little glow. "So you never get to drink?" he asks. "Because you always have to be careful?"
"Oh, I drink," Kame says, making a face. "What do you think happens when I meet people from the industry?"
Yeah, okay. Stupid question.
Kame still drinks almost as slowly as Jin. Two naked guys on a futon with tea cups. Cozy.
"Meant to ask," Jin remembers, "what about Ueda? What little scandals did you have to rescue him from?" Kame must have rescued him, since he's still in the band. In the company.
So he's surprised when Kame says, "None." Even more surprised that Kame doesn't look happy about it.
"Okay?" he says.
"He's had no scandal. He's very careful." Kame lowers his drink like the question reminded him he should be careful too, and damn, that's not what Jin wanted. "You could say he's staying out of all the politics," Kame says. "You could also say that nobody can figure out which side he's on."
Oh, Jin thinks. Oh, that must suck. "And you have to work with him."
"He doesn't make it difficult," Kame says with a low shrug. "He just... he does the job, and keeps himself to himself. I know he works out at a tiny private gym, and he's taking karate lessons, but even that I only know because I've had somebody check him out."
"You're spying on KAT-TUN?"
Kame gives a little laugh. "Just Ueda, because I need to know what's what, if he's meeting with Julie. I've been wondering recently if I should just have the others tailed too, though. Just so I have warning when they get into any dumb shit."
He's got to be relieved, Jin suddenly thinks, that Jin is gone and he doesn't have to worry about Jin's talent for fuck-ups, too.
He says so, and Kame gives him a long, weird look.
"I'm sure we could work out a way for me to keep you in line," he finally says with a little smile.
Jin raises his cup in a sloppy toast, then notices it's empty.
"More?" he says.
But Kame shakes his head. "I should get going. If I take an early night, I should get a good night's sleep too. I've got stuff tomorrow."
Even sleeping's a duty, with Kame.
They get up, get dressed. Jin throws on his sweatpants and watches Kame button his shirt, adjust his jacket like he could still be photographed in the cab.
"I don't know about next week yet," Kame says. "I'll call ahead when I know."
"I'm here," Jin says. "You know when I work."
"I do," Kame says. Then he goes a little stiff, before he fishes for his wallet. "Of course," he says, looking uncertain as his fingers skim the bills. "I don't quite know now..." At last he stops fiddling. "How much do I owe you?"
Very correct, very Kame, and you have to wonder where he was when they were snipping off the price tags. Of course, people still have to pay their rent. "Give me that wallet."
Kame hands it over without hesitation.
Jin clears out all the notes, a nice fat bundle. He notes the credit cards and sticks a thousand back in before he returns it, because he's not cruel, just poor. "There, you can buy yourself a coffee tomorrow morning," he says. "It's on me."
Kame blinks, and just for a moment Jin worries if he went too far. But, no, Kame's only a little slow, and Jin grabs him by the jacket and kisses him square on the mouth.
Sake and surprise, tension and yeah, about time.
"I'd say don't spend it all on one place," Jin says, "but I know how you like to splurge."
Kame smashes into him, spins them and shoves him right into the door, kisses him back hard with teeth as if they've both forgotten how to do this.
Jin's squirming for more anyway, they can get better, and he doesn't mind the sting, or the bruises he'll have from Kame moving him around.
"I should fuck you right against the door for that," Kame mumbles.
Jin laughs low in his throat. "What's stopping you?" Jin wouldn't.
"I have to get ready to earn more money. I have this expensive slut to keep."
"You haven't even called your cab yet," Jin points out and doesn't remove his own hands from anywhere, because the cab could take, like, five minutes.
Kame gives him a look, then gets out his phone and orders a cab to a couple of streets away without ever taking his eyes off all the places Jin isn't wearing clothes.
He slips the phone back in his pocket and grips Jin's wrist and pins it against the door; sticks his tongue in Jin's mouth and tells Jin with his hand in Jin's sweatpants just how desperate Jin must be, and when he really has to go, he's right about that.
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Date: 2013-02-15 06:45 pm (UTC)first, i love that kame seems to really gets some badly needed rest when he's with jin..not the duty type of sleep but resting sleep..though he only slept for two hours..things seems to be going well with kame's battle with julie lets just say that after a week of successful but shitty week, kame got his reward with jin there..
and for someone who's very careful with his moves these days, kame seems to abandon that when he's with jin, letting jin take control of his phone, eating and sleeping because jin tells him to..i love bossy jin..before and after they had sex..
elegant zombie--a great way to describe kame when he is overworking himself..
and the one thing that i've been wanting jin to do:
finally jin admits that he wants kame..and said to to kame's face too..i guess the almost a week of contemplation, he finally came up to the conclusion that he wants kame and he loves the things that kame does to him..and now that he's over his denial, everything they did now seems different..there's more to it now than just gratification on kame's side and money on jin's..i like that very much..
thanks for the update..really, really love this one..!!!
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:18 pm (UTC)Jin needed those few days of thinking, yes. It's different when you act instinctively than when you actually have to look at what you're doing, but... well, he looked, and decided he was okay with it. And now he can let Kame know. :D
Thank you for your comment! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-15 06:50 pm (UTC)I almost snorted out my dinner. Oh god. Hilarious. There you go, Jin. Embrace the humour XD
Sdfgjk the domesticity. Dinner. Getting defensive. Making longer plans while trying not to be too obvious. Jin being a mother hen. Unf ♥
HAHAHA POOR KAME HAVING TO GIVE HIS PASSWORDS AWAY. I should've guessed that XDD Ahhh, it's such an embarrassing situation.
And FINALLY they're talking about what they want! GOOD. TOOK THEM LONG ENOUGH :|
Kame still drinks almost as slowly as Jin. Two naked guys on a futon with tea cups. Cozy.
Lovely ♥♥
Sdfgjk SUCH A STEAMY ENDING. Go go~ Ahhhh, the mood is getting so much better ♥ SURPRISING WHAT A LITTLE BIT OF OPENNESS CAN DO.
It was a long wait~ and I can't wait for more, hahaha XD ♥♥♥♥♥
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:18 pm (UTC)We're happy all the components of the chapter work for you :) It was time for a bit of domesticity, even if Kame would argue that he doesn't really have time for that soppy nonsense!
Thank you for commenting! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-15 07:16 pm (UTC)I Love this part because of million reasons!!! Elegant zombie has someone to take care about him and feed, even if Kame is not 19, still he is hopeless and I love how Jin knows everything about Kame.
Jin has some time to figure things out and understand what he really needs. Kame is trying to be noble and show his appreciating, just giving a money and Jin making all the things clear between them.
I wonder why poor Kame was so confused that Jin is willingly sleeping with him. I love this scene, so intense and so adorable, the fluffiest fluff ever ♥
So Ueda can switch sides :| curios how things will develop with agency and Kat-tun and Kame and his world domination plan!
The ending is the sweetest! I was waiting for a kissing from the beginning of this story! I love it!
The most amazing part of this story is the feeling that Akame share here, just the atmosphere around them, even if things are complicated they understand what is going on inside their heads!
And Kame must buy a collar to Jin XD I love the idea XD
Thank you for amazing update ♥
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:18 pm (UTC)I wonder why poor Kame was so confused that Jin is willingly sleeping with him.
Well... he thought Jin did it for the money. He knew that Jin didn't totally hate it, but he didn't think he'd do it voluntarily, either. He knows Jin 'isn't gay' and he doesn't realize Jin loves him. So why would Jin sleep with him if he doesn't have to?
It seems like everyone was waiting for the kissing! We are quite stunned. :) (Though of course, it is significant for their changing relationship.)
We're really happy the atmosphere works - it's our little fluff paradise. :D
Thank you for this lovely comment! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-15 07:19 pm (UTC)I've missed you last week !!
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Date: 2013-02-15 09:57 pm (UTC)"Slum City Host Club," Jin says, "how may we help you?" I guess there's no need to worry abt Jin and how he's dealing with the money for sex thing...perhaps it should be Kame we should be worried abt and how likely he's going to run himself ragged juts over-thinking and worrying...
It was very cute how much Jin looked forward to their date, and also how he mothered Kame once he did get there (because it's not all abt the sex either for Jin!) and makes sure Kame is fed and rested.
Of course, Jin's ulterior motive could be a more energetic Kame when they do get round to the sex...unfortunate really that sex, food and sleep all have to fit into a limited time period and more of one has to mean less of another, and Jin, very thoughtfully sacrificing his needs for Round 2 so that Kame can sleep some more (and hopefully not look like an elegant zombie next time!).
SBY64...is this a version up of AKB48? Because 48(+numerous others) weren't enough of an information overload....I'd love to know what SBY stands for though, my first reaction is that it's something rude (but that probably because the name reminds of AKB and I dislike them purely because I can't get away from them even though I'm not a fan), but it should be a place name? Like...Shibuya (I can't think of relatively well known place name with those letters in)?
Nothing really says "I love you" from Kame than giving Jin free rein with his phone and email...all the information and contacts....
The whole Kame being hesitant and needing 3 invitiations from Jin before he'll touch reminds me of SDW when they first started seeing each other again after Kame had his breakdown and pulled himself together. Thankfully, Jin's not shy about what he wants and Kame here recovers quickly and goes back to being confident and full of himself (entirely deservedly too after Jin admits to succumbing to his awesomeness). Still kind of sad though to see Kame being so off-kilter because Jin looked after him and made sure he ate and slept...Does no one try to look after Kame anymore? Not even Koki?
Jin's got catching up to do, from wanting nothing but peace and quiet and for his landlord to go away. Yes Jin, dare to dream and want, Kame likes people with ambition! He probably also likes the challenge of helping you fulfil those wishes too!
It's kind of sad abt Ueda when the brief mentions of Koki and Junno have been quite happy (not the cat scandal but that Kame's protective of them and Junno's in a steady relationship and Koki's pets live to a ripe old age). I guess Ueda doesn't really have much of a choice, he either gets very involved in the politics or keeps his head down. If he wanted to, he could probably make a lot of trouble for Kame just because they're in the same group and Ueda has to cooperate for KT to work. And being in KT, Kame would squash any scandals abt Ueda anyway. Have they grown so far apart that Kame doesn't feel safe working with Ueda unless he's got blackmail material on him? And Koki and Junno- does that mean they've both openly shown support for Kame against Julie?
The money thing - yes, I'm sure all the worry abt Jin possibly having issues reconciling sex with Kame and money was a complete waste of time. I should have been worrying about Kame instead!
Thank you for the update and I look forward to the next one!
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:20 pm (UTC)You're completely right. There's never been reason to worry about Jin and the sex/money thing, really. Whereas Kame... he's on a thin edge.
Of course, Jin's ulterior motive could be a more energetic Kame when they do get round to the sex...
We now picture Jin consulting nutrition charts (best protein ratio for sustained performance) and sleep research (influence of REM-sleep on refractory period) to create the best possible environment for Kame to perform at peak capacity. >_>
SBY64...is this a version up of AKB48?
YES, and YES to Shibuya, too! We like your mind! :D
Nothing really says "I love you" from Kame than giving Jin free rein with his phone and email...all the information and contacts....
:D
The whole Kame being hesitant and needing 3 invitiations from Jin before he'll touch reminds me of SDW when they first started seeing each other again after Kame had his breakdown and pulled himself together.
Yeah, you're right, there are certain parallels in principle. In each case, Kame is really not sure of his welcome. Here, it's not about guilt, but he didn't really think Jin simply wanted him, when it's not just for money.
Does no one try to look after Kame anymore? Not even Koki?
Koki tries, the sweetie. But Kame is too strong-minded to let him. It takes somebody a bit more brazen to get Kame to be sensible.
I guess Ueda doesn't really have much of a choice, he either gets very involved in the politics or keeps his head down. If he wanted to, he could probably make a lot of trouble for Kame just because they're in the same group and Ueda has to cooperate for KT to work.
Yes, indeed. Our Ueda just doesn't want any part of this stuff, and he's been good at keeping himself out of trouble.
Have they grown so far apart that Kame doesn't feel safe working with Ueda unless he's got blackmail material on him? And Koki and Junno- does that mean they've both openly shown support for Kame against Julie?
Kame's not really looking for blackmail material, he just wants to be really sure Ueda isn't dealing with the other side behind his back. He just can't afford to trust anybody, it's not really Ueda's fault. :-/
Koki has always stood with Kame. Junno owes Kame, no matter what he might have done before, and isn't keeping aloof like Ueda, but he's not getting himself actively involved, either. All these guys have jobs to do and never signed up for politics, and if Kame makes the choice to involve himself that's really his outlook. He probably made KAT-TUN a bit more vulnerable by doing that, too, which is not something that would make them all too happy.
Thank you for this cool comment! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-15 10:27 pm (UTC)So, like I said before: I'm glad Jin said it to Kame! When he said he likes it because it drowns out stuff, I was kind of worried. I thought, "Oh no, what if Jin just likes Kame for the sex and nothing else?" But, well, the kiss at the door proved me wrong (I hope!). I love that Kame pounced immediately. xD They should do the doorfucking in the future! Also love that Kame got his hands in Jin's sweatpants, it's a nice image. :P
I also love that everything is so much easier between them now. Because of Jin's help, because Jin's different feelings, because a whole lot of other things too. It was just nice, and fun, to read their most normal conversation of the story. Oh, and now that I think about it again, I'm curious which scandals Koki got into... Aside from that 'set his cat on fire' thing. I'm curious. :D (But pretty sure I'll never find out anyway.)
Jin's really considerate, having Kame crash for a while. And then Kame actually gave him the password/code to his phone (and what a password, I love it!), which was just... awesome. And when Kame gave his wallet to Jin without hesitation that was really nice, too. Even if at first I didn't like that Jin was still getting paid, but then I realized that Jin might not see it as 'service money' anymore.
The thing with the girl is working out too, I'm glad! You never know if Julie might've hidden her somewhere... Though I guess Hokkaido isn't exactly not-hiding either. I hope Kame will win against her, he just has to. And I hope Nakamaru takes the news about the girl not too badly, he deserves better.
Hmm, I think that's it! The story's almost over, it seems, with only one week to go, but I'll be patiently waiting for however more chapters you have. :)
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:20 pm (UTC)"Oh no, what if Jin just likes Kame for the sex and nothing else?"
LOL, okay, that would be an interesting twist of affairs. *g* No, we think it's no spoiler if we assure you our brains didn't go there. Jin liked Kame long before he got to like sex with him. :D
And then Kame actually gave him the password/code to his phone (and what a password, I love it!), which was just... awesome. And when Kame gave his wallet to Jin without hesitation that was really nice, too. Even if at first I didn't like that Jin was still getting paid, but then I realized that Jin might not see it as 'service money' anymore.
More important than the sex, this stuff. :) And yeah, Jin isn't seeing it as payment, really, more like... well, he needs it, Kame can spare it, so why shouldn't he get it. *g*
Quite a bit to come yet, it's a bit more than a week really, and also an epilogue. :)
Thank you for this lovely comment. :D
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Date: 2013-02-16 12:10 am (UTC)i really can't stop to wonder how they'll end up...
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:20 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-16 12:55 am (UTC)no dirty pun intended xDplus that last scene had me heart sinking into all mushy, gooey feels. haha, they're being so cute to each other. loloh and last part already next week right? can't wait to see what happens to them. xD
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:21 pm (UTC)Glad you like the humour and the *cough* balls. *g* Watch out who you call cute, Kame will kill you with a glance! ;p
No, not last. The count's not completely precise because we didn't want to deal in sevenths of weeks. >_> A bit to go yet. :)
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Date: 2013-02-16 02:21 am (UTC)and take note, i might always remember jin as the "expensive slut to keep". i mean, after al, that's his image, right??
thanks so much for this update... :D it was worth all the wait... :D
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:21 pm (UTC)'expensive slut to keep'... that is a heavy burden of responsibility you are putting on us. ;p
Thank you for commenting! ♥
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Date: 2013-02-16 03:14 am (UTC)XD
i love this. i'm waiting for the update and here it is... perfect!
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Date: 2013-02-17 02:21 pm (UTC)Glad to be of service! :)
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Date: 2013-02-16 05:49 am (UTC)But it is truly interesting. Their interactions and conversations are almost....normal. Like Kame just happened to visit his boyfriend after a hard day at work and spend some quality time with him, to chill out. Maybe that was how Kame felt. When Jin let him eat and sleep for a while before proceeding to the fucking. It must have been the reason why he felt a bit guilty for making Jin seem like a whore.
"Obviously, you have a magic cock and it cured me of my heterosexual ways."
LOL! Jin's pretty funny these days. Must be because of Kame's magic cock. XD
And Ueda. I don't really know what's going on with Ueda in RL either. He seems to be in a world of his own. But I hope that here in the 9 1/2 Weeks verse, he's against Julie but just doesn't want to muck around in the politics surrounding the Jimusho.
Anyways, thanks for the update. This chapter was really quite interesting. (^___^)v
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Date: 2013-02-16 01:16 pm (UTC)I keep re-reading small parts and go all *___________* over again.
my mind is flailing non-stop
This is glorious. *___________*
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Date: 2013-02-23 10:35 pm (UTC)It's 2023 and summer, some people are currently celebrating his 27th birthday in 2013.
and you wrote thirty-fucking-six here? o.o shouldn't he be a year older?
this maths stuff is getting to me ¬.¬;
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Date: 2013-02-16 09:06 pm (UTC)FIRST THE FACT THAT THEY'RE NOT EVEN REALLY TSUNDERE ANYMORE :'D
THEN JIN FEEDING KAME AND LETTING HIM SLEEP BEFORE THE SEX HOW FUCKING SWEET IS THAT ESPECIALLY SINCE HE'S WANTED KAME ALL WEEK SO BADLY BUT ITS LIKE HE CAN'T BE SELFISH WITH KAME AND TAKES CARE OF HIM SINCE NO ONE ELSE WILL
AND KAME INITIALLY NOT WANTING THE SEX AND JUST WANTING TO PAY JIN FOR BEING BOYFRIEND-Y. /DEEEEAD. I was sooo shocked, I was literally like "KAME BB ARE YOU FEELING OKAY HAS YOUR LACK OF SLEEP FINALLY KILLED YOUR BRAIN." XD But I'm so soo proud of him for being really nice and actually thoughtful of Jin, even though it made me a bit sad that he's been thinking the whole time that Jin never really wanted it. ._.
AND THAT BRINGS ME TO JIN WANTING IT AND SAYING SO AND ADMITTING THAT HE DOESNT MIND KAME BEING A BOSSY BITCH BECAUSE IT MAKES HIM FEEL GOOD FINAAAAAAALLY :'D Goodbye denial, you will not be missed! XD This is also my favorite sex scene thus far because it's the first one where it didn't feel one-sided or that it was all about Kame just taking what he wanted. He spent all that that before just touching Jin instead of just jumping him like usual and found out new stuff that Jin likes and it was seriously wonderful. :'D
BUT MY VERY VERY FAVORITE PART WAS WHEN JIN INSTEAD OF TAKING THE MONEY GAVE HIM MONEY AND KISSED HIM I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THEM TO MAKE OUT SINCE WEEK 3 I LITERALLY THREW UP MY ARMS IN THE AIR AND SHOUTED "YEEES!" I'M NOT EVEN KIDDING YOU GUYS. X'D THEY ARE OFFICIALLY BOYFRIENDS IDC WHAT THEY THINK THEY ARE A COUPLE OKAY.
Also, I spent at least 5 minutes laughing at this line: "Obviously, you have a magic cock and it cured me of my heterosexual ways."
/criesrainbowsoverchapterfortwohours
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Date: 2013-02-18 05:55 pm (UTC)Having said that, it's nice to hear that we gave you desired-event overload. :) Yes, lots of things have been coming together here. IT WAS TIME. #dramaticmusic
Well, come on, Kame tries his best to be all tsuntsun... only he's getting more deredere by the meeting. Poor guy, it's the exhaustion. But he's got reason to think that Jin never wanted it, really. He knows Jin isn't gay and that it started out being just about the money. It's not like Jin kept him apprised his internal development all the time. *g*
(He didn't think Jin hated it. Just that it was... pragmatic.)
IN WANTING IT AND SAYING SO AND ADMITTING THAT HE DOESNT MIND KAME BEING A BOSSY BITCH BECAUSE IT MAKES HIM FEEL GOOD FINAAAAAAALLY
LOL yes. This Jin likes bossy bitch Kame very, very much. Somebody to tell him what to do but without expecting him to be all polite and humble. :D
All those people who wanted kisses. ALL THOSE PEOPLE! They were not in a 'kissing place', okay? They were in a 'you give me cash and you can fuck my mouth' place. They had a mutually beneficial business deal, not a relationship. :p
(Um, Jin does take ALL HIS MONEY before he gives him back A TINY LITTLE BIT. He figures that he needs it more than Kame. >_>)
We couldn't resist the magic cock...
Thank you for this awesome comment! ♥♥♥
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Date: 2013-02-16 09:42 pm (UTC)Har har sassy Jin, me gusta!
Finally the next part! I was starving for some solo&jo smut and damn you girls really never disappoint!
gawd I'd love to see Jin in a position like Kame put him
and I love it when he calls him a slut QQ *dirtyshamefulltearsAnd they finally kissed! Awkward but with fervor!
Besides the dirtyyessex I really love how they behave around each other now. Kame not being as tense as in the beginning, even being to be able to catch some sleep and Jin regaining some confidence.
I hope Kames worries will be put to a rest now and he won't collapse from stress :<
There should be more than 9 1/2 weeks, I don't want this fic to end!! :<
I'm sorry I don't really know how to write good comments, I just have a lot of feelings!
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Date: 2013-02-19 10:32 am (UTC)gawd I'd love to see Jin in a position like Kame put him and I love it when he calls him a slut QQ *dirtyshamefulltears
Amen, sister. *g*
Kissing, yes. To general approval. :)
Kame's worries still need a bit more work, but he's getting there. Probably. :)
What do you mean you don't write good comments? We love your feelings! ♥♥♥
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Date: 2013-02-16 11:52 pm (UTC)I KNEW IT. Since their last session, I had a feeling the kiss would come very soon 8D I have fun all the time playing them out loud (... i shouldn't be telling you this :")) trying to figure out what could happen to them, what they could be thinking, what they're gonna say next... I'm glad I've managed to read them so well XD <3
And now what~ Kame's going to invite Jin over ? They're going to spend the night together ? If Kame can find time that is.
It doesn't matter what. It just got a whole lot more complicated though. Now that actual wants and needs are out on the
futontable 8D Kame's already starting to hold himself back, caring for Jin~I still love the way Jin gets answers from Kame even when the latter seems to want to give them the least. He went from spitting at Jin to giving him whatever he wants :3 jin's so in control in that story.
I love how you call their feelings "this floating thing between them".
Or how Jin went "from wanting nothing but peace and quiet and for his landlord to go away" to this. I think it's the sentence that describes best jin's journey so far.
I'm not saying I want them to move out together get married and adopt 15 pets - I wouldn't mind though ! but I hope their relationship will end up magic-cock big and beautiful.
I'm happy things are a tiny bit slower for Kame and he gets whole evenings off ... hoping the plural isn't ambitious.
And of course, Jin forcing Kame to rest again... How sweet ;A; And the never-ending trust between them .... ;A;
THANK YOU FOR SUCH A NICE UPDATE AGAIN
Edit: I thought I had typed something about Ueda... but yeah I was discussing this with Peri and we really hope Ueda is on Kame's side D: that he's just being his queen-of-ice self... Kame doesn't need more trouble with KAT-TUN... And I'm kind of hoping Yucchi could come back to the band now T__T
Edit 2: also, also! super curious about whether Kame's gonna greet him with a kiss next time *_______*
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Date: 2013-02-19 10:32 am (UTC)Oooh, how we'd like to spy on your apartment. :D Yes, you called the kiss right. It had to happen.
And now what~ Kame's going to invite Jin over ? They're going to spend the night together ? If Kame can find time that is.
Maybe maybe maybe... #nospoilers
He went from spitting at Jin to giving him whatever he wants :3 jin's so in control in that story.
He is! (He's having great fun, too.) We totally squealed at this. :D
Yeah, Ueda is simply being ice-queen-ish. He's not evil, we wouldn't do that. (We like him too much.) But he doesn't want part of the scheming, even Kame's scheming.
Thank you for this coooool comment. ♥
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Date: 2013-02-17 12:45 am (UTC)the following is after re-reading. headdesks. the above l-k still applies, but..jin's SCHC. darn. and now jin shares hub's humour? [for the lady is a tramp..]
and tbh, this chapter? just too many good lines/details. [tho' thin bathroom walls - tmi? oh dear. am i turning prudish at my age? perish the thot].
at jin's initial embarrassment my head script ran: oh yeah, it's kame. course he's embarrassed. then, uh, it's kame? right. so. no way he'd be embarrassed, then. cos it's kame. but, it's kame. whut?. man, i hate my head sometimes..
They sway, Jin holding on, keeping his balance, and maybe they should just let go, fall, take it from there nice image of their coupleinthemaking.. tho' sway implies a rather smoother manoeuvre, possibly, than the series of lurches so far. which may not be getting much better, if the midddle's anything to go by - kame's stop/go, and jin's frantic confessions. a tuck behind the ear here, rough there.
you got my gut with this line tho' : Kame leans close, and just that, everything aside, warmth and another person, is wonderful i don't quite have the english: jin, qui a du sentir le manque.. missing so much. for so long. [jin saaaaad feels]. kame too i guess. but, hey, he was too busy compensating..
then right at the end, ah. i love how, for me, i feel nothing of romance then. nada. just grit - the struggle of wants and desires over soft sighs and simpers. i like it.
in conclusion, it feels like the try for honesty is on. jin's said part of his piece. who and how next?
i still seriously wonder how far you can go with this. not very far, i imagine. but enough, hopefully. #blindfaith
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Date: 2013-02-19 10:32 am (UTC)And yes, poor sad Jin, he's been deprived for so long, and he had time to notice it. Though we figure Kame also had his evenings when he got home from hours of meetings, all wired, thinking 'damn I wish I had someone to fuck'. :/
i love how, for me, i feel nothing of romance then. nada. just grit - the struggle of wants and desires over soft sighs and simpers. i like it.
Welcome to the cold prickly club. :) Except by our definition it is romantic. Just... uh. Differently romantic. *g*
i still seriously wonder how far you can go with this. not very far, i imagine. but enough, hopefully. #blindfaith
Hm, how far in what sense? :D We like a challenge.
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Date: 2013-02-19 10:33 am (UTC)Thank you for this cute comment and, uh, apologies to your brain. ♥ Have fun on your holiday!
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Date: 2013-02-17 03:20 pm (UTC)Whenever my paper drives me crazy, I reread a few paragraphs. workd wonders.
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Date: 2013-02-17 04:19 pm (UTC)[5:31:12 PM] Heli: LOU MY HEART *___*
[5:31:21 PM] Lou: I KNOW MINE TOO
And then I said to Tanttu,
"HFSDJFGSYFGYSUFGSHJFGHJSFDGYSGFUSFGYUSGFISHFGYDFJDGFFD---"
I LOVE THIS CHAPTER ;;___________; ♥♥♥
Ran1582.
Of course that'd be Kame's password XDD And I love it that he just... trust Jin and tells him the password and sleeps. ;www; ♥♥
That gets him a smile. A genuine one. "No," Kame says, and gets to work on his shirt. "I don't think so."
KAME SMILING ;www; ♥♥♥
Kame takes his crossed wrists like it's his right and it aches, and if Jin wanted, a pull would free him, but he doesn't want, god he doesn't want.
This. Is. Incredibly hot and incredibly beautiful. ;;____; Jiiiiiiin Kameeeeeeee ♥♥♥
Kame tells him he wants it and he deserves it and Jin doesn't squirm away, says "yes," plain clean truth spilling out to the world, "I want it," says, "Kame."
Jin saying yes. Jin telling Kame he wants it. Kame thinking Jin doesn't want it and being so sweet and such a puppy about it ;;---; My heart is just melting you guys ♥♥♥
Wanting it. Needing it. Of course Kame would wonder. He didn't even get the cigarette or three to get over it. "Obviously, you have a magic cock and it cured me of my heterosexual ways."
Kame actually flushes. "I was just curious," he says, but he's looking a bit tense for curious.
Oh Jin, you and your sense of humour XDD ♥ And Kame's reaction ♥♥
"I hate people telling me what to do," Jin says, and there's still the buzz, the freedom of not caring. "I've hated it so much. All the rules and the people who try to keep me in line." All those years, all those voices... it's all shut up and out of here now. "But I don't mind when you do it. I don't mind it like this. It's..."
I HAVE NO WORDS FOR THIS I LOVE THIS I LOVE JIN I LOVE KAME I LOVE YOU MASTER WRITERS ;;---; ♥♥♥
"I should put a collar on you," Kame says calmly. "My mark on you. Remind you when I'm gone."
Will there be collar-sex? If I ask really nicely? 8DD ♥
Kame looks strangely caught. Drawn up, watching Jin like Jin can do things to him.
I love this. That... Kame's so vulnerable with Jin, or, lets himself be. Because sure he could keep acting cold. But... it's Jin *___* And Kame can trust him ♥♥♥ Every now and then he seems to get a little insecure but he still trusts Jin.
Two naked guys on a futon with tea cups. Cozy.
Lovely ;www; ♥♥♥
"I have to get ready to earn more money. I have this expensive slut to keep."
XDD oh, Kame ♥♥♥
This chapter. These two. They're getting more and more comfortable and open around each other and I love it ;;___; ♥♥♥ Jin making Kame eat and sleep, caring about him. *pokes you with a love-stick* *not that kind of a love-stick* *how do you poke someone lovingly*
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Date: 2013-02-17 04:21 pm (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2013-02-19 04:13 pm (UTC)His phone rings, the familiar tone.
"Slum City Host Club," Jin says, "how may we help you?"
Might be the best way to start an Akame dialogue - EVER :D
Jin is needy, he has been waiting and thinking and now he WANTS things and Kame gets second thoughts and unsure. Jin was the safe place to get some of his needs taken care of but he also seems to have realized that it might not be the nicest thing to do. But then Jin tells him it's more than fine and he's back to his dominant ways again XD Very nice to see Kazuya get stumped and confused by Jin's comments all the time, especially since Jin isn't the least afraid of him. Jin is more or less pretty awesome, and his detective work is all about how to help Kame somehow. His protectiveness over the turtle is very cute *__*
And then - the kiss x______x And I'm dead.
And sweet jesus, I've been admiering your ways of writing those short sentences and paragraphs that seems to say more than thousand words, and here they really made the story shine. It's going to be a pure joy to reread the whole story once it's finished <33
I'll try my very best not to let it pass so much time before I comment the next time... #ashamed(no subject)
Date: 2013-02-19 08:23 pm (UTC)Jin was the safe place to get some of his needs taken care of but he also seems to have realized that it might not be the nicest thing to do.
Yes. And to the rest of it too.
Glad you appreciated the host club! *g* We did not mean to cause any permanent fatalities, though, and will pass on any responsibility to Akame!
Thank you very much for your comment and the blush-inducing praise! :DDD
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Date: 2013-02-21 10:00 am (UTC)I see you're still indisputably the Queens of All Things Porn! :'D Not that I needed confirmation or anything but... oh my god? What is this you've done here? This is amazing... What is it about your porn that makes it so asdfghj steamy hot and PERFECT and yet it never stops being tasteful... I just, I can't with you guys *_____* #stunnedkitten *____*
Also, this thing between them, I'm still unsure what to call, but I think it's actually starting to make a lot of sense! This Jin is so different from others you've written before: more serious in some ways - I guess it goes with being older? Or maybe being a father? Or both? I'm not entirely sure, but it fits him perfectly - but in other ways... not. I love how he's still as Jin-ish as ever, only a bit different; his circumstances are different too, it only makes sense ^^ I always love your characters - duh, you know that already - but this time it's like you've done a particularly good job, if real Jin doesn't turn out like this by the time he's that age I think I'm going to be very disappointed in him xD Oh god...
He wouldn't move if a volcano was coming for him.
That's so appropriate! I kept thinking about that talk he had before with his children and... so appropriate really xD
I can't believe you actually put a line about healing cocks in there and managed to pull it off flawlessly - you did make me choke on my tea! Evil you! But still, making fun of fandom tropes from within, what is this? How terribly meta of you! <3 I thought it was absolutely brilliant xD
"Meant to ask," Jin remembers, "what about Ueda? What little scandals did you have to rescue him from?"
You know, I'd been wondering the exact same thing up to now. I thought the ways you chose to discredit the boys were most ironic, almost poetic how you took the one thing that defines them best and used it against them - well, okay, you didn't, evil!woman did, but still, that was genius! And I'd been wondering what you'd use againt Ueda and again... this seems most appropriate, considering how he always stands at some distance O.o You'd expect him to be sitting on the fence, the way he is... self-preservation and all. I wonder if he knows Kame had him followed? He wouldn't be particularly happy about that xD And now I have all the mental images of him punching Kame. Again. Um.
And! This chapter! Bloody hell, it's like they finally learnt to talk around each other like the average human being, I've been waiting for this moment forever TT___TT It made me so happy. Those are totally happy tears. I'm so proud of them! I knew you could do it! Go, you! *___*
In previous chapters, I was quite glad to see Jin had been carrying a little investigation of his own behind Kame's back, as he should be with all the mystery surrounding Kame and whatnot! We want to know more about that, keep up the good work Jin! It seems like he's not as devoid of curiosity as he seemed at first - just way more discreet than I gave him credit for *____* - when I was still wondering why the giant elephant in the room... and I guess that makes perfect sense now too. I realise we're still seeing only tiny bits of the bigger picture, but now that everyone - okay, not Ueda, but everyone - even SMAP got dragged into it it seems the bigger picture must be... very big indeed :/ No wonder it's all so secret! D: Oh dear, Kame, whatever did you get yourself into? I can only hope he'll see it through in one piece ;A;
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Date: 2013-02-21 03:05 pm (UTC)Glad you like the porn; glad you like thisJin. Yes, sure he's different, he's been through a lot more than this one, he's older and disillusioned. (Then again, some things never change.) We'd rather he wasn't quite so trampled on by life when he gets to that age, though. >_>
We could not resist the healing cock. There was no way.
Interesting question, whether Ueda knows Kame had him followed. We assume not, because Kame is good like that, but otoh Ueda might suspect it anyway. If he had proof... hm. He might be one of very few people who'd still dare punch Kame, that's true.
In previous chapters, I was quite glad to see...
#grrrrr
it seems the bigger picture must be... very big indeed
It is.
Thank you for commenting.
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Date: 2013-02-24 06:46 pm (UTC)God, Jin is killing me sometimes. *g* And Kame seems like he doesn’t really know what to make out of that. Which is priceless. But still Jin can’t stop the worrying and it’s nice that he thinks he’s healthy for Kame. Which I’m sure he is. :P
It's the first time Jin's heard Kame coming close to admitting he's tired.
But that’s just because he’s with Jin and he can tell Jin he’s tired, because Kame knows (or hopes) Jin will care and take care of him and that maybe Jin knows what’s good for Kame. I think that behind that cold attitude, Kame is still craving for some love and someone who can cares for him and can distract him from all the shit that is going on. Someone around whom Kame doesn’t have to pretend and be paranoid and all.
And well, there Jin is. Caring about Kame’s well being and probably bringing back memories of old days when they were getting along better. Jin still knowing Kame’s habits and probably enjoying how uncomplicated it actually is between them that moment.
Kame shakes his head, swallows down a fish. "Was there yesterday, but no time to come here. PV filming."
Kame must’ve been really hungry, when he can’t really form long sentences anymore. *g* But it’s good. Good, that he let Jin buy him food and take care of him a little. That he knows it would’ve been stupid to insist on Jin not taking care of him.
It’s also great that things are working out in Kame’s favour. Guess that helps him a lot and makes his life easier.
But lol at SBY 64. Is this coming from ‘Shibuya’? (And why are there even more girls now? OMG >___>)
It creeps Jin out, hearing Kame evaluate Julie's conspiracy performance, but maybe that's what you do when you're trying to be better.
Agree with Jin a little here. Although I still think it’s not like Kame really has another choice. Or enjoys playing the role of an asshole. I guess he sometimes likes the authority and power he has. They might come in really handy. But I can’t imagine he enjoys people think he’s just cold. (He didn’t seem too happy when he told Jin that Kimura thinks he was a cold son of a bitch…)
It’s nice that Jin wants to let Nakamaru know. Nakamaru deserves that, although it will probably really hurt the poor guy even more. But I think he still should know the truth. .__.
"You look very good in that shirt," Kame says, staring.
Jin can stare too. And pay attention. "You look like you haven't slept in a week."
Jin and his very different kind of compliments. :P Still cute, though. The way he’s worried again or still. And the way he totally doesn’t believe Kame, because he knows Kame sometimes is overdoing it and tells himself 3 days without sleep are totally normal and okay, because he slept 3 hours every night the week before.
At least Kame's catch is still decent.
I don’t know, but it seems like sometimes Jin wants to see some of the old Kame again. Especially when it comes to baseball. It seems like he would feel better if he knew that Kame hasn’t distanced himself too much from his old life and his former self. That he hasn’t fully become a paranoid and ice-cold manager who doesn’t really look after himself anymore and who has given up on everything that’s fun and that he once loved.
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Date: 2013-02-24 06:47 pm (UTC)And there’s is no better way for Kame to say “Okay, I trusted you so far and I still do and you know how important the whole thing is, so don’t fuck this up now and I love you.” (Okay, except for maybe directly telling Jin that, but I don’t think Kame’s ready for that yet. At least not as long as feelings could make him vulnerable for his enemies and not as long as he still tells himself that Jin doesn’t feel the same.)
Oh and cute password, btw. *g*
"My toothbrush, too?" he says, and Kame flips two fingers against his forehead like Jin's a Bakanishi.
He is a Bakanishi, but a Bakanishi is very appreciated. <3 And I guess Kame appreciates a Bakanishi, too.
I love how Jin is just following Kame after Kame stopped touching. How Jin tries to tell him without words that he wants to be touched and that he wants the sex. That he’s actually craving for it. Only Kame is a bit slow maybe. Or rather… well, I guess he just can’t imagine yet that Jin wants this because he really wants Kame. And I can imagine that Kame is thinking stuff like Jin just feels forced into this, because of the money and because it’s not what Jin really wants either. And Kame is already feeling too much and probably doesn’t want Jin to think of him as an ice-cold bastard who just uses people the way he needs. I bet Kame totally rules out the possibility that Jin might have fallen in love with him, because Kame is a bit stupid sometimes. And he doesn’t want to seem like he’s taking advantage of Jin when Jin’s doing so much for him.
But at least Jin has not only admitted to himself that he likes this, he’s also ready to say that straight into Kame’s face and this is brilliant and probably totally not what Kame has expected. And it is cute how Kame still seems to doubt it, how it is still incomprehensible for him that Jin would even ask for sex and how he maybe even wonders if Jin really means this.
And it even seems so incomprehensible for Kame that Jin might also like it rough. Or doesn’t mind it when it’s rough, that is. But hey, at least Kame wanted to make it nice for Jin (or what he thought might be nicer for Jin), only he totally has no clue what Jin likes and thinks of all this. And he totally has no clue that Jin has thought all of this through. That Jin knows by now how he feels about this and why. And that he totally not hates this at all. And Kame doesn’t yet know that just because everyone else thinks he’s a cold asshole, Jin just doesn’t think that’s the case. But well, how would Kame even know.
When everything's gone except this, and nothing is complicated. And he doesn't see anymore why he shouldn't have it.
Because Jin enjoys not having to think for some time. He had enough time to think over the past days, weeks, years and his life has been complicated for so long, so why shouldn’t he just enjoy that it’s not that bad anymore now? That he gets his second chance and would be stupid enough to deny himself that.
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